How do you feel when exams are over, your clothes are dried and neatly folded and your room is neat and tidy again? Relieved? Excited to start enjoying? You suddenly seem to be in a super duper good mood and can't help smiling right? Regardless of a stomach cramp and a headache threatening to control your life...

And off you go to the nearest shopping centre to reward your hardwork with something material, something that you have been wanting but waited patiently for it till your exams are out of the way...

Before you know it, your hands are laden with several books that you can't wait to hide your head in for the next couple of days each second you have nothing else more urgent to keep you occupied.

How then would you feel when you reach home and someone asked you, "Can't you wait to go shopping tomorrow or something?" just because you were late in bringing back the newspaper that was asked? Or how about, "You went to buy books at Popular? Didn't you just said you had no money?" just because there were several things you asked to be bought without giving the money? In fact, you had every intention of paying back the amount.... How then would you feel when on top of all that, a remark given, "When you get your bonus, I expect double."

Crushed? Unhappy? No more mood?

Plus plus plus, your promise to upload some pictures onto the net after your exams is demanded, before you get to even enjoy the first line of your newly bought books....

To top it all off, you can't say anything about it. What then would you do?

Rant it out on your blog, which you are super glad no one reads anymore, and try your best to hold the tears in your eyes, as a symbol of the tantrum you can't have. You are afterall 20 years old....

Don't you just wish you'd said you'd wanna spend the night at your hostel? Your escapade, it seems...

I am suddenly in love with Twilight :)

Oh, I feel that Bella looks abit like Hermione...

Anyway, I'm so getting the book, and if I can, I'd wanna catch New Moon in the movies.

Oh, I got this from wikipedia, and I guess this particular theme is what I enjoyed most from Twilight:
Other major themes of the series include choice and free will.[11][18] Meyer says that the books are centered around Bella's choice to choose her life on her own, and the Cullens' choices to abstain from killing rather than follow their temptations: "I really think that's the underlying metaphor of my vampires. It doesn't matter where you're stuck in life or what you think you have to do; you can always choose something else. There's always a different path."[18]

Saya rasa saya nak blog niari. Dari kelmarin nak blog but kept posponing sebab rasa serba salah blog time exam... Not that sekarang dah abis exam, two more papers to go, but rasanya sekarng cam best time to blog gitu...

Cam ramai gitu yang pressure pasal exams. Firstly, being in NIE means die die you must do well, takut2 kena terminate sape nak gi bayar bond tu beribu2 kan...

Secondly, kat NIE 3rd and 4th year tak dapat allowance. But if you do really well, as in Director's List or something, they give you a stipend of $5000 for the year. Looking at how much I spend now, all the bills I need to pay and all that my family needs for expenses (lagi2 my dad retiring in a few years) I feel that I need that money. Sapelah aku nak harap untuk makan minum dua tahun tuu. I try to save up now but entah cukup ke tak. Baru berangan nak ikut Harizaj gi Australia hmmm... Ni hah bill Andalus dua bulan lom bayar, tak bayar takble duduk exam ish. Duit ade, cuma malas nak keluarkan cos takde NETS kena bayar cash leceh.

Thirdly, I found out part of the reason I'm in STC.... It's so I can focus and do well in my studies. Hmm...

Then kelmarin Liyana & I went back to TP and we saw the Director's List pat Business School, and Liyana reminded me to do well in studies then as well as in an sms she sent afterwards.

Then according to Kak Maryam, Ust and the other STC waiting for me to finish my exams to have a meeting, plus Ust concerned of my involvement in YEAH this Saturday just shows how much studies should be prioritized.

Plus... my parents... Here I am at hostel, and not at home, to study as the environment is more study-friendly... And my mum's sweet sweet messages over the past few days shows how much she is probably missing me and wants me to do well...

Rasa terharu ade, pressure ade, motivated pon ade... So... I must do well! And in order to do well, gotta practice D-U-I-T!

Ya Allah! Ajarilah aku apa yang aku jahil dan ingatkanlah aku apa yang aku lupa...

K, gotta study!!! Pray for me yeah!

I believe that I am here only because I am meant to be here and I have a purpose to fulfill...

I read Musafir Cinta by Taufiqurrahman months ago, and finally today I managed to watch Syahadat Cinta on Youtube (I do not agree with some of the scenes, but yahhh....

When I revisited my blog post on Musafir Cinta, this was what I found:

Ya Allah, I plead with you for my past sins to be forgiven. I plead with you, the Creator of all creations, to lead my family and I to the right path. And I plead with you too, may we die a death of a Muslim who remembers you and utters your name before the roh is lifted, may we die as pure as when we were born. I plead with you, O Allah the Most forgiving, the Most Powerful, to whom we shall return to. I plead with you, for the safety and peace of my brothers and sisters in Gaza, may they be able to live their lives pleasantly in worship of you or go to you in the state of purest of the pure. May to those suffering right now, you grant them much peace and happiness in the hereafter. O Allah the Almighty, I am but just one of your many humble servants. I am scared of your wrath, yet I hope for your goodness O Allah. For all the goodness you've given me and my family, that all these while I, your shameless servant, has forgotten to thank you for, now I do. All praise be upon You, the Owner of the whole universe. Alhamdulillahi rabb al-amin...

I'm worried, very worried, and I pray to you ya Allah to ease this worry inside me. I, who is such a shameless servant, pray to you and ask you, the Most High, to help me lighten the burden laid upon me and to ease the tasks that lie ahead of me...

I am feeling the same way I feel then, though then I had my MP report looming over me and now I have my exams looming over me. How time flies...

I've catched Ayat-ayat cinta and Syurga Cinta. Looking forward to catch Ketika Cinta Bertasbih & Nur Kasih next... And The Mentalist... AFTER EXAMS!