I think I shall leave a trace this morning...

Haiz, I was happy over the weekends, see ABIT of development in myself and suddenly on Sunday evening I started getting all disappointed with myself back. :( So sad, when will I ever change, urgh! What will ever cause me to change??? Is Ramadhan not a strong enough reason??? Is death of a close one not a strong enough reason???

This Ramadhan Ust Jamal shared with us a few opportunities that we MUST NOT fail to seize, and they are:
1. The opportunity to seek taubatan nasuha (based on the hadith that Rasulullah saw mengaminkan doa Jibril, penghulu sekian malaikat, di mimbar)
2. The opportunity to be closer to the Al-Qur'an Al-Karim (syahru Ramadhan syahru Qur'an!)
3. The opportunity to manage time better
4. The opportunity to increase in good deeds
because failing to seize these opportunities amounts to getting the displeasure (wai in Arabic or celakalah in Malay) of Allah...

Sounds harsh huh, perhaps it is, but Ust Jamal was sharing this with a bunch of leaders, a bunch of pejuang agama, a bunch of da'ie ila Allah insyaAllah. Who are we to say we are leaders/pejuang agama/da'ie if we are so full of sins at the end of this month, or our hearts are not tied down with His words, or our time management is haphazard, or our deeds are just minimal?

Today marks the 12th of Ramadhan... 8 more days before we reach the last 10 days, 18 days till we meet the end of such a blessed month.

Andai ini merupakan Ramadhan terakhirku...

Anyway, my grandaunt passed away yesterday morning. Not really that close to her, only see her once a year or so. She's been sick for the past 18 years? For as long as I can remember, I only see her on a walking stick, half paralysed, walking very very slowly with the help of the maid. And for just as long as I can remember, each time we meet she would look at my face into my eyes for a long time, and when I salam her she would hold me close and each time she would leave me with some advice. Just as my other grandaunt, I remember them for their advices. Eventhough I can hardly remember what the exact advices are, common ones: study hard, don't go around looking for relationships, take good care of yourselves; I value them...

Yesterday I saw my grandaunt's face, so pale, so serene, so still. My granduncle was the first to tabur pacai (err...?) around her head, and looking at them, I just feel so sebak. I feel for him. He's been taking good care of her and now she goes, to return to Allah... I see my aunts and uncles and cousins continue to tabur pacai and I feel for them. What if it's my own mother there? Or my own grandmother? How it feels to see their pale face one last time and never to see it again afterwards except in pictures, videos and memory... Never able to talk to them again... Never to kiss them again... Never to see their smile again...

People leave us... No matter how close we are, how much we love and care for them, one day they WILL no doubt leave us... (Or we leave them first we don't know either) It's about how much we treasure having them around, being able to talk to them and seeing them smile... And it's about remembering that nothing, absolutely NOTHING is kekal in this world. There is only ONE who is kekal. And it's about remembering what are we here on this earth for again... All of us have a predetermined limited time given to us, all of us WILL go someday. The question is, what will be our state that we leave the world in, and will our deeds be enough when it's time to go?

Ok I'm procrastinating....

Today, I am in the worst state of health than I have been in many months. Woke up for sahur with a sore throat and soon after, runny nose start to develop. Not to mention chunks of phlegm stuck in my throat, plus a twisted thigh (how in the world did that happen???) and also pain in the knee and on the shoulder-arm when I woke up in the late afternoon. Yes, that's right, late afternoon... I was knocked out this morning after my routine. All the way till Asar. Whilst yesterday I was knocked out soon after zikir after Subuh... SO tired. I think I have yet to adjust my timing.... And I should really work something out soon to prepare myself for when school starts. Staying awake till 2am in the morning everyday is just not the way to go...

And I just seem to have so much air in my body.... As in, in Malay terms: banyak angin uhh... Scientifically I dunno what it is though hehe

I'm excited to start Year 2. I really really hope to be more disciplined. Hope is not enough though, need more than that definitely...

Anyway, how's Ramadhan over the past few days? Well, bad to worst. I lost that spirit of Ramadhan well after the first day, argh! Noooooooo....

It's true, if you're not used to doing something before Ramadhan, don't expect to do it easily when you enter Ramadhan just because it is Ramadhan. You need to train yourself, and it should start before Ramadhan...

Well, but better to start in Ramadhan than never at all! It's hard though. Cause I'm not used to certain things, I forget that I 'want' to do them in the first place. We all need friendly reminders...

Just like lighting a fire to light up the night. You want the fire to carry on burning throughout the night to give you light and to fend off unwanted animals. It may take a few tries to get the technique right. I want to make sure that the fire I'm lighting doesn't die off in the middle of the night, I want it to last even through the whole of the next day till the next night arrives.

The thing is, there's only ONE Ramadhan compared to 11 other months! It's like experiencing summer, a short night, but a very long day...

I would love to share what I brought back from the FMSA lecture just now, but I should get back to my work. It was due yesterday... I'm blogging just to get myself typing so I can type more freely for the report. Otherwise I can't seem to get started. Inertia... Haha, been a long time since I last heard that...

I plan to spend my fourth day of Ramadhan at home completing my unfinished tasks... We'll see how it goes ;)

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, Allah has given me this wonderful opportunity to meet Ramadhan again :)

Ahlan wa sahlan ya Ramadhan! I've been longing for you :)))

Actually, I was hesitant to start this post. I was hesitant, scared of people's judgement, scared of what people will say... Because people have judged (wrongly I must add) and people have said... I wrote an entry in a book yesterday, I felt so free to write anything and everything! But, it felt selfish... I want to share my thoughts and experiences... I just have to be more careful...

Putting that aside, aaahhh, it feels great to be in Ramadhan again. And this year, because of YOG (the only good thing about it in my opinion, after all the hassle it has caused) many if us have 3 weeks of free reign this Ramadhan, whee~!

Anyway, I helped out for awhile at Ghufran this afternoon, packing, carrying, counting the porridge to be given out. It feels good to be doing it again. The first year I was a volunteer at Ghufran, I helped with the packing, not knowing many people smile here smile there don't talk much. Today, 5-6 Ramadhan down the road here I am still! But with a slightly more responsibility. People trust you, and with trust comes responsibility :)

It was nice to see the Spingfield students helping out. I heard that some of them ASKED their teacher to be part of it. Hmm, many might be negative and say, "Alar, just because they want more CIP hours...." but let's give the the benefit of the doubt. Perhaps they really want to join in the spirit of helping during Ramadhan :))

This year I felt a renewed purpose for being there packing. As my fingers get red and hot (and sticky) from handling the hot porridge with my bare fingers, I pray that these very fingers would be my witness in the hereafter that eventhough I did not contribute in monetary form, I contributed in terms of effort in making food for people to break fast with (it'am) :))) I was very excited about this fact that I so wanted to share with the Springfield students, but they were all boys, and I was kinda paiseh haha so in the end, I didn't.

Oh, Ramadhan teaches me to talk nicely. HAHA. Cause... other people are fasting too. People are tired and hungry and thirsty, and therefore, they are grumpy.... So you have to smile and talk nicely to them. As the powerpuff girls love to sing "Love love love love love, love love, makes the world go round" hahahaha. So yeah, no matter how bad is the day, smile, be nice and polite... It's a sadaqah anyway ;)

Some people can get pretty unreasonable, volunteer and jemaah alike. Probably they're tired... y'know... What matters is, as long as we are not one of the kind :)

That's pretty much my thoughts for today. Have about 30-45mins more to go before break fast....

I think I shall type out parts of what I wrote in my book yesterday...

Day 0 Ramadhan

Ramadhan... Ramadhan... I wonder how this Ramadhan would be.

Two years ago, I was having internship and my Ramadhan was spent doing my SIP and MP, and because I would usually finish my tasks late, I had to break fast at work or at a mosque near the workplace (TLL, NUS) Sometimes I had to miss my Terawih (I think) as I go in and out of the cold room with my project... Sometimes I would do my own Terawih at home. Or if I have the chance, I would rush to any mosque near there be it Masjid Haji MOhd Salleh (izzit??), Masjid Tentera DiRaja or Masjid Darussalam. Or even Masjid Darul Aman or Masjid Mydin if I was on the train home during break fast. Rarely do I get to go to Ghufran.

Last year too I didn't get to Terawih often at Ghufran because I was staying at hostel and I either have NTUMS Ramadhan meeting or silat at night... So i ended up doing my Terawih in my room on my own, if I had the strength... Or if I could, I encouraged my friends to join the NTUMS Terawih prayers at South Spine.

Ramadhan means alot to me. I so-called 'turned over a new leaf' in Ramadhan in 2006. Or at least it was the point I was introduced to Ghufran's activities, volunteering etc. I started doing many new things that year, including Terawih (if I'm not mistaken) and it was the start of my journey in becoming a better Muslim, and a better person in general. And I want to make sure that every Ramadhan will me become better and better.

I have many goals this Ramadhan. Mainly is to keep what I did last Ramadhan and to UP those where possible. Yeah... And Ghufran dakwah department has prepared a list of ibadah goals that tops my list, yet what's the point of doing them if my heart isn't there. This Ramadhan is a training for my whole self inside and out....

I wonder how this Ramadhan will be for my family. Last year, it wasn't really pleasant, in my opinion. I have many prayers and wishes, mostly concerning my family... May this Ramadhan be better, much much better for my family. I shall keep praying and not lose hope.

Anyway, I had been watching Imam Muda on youtube for the past few days and awww... I'm so kagum of these young men. Haha. Like... woah.... Respect... I pray that, may my jodoh be a true imam (in all aspects) not only for my future family, but also for the community :) Heheh

Oh! It's Maghrib already! May this Ramadhan be a blessed one for me!

Ramadhan is here! Ramadhan is here! Ahlan wa sahlan ya Ramadhan! Alhamdulillah, all praise be to Allah for giving me this opportunity to meet Ramadhan once again.

Tubna ila Allah. Wa raja'na ila Allah. Wa nadimna ya Allah. Wa nadimna ya Allah...

I want to make good use of my Ramadhan. Be well into the spirit of Ramadhan and may I come out of Ramadhan victorious (a better person) or I syahid in it. Either way would be lovely.

I'm currently at Ghufran. Aaaah home sweet home. No matter what people say about this blue mosque, it'll always have a special place in my heart. Ghufran means alot to me.

Darul Ghufran... The meaning of the name itself is already so beautiful. House of forgiveness... May in this house, this Ramadhan, I would be able to do good deeds and be cleansed of my sins.

There's so many people at Ghufran!! While some people find that it is noisy and uncomfortable etc with having so many people, I'm different, I like to see so many people in the House of Allah. It's just so heartwarming...

I received a message from my mum and Fatimah earlier on. It reads:
Salam everyone. My name is SYAABAN. I;m advising you that my neighbour RAMADHAN will be visiting you soon with his wofe REZEKI and two children SAHUR and IFTAAR. They will be accompanied by three grandchildren RAHMAT, BARAKAH and TAUBAT. They will leave after thirty days by EID airlines. Treasure them and you will be blessed. Ramadhan mubarak. May this coming Ramadhan bring lots of NUR in our life. Amin.

Korang percaya tak?

Percaya apa?

Marliyana update ahh!

Mesti ah percaya, ni ngah baca pe... -_-

K dah, berbual sendiri pulak minah ni. Haha.

Well, I'm actually at work. SIP la beb.This explains my MIA-ness for the past month. Not only SIP, but Ramadhan activities took up alot of my time as well...

Fu yooh, my Ramadhan alhamdulillah was filled with fruitful activities. Despite the busy SIP schedule (ahem, pernah sekali tu balik kul 10.30pm okeh), alhamdulillah diberi kesempatan solat terawih beberapa kali. Tak full uh, memang mencabar nak push self to the limits to go everyday. So kadang-kadang kita menang, dapat paksa badan yang dah lemah longlai lepas kerja, tapi kadang-kadang kita kalah. But yang best tu is not only the part dapat solat terawih but also the tempat I get to solat terawih. Memandangkan I'm working at Temasek Lifesciences Lab (TLL) near NUS (fyi, NUS is at buona vista) and my working hours are 8.30-6.00 AT LEAST, terpaksalah terawih in the west area. Alhamdulillah dapat join terawih pat Masjid Tentera, Masjid Darussalam and Masjid Hussain Sulaiman. Dapat jugak sekali qiyam pat Masjid Assyakirin. Woo hoo! Part adventure2 gini, Marliyana sukerr jer!

So anyway, Ramadhan pon dah lepas... Filled with RYC camp (Fityan), Family-in-charge (Ghufran), CPR + Qiyam at Masjid Sultan (Fityan + 15 other mosques) and Projek Jom Ittihad (NI/SP). Those were the major events uh. Yang minor minor cam agih bubur, tadarrus ngan ustazah, qiyam with friends, meetings, post mortem, outings etc added the extra flavour. Gerek ah Ramadhan ni.

Eventhough Ramadhan ni mungkin tak as committed as tahun2 lepas, I'm positive this year's Ramadhan meant more to me and in some ways, it was better than last year.Perception changed. Faith insyaAllah level UP sikit.Alhamdulillah... Memang segala puji bagi Allah yang telah memberi kesempatan seperti ini.

Oh, and tak selalu eh buka ngan air water cooler je and makan only time sahur the next morning. Sebab banyak sangat kerja pat TLL, balik lambat, nampak katil terus zoink.

So ya, as I mentioned earlier, Ramadhan pon dah lepas and now is... apa dia adik2? Tak dengar la, jawab kuat sikit... Apa dia? Syawal? Betul tuh!! K merepek. Jangkit Mus ah, confirm. Lol.

So hari baik bulan baik, walaupun dah terlepas hari pertama, saya Marliyana Binte Mohamad Noor ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri (btw minal aidil wal fa izin makna apa eh?) dan memohon maaf kepada semua atas segala salah silap yang pernah saya lakukan baik dengan sengaja atau tidak, secara terang-terangan atau tidak etc etc... Sry memandangkan Marliyana sekarang kena bayar bill hp sendiri, dia dah belajar jimat sikit so tak main sms2 banyak2. Pakai blog eh hehe.

K tu dah lepas. Penting tuh...

Anyway, amacam Raya semua?? Gerek? Best? Berbaloi?

Mine wasn't so great.Terasa sedih sikit lah... Atas sebab2 tertentu. Tapi depan orang terpaksalah senyum kan. Start acting la sikit kan. Act to the social norms. Behave ow people expect you to behave...

Oh, korang pon cam aku tak? Kena ask the same old questions/advices that you get every single year? Macam TYS sehh... According to Ad, mungkin CYS - Century Year-old Series!!

"Ni yang kecik ni namanya siapa?"
"Dah habis belajar?"
"Belajar rajin-rajin, selagi boleh belajar belajar. Kat Singapore takde paper tak boleh jadi apa-apa."
"Results boleh masuk uni tak?"

Oh, if you guys are wondering, no, I don't get the "Bile nak kahwin" question haha. Firstly cos on first day my family visit those yang prioritise studies over anything else. Secondly because I've got two older brothers who already gets the question. Thirdly because I look too young. LOL.My granduncle thought I am 16!! Kembang la seyh! Dapat discount 3 tahun!! Haha. Eh penting tau. If people think you're as young as 16, you'd probably get duit raya =D Hehe just kidding lahh...

K dah dekat 1hr I take a break nih. Better get back to work. I've got PCR to run, and an MP synopsis to write. Not to mention my SIP logbook and MP workbook to fill in!!! Wonder what should I eat... Hehehe.

Oh I killed 32 flies just now by squashing them, urgh!

So, anyway, jangan lupa puasa 6 dalam bulan Syawal!! Once again, Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir dan batin. TTFN, tata for now!

Alhamdulillah RYC camp was a success, if I may say so. I hope I am able to attend the post mortem... I missed the post camp debriefing as I had to rush to madrasah, which I was already late for actually...

The RYC closing was... a doze-off ah I have to say. By the time we reached the muhasabah part, I only heard "imagine you are on top of that hill" then off I went to imaginary land. Tau2 da habis haha.

But then, the effects of the muhasabah session during RYC camp is still lingering. I need constant reminders like this. But well... I guess if it gets too often, we'd get used to it pulak till there aren't any effect.

I'm loving the songs on Fityan blog. THAT is a good reminder. Cause if I'm not mistaken those were some of the songs played during the muhasabah session.

The muhasabah session smacked you up down left right front back I tell you. Bengkak mata sampai nak bukak pon susah.

Damba CintaMu oleh Raihan

Ya Rabb, Ya Rabb...
Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah, kejahilan hambaMu
Kusering melanggar laranganmu
Dalam sedar ataupun tidak
Kusering meninggalkan suruhanMu
Walau sedar aku milikMu

Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah kejahilan hambaMu

Bilakah diri ini kan kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
Pagiku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku Kau pimpinlah
Diri ini Yang mendamba cintaMu
Aku lemah Aku jahil
Tanpa pimpinan dariMu

Ku sering depanMu
Sering jua kumemungkiri
Ku pernah menangis keranaMu
Kemudian ketawa semula

Bilakah diri ini kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
pagi ku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku, kau pimpilah diri ini
Yang mendamba cintaMu
Aku lemah aku jahil tanpa pimpinan dari mu
Kau Pengasih Kau penyayang Kau Pengampun
Kepada hamba-hambamu
Selangkah ku kepadaMu Seribu Langkah kau padaku

Tuhan diri ini tidak layak ke syurgaMu
Tapi tidak pula aku snaggup kenerakaMu

Kutakut kepadaMu
Kuharap jua padaMu
Mogaku kan selamat dunia akhirat
Seperti rasul dan sahabat

Alangkah Indahnya Hidup Ini oleh Raihan

Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kutatap wajahmu
Kan pasti mengalir air mataku
Kerna pancaran ketenanganmu

Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kukucup tanganmu
Moga mengalir keberkatan dalam diriku
Untuk mengikut jejak langkahmu

Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Tak pernah kutatap wajahmu
Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Kami rindu padamu
Allahumma Solli Ala Muhammad
Ya Rabbi Solli Alaihi Wasallim ( 2X )

Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kudakap dirimu
Tiada kata yang dapat aku ucapkan
Hanya tuhan saja yang tahu

Kutahu cintamu kepada umat
Umati kutahu bimbangnya kau tentang kami
Syafaatkan kami
Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kutatap wajahmu

Kan pasti mengalir air mataku
Kerna pancaran ketenanganmu
Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Terimalah kami sebagai umatmu
Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Kurniakanlah syafaatmu

To share with you a story...

The last day…………….
Suddenly, there was a person who said salaam “ May I come in?” he asked
But Fatimah(SUA) did not allow him to enter the room.
“I am sorry my father is ill”
Said Fatimah (AS), and turned back and closed the door.
She went back to her father who had opened his eyes and asked Fatimah (AS), “ Who was he , my daughter?”
“I don’t know, my father It’s the first time I am seeing him,” Fatimah (AS) said gently.
“Know one thing…..!
He is the one who erases the temporary pleasure; he is who separates the companionship in the world.
He is the ANGEL OF DEATH”
Said Rasulullah (PBUH).
Fatimah(AS) bore the bomb of her cry.
The death angel come to wards him,
But Rasulullah (PBUH) asked why Jibrail did not come along with him
The Rusulullah (PBUH) looked at his daughter with a trembled look, as if he wanted to reminisce about every part of his daughters face.
Then , Jabrail was called Jabrail was ready in the sky to welcome the soul of Habibullah and the leader of the earth.
“O Jibrail, explain to me about my rights in front of Allah?”
Rusullah(PBUH) asked with a very weak voice.
“The doors of the sky have opened ; the angels are waiting for your soul.
All Jannats are open widely waiting for you, “ Jibrail said.
But, in fact , All that did not make Rusullah (PBUH) relived.
His eyes were still full of worry.
“You are not happy to hear his news?”
Asked Jibrail.
“Tell me about the destiny of MY PEOPLE in the future?”
Don’t worry, O’ Rusulullah;
The time for Malaeket Izrail to do his work became closer and closer, slowly, Rusulullah’s Soul was pulled.
It seemed that the body of Rusulullah (PBUH) was full of sweat;
The verves of his neck became tight.
“Jibrail, how painful this sakaratul maut is!”
Rasulullah (PBUH) slowly uttered with groan.
Fatimah (AS) closed her eyes,
Ali (AS) sat beside her bow deeply and Jibrail turned his face back.
“Am I repugnant to you that you turn your face back O’ Jibrail?”
Rusulullah(PBUH) asked to the deliverer of wahyn.
“Who is the one who could see the Habibullah in his sakaratul mout”,Jibrail said.
“Not for a while,” then Rasulullah (PBUH) uttered a groan because of unbearable pain.
“O Allah, how great is this sakaratul maut .
Give me all these pains, but don’t to my people.”
The Body of Rasulullah (PBUH) became cold,
His feet and chest did not move anymore.
With tears in eyes, his lips vibrated as if he wanted to say something,
Ali (AS) took his ear close to Rusulullah (PBUH)
“UNSHIIKUM BIS SALATI, WA MAA INLAKAT ALMANUKU”
“TAKE CARE OF THE SALAT AND TAKE CARE OF WEEK PEOPLE AMOUNG YOU”
Out side the room, there were cries, each one shouting sahaba holding each other,Fatimah(AS) closed her face with her hands.
Again, Ali (AS) took his ear closed to Rasulullah’s (PBUH) and with his mouth which became blish, and tears in his eyes,
He Uttered:
“UMMATII, UMMATII, UMMATII”
“MY PEOPLE, MY PEOPLE, MY PEOPLE”

Buatmu Ibu oleh Aeman

Ibu? bergenang airmataku
Terbayang wajahmu yang redup sayu
Kudusnya kasih yang engkau hamparkan
Bagaikan laut yang tak bertepian

Biarpun kepahitan telah engkau rasakan
Tidak pun kau merasa jemu
Mengasuh dan mendidik kami semua anakmu
Dari kecil hingga dewasa

Hidupmu kau korbankan
Biarpun dirimu telah terkorban
Tak dapat ku balasi
Akan semua ini
Semoga Tuhan membekati kehidupanmu ibu?

Ibu? kau ampunilah dosaku
Andainya pernah menghiris hatimu
Restumu yang amat aku harapkan
Kerana di situ letak syurgaku

Tabahnya melayani kenakalan anakmu
Mengajarku erti kesabaran
Kau bagai pelita di kala aku kegelapan
Menyuluh jalan kehidupan

Kasih sayangmu sungguh bernilai
Itulah harta yang kau berikan

Ibu? kau ampunilah dosaku
Andainya pernah menghiris hatimu
Restumu yang amat aku harapkan
Kerana di situ letaknya syurgaku

Tabahnya melayani kenakalan anakmu
Mengajarku erti kesabaran
Kau bagai pelita di kala aku kegelapan
Menyuluh jalan kehidupan

Kasihanilah, Tuhan?
Ibu yang telah melahirkan diriku
Bagaikan kasih ibu sewaktu kecilku
Moga bahagia ibu di dunia dan di akhirat sana
Moga bahagia ibu di dunia dan di akhirat sana

I'tiraf oleh Raihan

Wahai Tuhan ku tak layak ke syurga Mu
Namun tak pula aku sanggup ke neraka Mu

Ampunkan dosa ku terimalah taubat ku
Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Pengampun dosa-dosa besar

Ila hilis tu lilfirdausi ahla
Wala aqwa alnnaril jahim
Fahabblitau batau wafir zunubi
Fainnakarob firul zanbi azim

Dosa-dosaku bagaikan pepasir di pantai
Dengan rahmat Mu ampunkan daku Oh Tuhan ku

Wahai Tuhan selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala kejahatan dan kecelakaan

Kami takut kami harap kepada Mu
Suburkanlah cinta kami kepada Mu

Akulah hamba yang mengharap belas dari Mu

Personaaly I don't think I'd given my whole best for the camp. Could have contributed more. But let's just say I'm afraid I'd overshadow others, so I only carried out what I'm asked to.

I soooooo lack confidence to speak in public. Cammaner nak jadi Games Master?? Whatever I planned sumerr tak jadi tau. Yang jadi is suara menggeletar pat depan semua orang, aiseh bedah...

After the camp I was so tired that I slept all the way for 12 hours. Tau2 bangun time sahur pon dah nak abis. Padahal kan, tak buka tau haha. Niari pon I just buka bubble tea je. Lom buka betol2 lagi. Oh well, jap lah.

Rumusan of Fri-Sun

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And today was the start of my SIP. Ok lah... But I was still tired, I was given materials to read and I just dozed off in my chair. OPPS~ My supervisor is nice. But my mentor ar, hmm... Had to read LOADS of stuff and I didn't finish a single one. Nih I just received 3 more sets, what the?? Other than reading, learnt my way around, did gel casting and also PCR. Ok ah... But half the time I'm simply lost and I feel super STOOPID I tell you.

My supervisor told me and my friend to have fun. I think we had fun messing up haha.

BUT, one important thing I wanna announce: I wanna make this SIP/MP the turning point to make me MORE DISCIPLINED and to be HARDWORKING so as to LEARN AS MUCH AS I CAN and SCORE WELL. YESSSSHHHHHH...

K I'm waiting for pIcTuReSsSsSsSsS... I know there's ALOTTTTT... Nearly 1500 I hear, foo yoh!

K gotta start early tomorrow. And I've yet to finish my reading. And neither have I eaten!!! BYEE

Moments captured during Riang Ria Ramadhan NI Iftar '07.... Betol punya riang ria! Pictures credits to cameraman (umm... sape ehk?) Sampai masuk newspaper you! Kwang3! Enjoy!