I didn't know I would love sparring so much. The mental and physical coordination is interesting. NTU had uni friendlies with SMU this afternoon at SMU and I had the opportunity to spar with an SMU sister. Eventhough I lost 2 rounds and we drew in the 3rd, it makes me all the more motivated to learn more in silat. Need to work on my combos, on my shuffling, on range, speed, intensity and accuracy. I'm excited for silat trainings to come!

Oh the SMU sister happened to be from TP Engineering hehe. No wonder she looked familiar. Entered the gelanggang, saw her the first time, and throughout the whole match I was sifting through my memory on where had I first met her haha. She said afterwards probably I know her sister instead. Probably ah. I can't be too sure... I don't remember having any friends by the name of Rahmah in TP...

Oh, right now I have a sprained left ankle and because I forced to balance myself on my right leg more on the way home just now, even my right leg hurts, so I'm walking like a robot currently. Yet I am determined not to let my parents see what the match had done to me. I don't wanna quit silat!! (never thought I'd say that heh) Luckily I have a stock of diclofenac sodium painkillers, so popped two cookies in my mouth followed by 2 pills of the painkillers and 1 pill for gastric.

I don't eat painkillers if I can help it. No panadols for me. Headaches are part and parcel of life, and it doesn't need panadol, it needs plenty of water and rest in your system that's it. I only take painkillers, and that's the diclofenac ones only if I really really really can't take the pain. This sprained ankle is not the worst in my medical history actually. I've had inflammation of the tendons before and that is like 10x worst as it causes your tendon to redden and swell and each time your blood pulses through the veins, ow ow ow. That's why I thought I can withstand the pain of this sprained ankle. Actually I can. I just eat the painkiller in the hope that I can walk properly tmr and pretend nothing happened infront of my parents hehe.

If I were to go to the polyclinic and Dr Sophian Hadi were to see me again, he'd probably comment: "another injury to add to your history?" haha.

I sure hope the sprain heals soon. I don't need another inflammed leg... Especially when I have a camp this wed-fri! Silat bonding camp! I heard it's really gonna mix us together, hmm... They feel that the segregation between the girls and the guys is not good for the team, hmm... I will hold up to my principles. In case they plan something not so 'I-dont-know-any-suitable-adjective', I'd try to get away from doing it larh... Preferably if I can get away, I would. We'll see how things go... Hopefully things go on fine, nak mix tu mix jugak, for the team, yet batasan tetap batasan :) ni tetap majority melayu Islam, so tetap perlu jaga batasan-batasan yang ditetapkan Islam... I decided to leave drama partly because of this, and also because I really didn't have time to attend trainings larh. But yeah, I hope this issue doesn't become a penghalang for me to be a true pesilat NTU!!! Chewah hehe ;)

I'm on hiatus. Term test week!! Pls dun bother me if you have nothing impt. Pray for me!

Some pics to do the talking for Fityan Power closing camp for 2007, Fri & Sat, 7 & 8 Dec 07. Enjoy!















"You shall hold fast to the rope of GOD, all of you, and do not be divided. Recall GOD's blessings upon you - you used to be enemies and He reconciled your hearts. By His grace, you became brethren. You were at the brink of a pit of fire, and He saved you therefrom. GOD thus explains His revelations for you, that you may be guided." [3:103]

“Dan berpegang teguhlah kamu sekalian kepada tali Allah (agama Islam), dan janganlah kamu bercerai-berai; dan kenanglah nikmat Allah kepada kamu ketika kamu bermusuh-musuhan (semasa jahiliyah dahulu), lalu Allah menyatukan di antara hati kamu (sehingga kamu bersatu-padu dengan nikmat Islam), maka menjadilah kamu dengan nikmat Allah itu orang-orang Islam yang bersaudara. dan kamu dahulu telah berada di tepi jurang neraka (disebabkan kekufuran kamu semasa jahiliyah), lalu Allah selamatkan kamu dari neraka itu (disebabkan nikmat Islam juga). Demikianlah Allah menjelaskan kepada kamu ayat-ayatNya, supaya kamu mendapat petunjuk hidayahNya.” [3:103]

Alhamdulillah the performance went well. I'm sure everyone put in their best effort, I know Titisan did and most importantly I know I did. Others may tell you, it could have been better. But in my opinion, if you've given the best you can then nothing is better than the best. Of course, there'll be others better than you. So don't be sad.

What Siddique (kan?) said was true. Keikhlasan itu penting. Always keep that in mind yar my dear Titisan and pass this on to soon-to-come members even to those after them and after after them and so on. "Don't act, but play." Don't forget all those things Hidayah or Fifi or our two alumnis taught us ok. Pass them on.

I hope you guys had fun. I hope you guys bonded even more. I hope you guys understand each other better. I hope you guys made new friends. I hope you guys tak serik join Pentas!!! I hope you guys carry on with upholding this seni you chose during CCA recruitment drive in your 1st sem in TP and never let it go just because you have other commitments, just because some things go awry among you guys or whatever other reasons.

You guys did well. You guys took up the challenge. I saw courage there. You guys were disciplined enough to follow instructions and to realise and learn from mistakes. I saw many of you constantly trying to improve the way you carry out your character. I saw the determination. I saw the sincerity.

I may not be there with you all the time, but I see from afar. And the fact that I don't hear complaints about you guys, I know you guys behaved. You guys deserved the compliments. One of the composed sub-groups you guys were. Keep up the good job alright :) And never never start to be besar kepala or sombong.. Again remember the reminders you received and pass them on.

Lastly, thank you... Thank you for your commitment and for your willingness. And sry for any shortcomings from myself and also from any of the seniors. I love you guys.