I just thought I should jot this down before I forget...

I had a wonderful 21st!!!! I can't say thank you enough to express how grateful I feel to have these people around me :)

As I mentioned, I purposely removed the date from FB profiles. I haven't decided when to put it back. Tmr perhaps? Or end of the month maybe?

It's interesting to see who remembers... Eventhough it is not 100% representative of who cares, since my family themselves only messaged me in the late afternoon/night and yet I am very sure that they care larrrr, but yea it gives me a notion of... well.. who bothers...

I'm especially touched at the amount of effort my friends put into organizing wonderful celebrations for me! I never had such elaborate celebrations before that I can't help smiling so much today. I just feel so happy!!! I feel like I do not deserve such a wonderful treatment from them!

Harizah & Mahmudah spent weeks cracking over how to surprise me, finding the perfect presents, preparing the presents, preparing the surprise and such. They gave me a present on Monday and another on Tuesday and yet another one, along with a pizza & a cookie cake on my birthday! Really, I can really see how much effort they put into the presents and into the surprise (no matter how much Harizah kept slipping and releasing random info accidentally, she's so cute haha)... Really, I guess only the pics would show the effort... And I really love their presents for me! There's a grey cool shawl which can act like a cardigan & vest and I dunno what else - there's 8 ways to fashion it! They got it for me because they know how cold I can get in lectures, brrr.... My fats don't seem to be insulating me well, though yeah maybe the fats are going down a bit considering at how much lesser am I eating these days. I haven't even finished my dinner cum supper! They also made a photo collage in a shape of a butterfly of the pics we had taken together over the past few months we'd known each other. Pretty! And really, they're not easy to make seh! They also got me this zip-zip small bag to put my what-nots that I seem to dump into my bag hehe. And it even has my name on it! Cool! Inside the bag there's some foodstuff, as they know how little food I have in my hall (though not so little anymore after my shopping spree at NTUC last week! Heh) They really tried their best in finding what I need and what I'd like. They got it spot on, I love butterflies! And I really appreciate beautiful stuffs with "effort" literally drawn all over it! And the shawl is soooooooo nice, I really really can't imagine not loving it. Liyana Sukri saw it and instantly fell in love with it larh hehe...

The Bio peeps, eventhough they just found out about my birthday one day earlier, they took the effort to still surprise me. And I'm pretty sure they have another surprise up their sleeves hehe.

The FOC peeps were... HAHA! I love them larh... Poor Faizah aka Maria having to hunt the perfect present for me, and poor Mir too, for having to withstand "You're her roommates, how can you not know??!!" from Faizah haha! They had a cake, a card and even a present for me. Aww... These people are already like a family to me. Time flies, it's almost two months that we have been meeting up!

Amirah... she's so sweet larh! I didn't expect her to decorate our room in that short two hours she had before meeting just now so as to surprise me when we get back from meeting! And eventhough she have to be in Ang Mo Kio early early tmr morning, she accompanied me in opening my presents and listening to my stories. Awww, thank you Mir! And her attempt to find me something that I'd like bore it's fruits. I really like the book she got me ;)

Not to forget Khairiyah (lower sec closest friend), Siti (upper sec closest friend), Cindy (sec sch - the first to remember seh), Kenneth (sec sch), Ad (poly closest friend), Kak Raihanah (poly close friend), Fathi (Fityan closest friend), Jun (Fityan closest friend), Wawan (NI - I treat him like my lil bro), Fatimah (NI closest friend), Kak Fiza (NI), Auntie, Kak Ju who remembered! I am so touched. Especially those people like Cindy, Kenneth, Kak Fiza and Kak Ju whom I really didn't expect would remember :))))

In summary:

I'm so happy!!! :: unfinished tutorials :: Harizah's msg & call :: flower delivery :: 3rd/4th floor :: pizza & cookie cake for brunch :: freedom to suspense :: presents :: Mahmudah's demo :: flower pens :: Izzati & Shikin's wish :: song outside LT :: pronto speech :: paiseh :: Atiqah just finding out :: saw Arep writing card :: paiseh :: cake after Maghrib jemaah :: song & candles :: card-giving :: present :: first impressions :: perangai mafia :: dinner/supper :: perangai Marliyana: makan halfway halfway :: ayam goreng! :: balloons :: surprise in room :: present opening!!!

In my attempt to free up the spaces in my inbox, which is super full with reminders of all kinds....

Dari Ibn Abbas radhiAllahuanhuma, katanya: Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda: Ada dua macam kenikmatan yang keduanya itu disia-siakan oleh sebahagian besar manusia iaitu kesihatan dan kelapangan waktu (Riwayat Bukhari)

- Siti Hawa Teenz Camp 3rd Feb 2010 2205hrs
comment: a timely reminder as I fall sick...


To increase your iman, read the miracle, read the Quran. Here's a fact for the ones who're keener, 92 surahs revealed in Madina, read it everyday and read it proud. The word quran means to read it aloud.

Read the book from the Lord of the words. Over 6000 verses and 77000 words. Read with respect, no disturbance, no laughters from Al-Fatihah to An-Naas, all 114 chapters. And in it 14 times you need to prostrate and say Allahu akbar, meaning Allah is great.

In this book, 25 prophets are mentioned by name, who came at different times, but their message was the same. This miracle was revealed over a 23 yea span sent from Allah, to an angel, and then to a man. That man was Muhammad s.a.w., the best of creation, and we're proud to be part of his nation.

He gave us a message, and that was Islam, so read this miracle, read the Quran.

-Fatimah NI daily reminder 3rd Feb 2010 1027hrs
comment: panjang lebar betol Fatimah sms nak memperingati kita, so apalagi, jom sahut cabarannya untuk baca hari-hari!


Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda "Tiada beriman seorang kamu hingga ia mencintai untuk saudaranya apa yang ia cintai untuk dirinya" Diriwayatkan oleh Bukhari & Muslim

And only then would we be able to fulfill Allah's command:

"Dan berpegang teguhlah kamu sekalian dengan tali Allah dan janganlah kamu berpisah-pisah" (Surah Ali Imran, ayat 103)

-Musaddiq NI daily reminder 3rd Feb 2010 0943hrs
comment: ukhuwwah

Many many people I was missing these few days!

Finally met up with NI/NYPMSN usrah sisters for dinner together yesterday! Kak Fiza, Kak Hawanis, Kak Mardhiah, Kak Saqinah, Kak Ruqayyah, Kak Sarah, Liyana, Nyzah and... Raihan!! Time waiting at Darul Arqam, met Kak Huda and Kak Aziah from saff too! And I'd been told insyaAllah usrah for Kak Huda's group will begin again next Friday, woo hoo~

Oh then just now during NI comm retreat, finally met Fatimah, Begum, Aisyah again!! So nice seeing y'all again tauu.. Raihan, Liyana, Kak Maryam, Kak Saqinah were there too! Brothers pon ramai dah lama tak jumpa. Gerek ah retreat...

Oh, I met around a total of 5-6 Temasekians yesterday and today, teringat zaman sec sch la gitu! Nostalgic ;) I remember those stock takings we do during holidays as comm librarians (don't look down on us ar, librarians oso have comm okeh!) and those farewells with games and bbq.. and and book club! Which didn't actually work out lol. And not forgetting ELDDS too. Orientation times... Sadako... Footsteps around the school etc. Oh at at this time of the year, it's the time of the sec 1 orientation. I remember my investiture ;) Maybe NI/Fityan should have our own investiture after our respective orientations ehk?

Had campus discussion this morning, meaning I got to meet my course mates again!!! Ad, Jamie, Chloe, Shakina, Yuva, Kayathree all luh! But never to fail to meet my 4-months fellow TLL attachments. I think Hui Yi, Aaron, JJ and I bonded really well. :)

After campus discussion, I had the opportunity to meet Titisan for a short wee while too! Aww, miss you darlings!! But when Fifi reminded the juniors, "Know who's this or not? she was my ASGH last batch!", I can't help remembering how little I contributed to my batch's development. Then, I was neither good in drama skills nor organisational skills, opps~

And tmr I shall be meeting Raudah and Liyana for breakfast, whee~

I'm really looking forward to 2009. It's like so indefinite right now, like a sense of mystery like that ah hehe. I don't have to look so far, in just 6-7months, I wonder where would I be...

Received results this afternoon. Justttt woke up then I saw sms for results straightaway sat up straight and prayed for good news. In need of lotsa good news to cheer me up uhh... And...

When I saw my results, nak ketawa pon ade, nak nangis pon ade. Cos wad I expected to do better in, like confirm A, I didn't reach it. Then wad I expected to badly in, like possibility of failing, I did quite ok. In fact, I had same grades for all uh, except MBio =) Macam balanced up, and I found that funny. Oh, I did better this sem than last sem. But.. my GPA dropped sikit anyway, by 0.03, pasal I really did well for Year 1.

Bukan sengaja nak merugut ke ape. Taklah... In fact, I'm very much grateful to Allah. Cuma memang that's how I was taught uh. Kindergarten and pri 1 got first in class. Then throughout the years, decline uh jadi top 10 je, pernah tu I got 16th ish. And I will always remember what my mum told me ar. "Your dad won't sign your record book if get anything less than first." Sheesh kecik2 dah kena pressure... Dah besar, sejak dua menjak masuk poly, dapat result I don't show my parents my results anymore. Serik uh. Dapat anything else than A satu hal, dapat A pon satu hal lagi. They don't believe I can maintain good grades. I've been trying to do my best to pull up my GPA back to 3.5, if possible back to my 3.86. Tak tahu camne lah eh. Maybe after D'Talk2, I'll make sure nothing disrupts my year 3. Memang that time dah step-down Titisan and I'd like to ask to be out of NI comm (sebab, tu macam secara tak sengaja uh). Fityan maybe amek kerja senang-senang... Haha, nak out tak boleh kan... Siang-siang Ust dah pesan sesape yang dah dipilih tak boleh cakap taknak.

Ok I have lotsa things to ponder about rather than mull around feeling all the pressure on me. Gtg! I wanna be the best I can be for all the things I'm currently entasked to do, esp. my DPI!!

This week has been sooooooo horrible! I'm just so tired and exhausted each night I step home YET I couldn't go to sleep cos I have work to do but I still crawl into bed and 'accidentally' fall asleep anyway (even with the computer still on sometimes hehe) which means that I have to wake up as early as 5am to complete whatever tasks I have. And oh God, I've been late for class like practically everyday since school started lah!

Let's take today as an example...

Startled awake. Solat Isya' (v. bad right...) and Subuh. 'Scribble' MBio tut. Realised something wrong with thumbdrives (but actually the comp) Complete Background Info for AMic mini project Proposal. Brush teeth everything, iron clothes and get ready for school, grabbed a cookie and out! Wait for bus, dang! Forgot hp. Journey to school. MBio lec. Met some friends. MBio tut. Met Nurul to take back Psycho book. PC lab. Attempted to do a proper reference page for AMic proj but short of time. Passed thumbdrive. Had lunch with Rani and Kayathree. Mountain of tauge. Talked, chatted, joked, laughed and err, insulted? Forgot MBio lab at noon not 1pm. Lucky was still with Rani and Kayathree. Rushed. Waited for lift all full. Climbed from lvl 2 to lvl 7. Pants. 2 Practicals in one. Give directions. Super bad stomachache. Long time in toilet. Kayathree came to check. Lab ended. Rushed to Zohor. Was slightly late for AMic lec. Ended early. Went for Asar. Met Sis Raihanah. Realised socks missing. Rushed back to lvl 3. One right in front of the lift. One in LT. Mr Loh thought late, "Lec finish already". Rushed to PC lab for AMic proj. Didn't do much, made things worst and messier actually. Quickly finish up briefly. Realised haven't typed out minutes for Abchm proj and it's due today! Showed Mr Loh AMic proj. Said ok. Rushed to take key for MS03. Fell on stairs. Bruise boo hoo. Fifi already took key. Felt like crying. Rushed to MS03. Went to library. Met Kak Maryam, Shikin n Nyzah. Typed out minutes. Forgot to bring cashcard. Asked Nyzah for cashcard or paper. Got 2 paper from her frriend. Thx. In the end, printed at Design printing shop. Ran to AS to hand in HFLA and minutes. Met Raudah and Kak Maryam. Ran back to MS03. Joined characterisation. Couldn't get into character. So distracted. Watched others practice. Joined Pentas main-comm's discussion. Props!! Artistic... Joined Titisan back. Acted for awhile. End of training. Went Srisun. Full. Went Al-Kader. Mee kuah. Jokes. DKK. Irritated. Went home. Tired. Exhausted. Sleepy. Sheesh!

Ok, it's almost a cycle everyday. Yesterday was pretty much just as bad. Had Abchm meeting. Had NI meeting. KFC.

It feels like each day is divided into parts. Part 1: Lessons. Part 2: Breaks. Part 3: Projects. 4: Titisan training. 5: Late dinners. You get me la yar.

Tomorrow Deepavali... Thought I could sleep in till noon or something but have Titisan training then have jalan raya. *Yawn*

This vicious cycle will continue... AMic proposal by Friday. Pentas training everyday. Need find props. Pentas next Friday. AMic lab proj. Abchm PBL. MCT and MBio I'm pretty much lost. NI events. Ni Fityan belom lagi ni tau.

Dah dah, tak ble angkat ar, ngantok!!!!