Came across this video quite suddenly. The video is kinda relaxing, macam tak kena dengan lagu, tapi takpelah sebab lyric lagu pon best.



Allahu Akbar…

If you ask me about love
And what i know about it
My answer would be
It’s everything about Allah
The pure love, to our souls
The creator of you and me,the heaven and whole universe
The one that made us whole and free
The guardian of HIS true believers
So when the time is hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise HE will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us

So when the time is hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise HE will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us
And HE knows what’s in all in our heart

So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there…

HE bring ourselves from the darkness into the light
Subhanallah praise belongs to YOU for everything
Shouldn’t never feel afraid of anything
As long as we follow HIS guidance all the way
Through the short time we have in this life
Soon it all’ll be over
And we’ll be in His heaven and we’ll all be fine

So when the time gets hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise He will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us
And HE knows what’s in all in our heart

So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there…

Allahu Akbar…

So when the time gets hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise He will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us
And he knows what’s in all in our heart

So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there…

Allahu Akbar…

I cancelled this Thurs' driving lesson. Not because I'm giving up or anything like that. I just need some time to stand up back and continue the fight. If it takes forever, then so be it. I am not someone else. I am me. And I shall take the time I need, as long as I don't give up. Gotta keep trying till I get it right. I AM giving my best, and that should count for something right?

This song helps:



I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Another song that is in my head... Ok actually not the whole song, I didn't even know what's the song about till today. It's the phrase that strikes me... "I'm sorry I can't be perfect"

I need you Allah, always... but more so, now...



When you feel all alone in this world
And there's nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS
No matter what, inside or out
There's one thing of which there's no doubt
Allah knows
Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown
Allah knows
Allah knows

CHORUS (x2)

BRIDGE:
Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.
Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.
Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.
Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.
Allah knows

I'm crying... Oh Allah, you know my state best, I seek refuge and comfort in you my God, my Lord, my Sustainer, my Provider, my Love.

Lyrics:
Social Expectation drowns us all inside
What you have should be what I want
Cos what I have just aint alright
The clothes I wear, the way I comb my hair
How I live, oh I dont care

This is who I am, this is me
Nothing, everything, cant you see
Who I am, just let me be
Cos like it or not but God loves me
Who I am

He said, she said, they all did
Whats expected of them all
To get to the top dont matter
If somebodys gotta fall
You gotta brace the storm, the norms to conform
Get what you wants gonna kill us all

Beyond the body that you see
Theres so much more to me
And I feel best when my soul is free

They tell me this is the way
that I need to reform
If I continue to stray,
Im gonna start up a storm
Wear this, drive that, like this, not that
Dont dare lose track or youll fall way back
But if my Lord loves me then
I know that Im free
You can say what you want just let me be
I know if Im real and its not a disguise
Youll love who I am if you open up your eyes
I insist that you see, I aint a mystery
Its who I wish to be, this is me
Its whats true within, come and look again
Looking through the skin
Who I Am

I'm falling in love with this album!

One of the songs in the album is:

The Lord of the Worlds - Labbyk
Lyrics:
Allah is the lord of the heavens and the earth
His power was true before all things and their birth
We are all creations that He created
Nothing goes past Him He is the Exalted
His Power and Might is reality
All that we receive are through His mercy
A leaf does not fall, except of His grace
Trials and tests and all things that we face

O Ummah today, we are weak and oppressed
But remember, Allah, has allowed thisIf you fail in your deeds, and dont follow Islam
Allahs wrath will descend upon all of those lands
If you love Allah, you must follow Muhammad
Allah will love you; forgive you, like He has said
Dont make the world your home in the test
Make it the Heaven of Allah, an end that is best

Chorus:
Allahu Allahu Allahu Allah
Allahu Allahu Allahu Allah

Chorus:
Allahu Allahu Allahu Allah
Allahu Allahu Allahu Allah




A day will come, that we will surely see
All life in the earth, including you and me
A day of fear and calamity,
All creation will stand, before the Almighty
None will speak, standing with fright
Aware of the end, close to their sight
Either the gardens of bliss or the fires of hell
It is Allahs decision that no one can tell

Chorus



Wedding Nasheed - Rhymes of Praise - Labbayk

Lyrics:
It is a day of so much bliss
In the gathering that we all stand
Under the blue sky we all celebrate
Husband and wife hand-in-hand
There are children cheering
And the birds are chirping
Oh the happiness that fill the air
And the angels descend
Bringing blessings from Allah
That we can feel everywhere

Chorus
Oh its a day of rejoicing
A day of peace, a day when a pair fulfil
Half of their Deen
Oh its a day of rejoicing
A day of peace, a day when a pair fulfil
Half of their Deen

Let us all spend some time together
Remembering Allah Most High
Let not the evil of Shaytan
Get the better of us in this life
And of the creatures of Allah
We are created the best
On this earth from the rest
Remember Allah always,
In remembering Him
Our hearts will find its rest

Chorus

Turn wherever you want in life
But never forget the Almighty
Remember He is the-Sustainer
Of you and your family
There may be hardship on your way
Live them content and with patience
No matter how deep they may be
Remember Allah always
In remembering Him
Your hearts will find its peace

Chorus



Allahu Allah - it is a very nice song in arabic, and I tried finding the meaning, this is the best I managed:

The morning light is by your countenance,
And the splendour of the night by your plaits.
The master is a treasure of grace,
The master is a treasure of mercy.
He is the guide of the whole community,
And the one who shows the way of the Sacred Law.
They (sheep) came upon the gesture of a finger,
Stones from the Hijaz began to speak.
And the moon was split in two,
By a single gesture of the finger.

On the night of the Ascension,
The Archangel Gabriel came with tidings of God.
Allah called him to the heavens,
[And] bestowed upon him the
honour of intimacy.



Best of Allah Creation - Labbyk


Lyrics:

Chorus:
Sollallahu ala Muhammad
Sollallahu alayhi wa Sallam
.

He walked the earth in humility
No creation can compare to his beauty
His softness, his smile
Drew people to Gods final Deen

Best of Allahs Creations
Final Prophet and Messenger
Sent to the world as a guide
Let us all praise Muhammad

http://www.rhymesofpraise.com

He taught us how to cleanse ourselves
From the outward and the inward
To our hearts, filled with diseases
To live like him, the purest of beings




He was a light of guidance
He showed the path to perfection
He was given the divine revelation
The greatest book, Al Quran
He was a man of simplicity
Of all the tribes, his was the noblest
He would rather starve himself
Than see the hunger of the needy

Chorus
In this time of mass oppression
His name is clouded with falsity
We will stand strong in rebuttal
To those who stand to cause anarchy
Our advice to those who dont know
To go and read the books of history
To learn, to see the-life of the greatest being

Sore throat (which hurts super badly when I sneeze) for the past two days or so and a teeny bit of wheezing this morning... Luckily i can joyfully still swallow my food. I guess I deserve it. Need to account for some of my wrongdoings...

I feel like a hypocrite sometimes, you know... what comes out of my mouth is different from what I do. And i dislike that! Yet, what comes out of my mouth is still the truth. I don't really have another answer... Hmm...

La tahzan la tahzan. Jangan kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, Ali-Imran: 139

I'm not strong enough.

I wish to be a better Muslim, but some of my decisions and actions don't reflect so.

Some important lessons I learned from Twilight are self-control and choice. Of course, in a different context eh! But yeah, self-control and choice... And they're related too. How much self-control you have reflects on the choices you make...

Speaking of choices. My most recent facebook status is: Marliyana Mohd Noor has made the choice early, and i shall stick to it. InsyaAllah I have a purpose, and it will be beneficial. O Allah, please grant me strength to carry through with the choice I had made and to work towards being a better Muslim at the end.

Here I refer to three choices I'd made.

1) A smaller, yet nothing less significant nonetheless, decision to skip the Fityan retreat for the week-long Persantren Kilat from 19-25 Dec @ Masjid Pertempatan Melayu. I really hope that it would be a proper closure to this year, to make me strong enough and disciplined enough for next year. I find that this is more crucial and of higher priority than spending 3 days with my Fityan family, would would probably be beneficial too, though I'm not as sure of it's impact due to the duration, as well as my comfort zone. I need to be plunged out of my bubble, as Dr Jason Chang had put it (aww I miss him haha) when we left for SIP.

2) A choice I had made about 11 years ago. According to my mum, I had wanted to join madrasah(part-time), and I do remember something like my mum warning me that it wouldn't be easy to commit, asking if I am ready to sacrifice some of my time and see through it that I complete my madrasah education, and I had been prepared to multitask to gain the best of both worlds. I'd say I have gone a long way. My eldest brother reached Pri 6 and stopped, whereas my second brother stopped halfway. Myself? I started when I was in Pri 3, making me the oldest in my class in Permulaan at Ghufran last time. Then, since the mudirah was my aunt, I skipped Pri 1 to enter Pri 2 straightaway into a class with a few my age. I remember the joy of completing Pri 6. When I wanted to continue into secondary, my dad didn't see the point of it, yet I was prepared to pay the fees for Perdaus if I really have to. Of course, in the end my dad still paid my fees and textbooks for me, and even send and fetch me every Sunday from class. Now, I am in 2nd year of DPI @ Andalus. Truthfully, I complain alot. I am sacrificing my rest on a Sunday, plus $77.50 per month from my own pocket, since I started NIE. I need to remind myself that it is a choice I had made and have committed myself to. I was first reminded of this when I was given a choice to take up an Arabic course @ Zuhri on Saturdays for the next 2 years. I'm still contemplating...

3) The biggest, and rather, one of my worst worries: My choice to go through with NIE. 8 years is not a simple feat to swallow. I've yet to digest it properly. But I'm in, and there's no turning back. For this, I have a reason for choosing this choice, and I truly believe that I'm meant to be here, that there is a purpose I need to fulfill. InsyaAllah, I have been reminding myself this, and I shall continue to remind myself. I am scared, honestly. But since I'd taken the first step, really, I should just continue walking, if I can't run, or I should even crawl/drag myself if I have too.

This journey I have chosen (which is my life) is NOT gonna be easy, and so I ask Allah for the strength to carry on, to never give up, and to continue giving my best in whatever I do. (Though sometimes I feel so ashamed of asking Allah for anything, for i feel I do not deserve it, yet only to Him I pray, and only from Him I ask.... And He is Most Generous...)

Journey of purpose... During Fityan FLAP, we were asked to ponder and write down and share why are we doing what we do for the youths, and during usrah, we were asked to share our life goals. These set me thinking, and reminded me of my purpose. The purpose I had discovered in sec 4 madrasah, yet only truly believed and try to work towards since I joined Fityan (and probably NI) comm, which always reminds us of our niat...

My plans to reach my life goals are not concrete yet. I should really work on it especially at this time of the year, at this point in my life. I'm gonna turn 21 very soon! My Vision Board, which i did after ITQAN needs to be tweaked ;)

I think the best song to describe all these is:

Here's all the songs in order:

1. How I Would Die – Carter Burwell
2. Full Moon – The Black Ghosts
3. Who Are They? – Carter Burwell
4. Eyes On Fire – Blue Foundation
5. Phascination Phase – Carter Burwell
6. Tremble For My Beloved – Collective Soul
7. I Dreamt Of Edward – Carter Burwell
8. Treaty – Carter Burwell
9. I Caught Myself – Paramore
10. Humans Are Predators Too – Carter Burwell
11. Never Think – Rob Pattinson
12. I Know What You Are – Carter Burwell
13. The Skin Of A Killer – Carter Burwell
14. The Most Dangerous Predator – Carter Burwell
15. The Lion Fell In Love With The Lamb – Carter Burwell
16. Spotlight (Twilight Mix) – MuteMath
17. Complications – Carter Burwell
18. Dinner With His Family – Carter Burwell
19. La Traviata – The Royal Philharmonic Orchestra (iTunes bonus track)
20. I Would Be The Meal – Carter Burwell
21. Clair de lune – The APM Orchestra (iTunes bonus track)
22. Bella’s Lullaby – Carter Burwell
23. Supermassive Black Hole – Muse
24. Nomads – Carter Burwell
25. Stuck Here Like Mom – Carter Burwell
26. Bella Is Part Of The Family – Carter Burwell
27. Tracking – Carter Burwell
28. In Place Of Someone You Love – Carter Burwell
29. Showdown In The Ballet Studio – Carter Burwell
30. Let Me Sign – Robert Pattinson (iTunes bonus track)
31. Edward At Her Bed – Carter Burwell
32. Go All The Way (Into The Twilight) – Perry Farrell
33. Flightless Bird, American Mouth – Iron & Wine
34. 15 Step – Radiohead (Not on soundtrack or score)
35. Leave Out All The Rest – Linkin Park
36. Decode – Paramore

Track listing in the Soundtrack (am so gonna get my hands on it if it's still in stores! shall try Borders soon..)

1. "Supermassive Black Hole" (Muse) – 3:31
2. "Decode" (Paramore) – 4:21
3. "Full Moon" (The Black Ghosts) – 3:50
4. "Leave Out All the Rest" (Linkin Park) – 3:19
5. "Spotlight" (Twilight Mix) (Mute Math) – 3:20
6. "Go All the Way (Into the Twilight)" (Perry Farrell) – 3:27
7. "Tremble for My Beloved" (Collective Soul) – 3:53
8. "I Caught Myself" (Paramore) – 3:55
9. "Eyes on Fire" (Blue Foundation) – 5:01
10. "Never Think" (Robert Pattinson) – 4:30
11. "Flightless Bird, American Mouth" (Iron & Wine) – 4:02
12. "Bella's Lullaby" (Carter Burwell) – 2:20

It's just repeats of the two piano songs... I'm still unsure which one is Bella's lullaby, but they're nice... sweeeeeeeet! enjoy!











Oh and I came across this piano tutorial for Bella's lullaby :D