Marliyana ada banyak cerita niari. Marliyana tak tau nak mula dari mana. Random k.

Marliyana lapar. satu hari cuma makan kuih belanda (yang biscuit roll tu), nasi minyak pat jemputan tengahari tadi dan 1 roti sardine bersalut telur. Tapi kat rumah tinggal maggi je and Marliyana ngah pikir banyak-banyak kali pasal MSG dalam maggi. Marliyana taknak jadi bodoh. Marliyana suka jadi pandai.

Marliyana niari bangun awal. Pukul 2 pagi bangun belajar Tafsir, pukul 4 tertido, pukul 5 bangun balik, pukul 6 tertido, pukul 7 bangun balik. Alhamdulillah dapat habis 90% ulangkaji, tapi bila duduk untuk exam tu cam tak tahu cammane nak apply. Lagi-lagi kertas 2, closed book, dia mintak hukum yang rajih (ni ok jugak) berserta hujjah-hujjah ulama'-ulama'! Nama ulama' semua dah mixed up, apa tak nye ada agaknya 20-30 hukum. Nak hafal ayat-ayat Qur'an & hadith-hadith tak kesampaian, jadi exam tu tulis ajelah sehampir mungkin dengan dall-dalil yang ingat. Tak exact words.

Exam tafsir tu kat Jurong West, dekat dengan NTU/NIE. Lepas kertas 1, Marliyana langsung mulakan Kertas 2, tanpa rehat 1/2 jam seperti lazimnya sebab Marliyana nak cepat. Lepas Kertas 2, Marliyana singgah asrama jap, pastu ikut parents gi jemputan kat Chai Chee. Pat jemputan ada kawan dari masjid istighfar, kenal dari ITQAN & qiyam pat En-Naeem kelmarin, jadi kendarat. Tapi tengok dia, dia buat bodoh, takde wajah untuk menunjukkan dia recognise Marliyana pon, jadi Marliyana pon buat bodoh ah. Makanan pat jemputan tu sedap, rasanya sama caterer dengan caterer untuk majlis makcik Marliyana minggu lalu. Creative kalau tak silp. Gitu lah namanya.

Lepas Zohor, Marliyana gi madrasah pat Tampines pulak, untuk Kertas Kepimpinan Dalam Islam. Marliyana rasa Kertas 1 okeh, tapi sebahagian daripada Kertas 2 susah sangat. Marliyana main hentam aje.

Lagi 5-10 minit nak tamat peperiksaan, Marliyana hantar kertas sebab dah tak boleh fiir lagi. Marliyana jumpa parents pat Afghanistan, minum bandung dalam beberapa teguk sahaja terus jalan-jalan sikit ngan mak. Baju-baju dekat daerah situ lawa-lawa, dan walaupun rasa perlu untuk beli baju baru, Marliyana tak beli sebab tak bawak duit lebih, dan malas nak withdraw. At last, mak Marliyana belanja beli 2 pyjamas, sebab pyjamas yang ada dah tinggalkan kat asrama. $6 kat lelong, murah lah tu.

Malam, Marliyana ikut mak dan makcik Marliyana jalan-jalan kat Tampines. Nak katakan shopping, boleh jugak arh. Marliyana beli 2 kasut & 1 seluar tracks. Memang dah lama nak beli kasut, untuk pakaian semi-formal kat sekolah & untuk bila pakai jubah (tak senonoh gitu pakai jubah abistu pakai kasut $6.90 yang mak label sebagai 'kasut nyonya' yang Marliyana biasa pakai tu), jadi bila ada kasut semurah $10.80 & $15.90, Marliyana belilah.

Itu je kejadian hari ni sebenarnya...

Tapi adalah hal-hal lain. Marliyana masih memikirkan tentang apa yang Marliyana 'belajar' Jumaat & Sabtu lalu. Walaupun Marliyana belum dapat menerima semuanya dan memberikan kata akhir, sekurang-kurangnya, Marliyana rasa Marliyana dah mempunyai suatu pendirian yang sesuai buat masa ni, supaya tak terlalu stress fikirkan ni.

Marliyana rasa Marliyana banyak stress kebelakangan ni. Sebab asyik pening-pening kepala macam migraine. Nak jumpa doktor macam tak perlu, tapi takut jugak kalau ada apa-apa tak kena. Semoga dijauhkan sebarang penyakit dan musibah. Amin. Lebih-lebih lagi Marliyana baru-baru ni dengar cerita ada orang sakit-sakit kepala, rupanya darah tinggi sampai satu hari tahap tekanan darahnya terlalu tinggi sehingga urat dalam otak pecah menyebabkan stroke sebelah badan dan kehilangan kebolehan untuk berkata-kata.

Oh, kelmarin bila Marliyana pergi Body Worlds, Science Centre & Imax Theatre dengan Harizah & Mahmudah, case kamera Marliyana hilang. Dah cari & dah laporkan, sekarang Marliyana redha & tawakkal sahaja. Mudah-mudahan Marliyana dapat balik, tapi kalau tak, mungkin Allah akan gantikan dengan yang lebih baik... Cuma, kalau Marliyana hilang kebolehan untuk menggerakkan setengah badan atau untuk bercakap, tu Marliyana tak pasti jikalau Marliyana dapat redha & tawakkal. Mudah-mudahan dijauhkan musibah seperti itu...

Tadi petang, ada kawan tu sms Marliyana, tapi mungkin cara Marliyana kurang menyenangkan hati, Marliyana rasa dia merajuk dengan Marliyana. Marliyana tak tau apa nak buat. Marliyana tak pandai nak pujuk orang, lebih-lebih lagi melalui sms. Nak call, Marliyana macam takut pulak kalau dia marah dengan Marliyana. Jadi Marliyana buat bodoh. Serba salah pulak rasanya. Tapi Marliyana benar-benar ada hal Selasa malam ni... Memang boleh skip, tapi... entah. sememangnya Marliyana serba salah.

Besok malam kawan Marliyana nak pergi Laos, bukan untuk Sea Games, tapi untuk buat kebajikan. Marliyana rasa Marliyana nak hantar dia sampai airport. Marliyana suka jalan-jalan kat airport sebenarnya. Marliyana rindu sangat nak naik kapal terbang... tapi...

Parents Marliyana dah benarkan Marliyana bercuti dengan kawan sepanjang dua minggu ke Australia bulan Jun depan. Marliyana pon dah bilang kawan Marliyana tu. Sekali, bila belajar untuk exam Tafsir tadi, Marliyana terlintas dengan suatu hadith, tak pasti riwayat siapa, dan samada ia sahih atau tidak, tapi Marliyana yakin Ustaz cuma menggunakan yang sahih sahaja untuk menyokong hukum-hukum yang disebut dalam nota tu. Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w.: "seorang wanita tidak dibolehkan keluar bermusafir lebih dari tiga hari kecuali ada bersamanya mahramnya." Marliyana yakin parents & abang-abang Marliyana taknak (atau tak mampu, maklumlah bujang nak kahwin...) pergi Australia. Jadi, rasanya Marlliyana terpaksalah batalkan nist nak kesana, melainkan pada masa tu Marliyana dah ada suami, dan kemungkinan ini rasanya amat tidak berkemungkinan langsung... Tengoklah macam mana... Kalau ada rezeki dan telah ditetapkan Marliyana akan dapat jejak Australia, maka suatu hari nanti Marliyana akan jejak juga. Lagipun keluarga Marliyana sedang menghadapi sedikit kesempitan wang jugak, jadi... yelah...

Tapi Marliyana sedih jugaklah. Dah ghairah sungguh... Mungkin nanti Marliyana cari lebih lanjut pasal hadith tadi kott. Niat Marliyana nak pergi Australia pun, selain untuk 'lari daripada dunia Singapura 24/7' adalah untuk menziarahi Umairah untuk melihat keadaan belia-belia Muslim disana, dan untuk mengalami melihat kangaroo yang bermacam-macam jenis di sana sini serta mengalami snow, kalau berkesempatan.... Takpelah, Marliyana simpan niat tu baik-baik okeh.

Tadi semasa nak berjalan ke majlis jemputan, Marliyana nampak motor (vespa agaknya) warna pink yang comel dan lawa sekali. Bila Marliyana tunjuk mak Marliyana, mak Marliyana setuju ia cantik, dan lebih penting lagi, mak Marliyana setuju kos motor lebih murah, dan ia lebih laju maka ia merupakan sesuatu yang praktikal bagi seorang pelajar. Mak Marliyana nampak ok aje kalau Marliyana nak amek lesen motor. Kalau ye betul Marliyana cekal hati untuk dapatkan lesen motor, Marliyana nak dapat sebelum Ogos tahun depan, jadi bila Marliyana masuk tahun kedua, Marliyana tak perlu sewa asrama lagi, dan kos asrama serta kos makan minum dan tambang bas dan sebagainya dapat disalurkan untuk membayar harga motor dan minyak. Yang membuat Marliyana teragak-agak ialah Marliyana rasa malu nak belajar motor, memandangkan yang belajar motor kebanyakannya lelaki... Marliyana tak selesalah nak langkah naik motor semua depan lelaki...

Marliyana singgah kedai singtel & Starhub tadi. Marliyana amat tertarik dengan telefon bimbit Samsung Preston, Samsung Jet & Samsung Omnia II. marliyana sebenarnya dah sediakan wang untuk untuk hp baru, tapi cuma Marliyana malu nak tanya-tanya harga dekat kedai. Lebih-lebih lagi kalau tukang jual tu jenis yang tak kuasa nak layan orang. Maklumlah orang ramai beli i-phone, Marliyana tak pandang pon telefon tu. Bila malu, Marliyana gagap & teragak-agak nak berbual, sampai salesperson tu pon tak paham apa Marliyana nak. Yang Marliyana dapat tahu tadi, Singtel kira mengikut per minute billing, dan Samsung Preston berharga $48 dengan student plan...

Kelmarin Marliyana berasa ghairah tentang Persantren Kilat. Marliyana yakin sangat ia mungkin merupakan sesuatu yang dapat mendidik dan merubah Marliyana menjadi lebih berdisiplin sebagai seorang Muslimah dalam amalan-amalan harian. Marliyana pon dengar feedback yang positif dari Mahmudah. Tapi lepas Marliyana dapat ketahui lebih lanjut, Marliyana jadi kurang pasti pulak. Mudah-mudahan niat Marliyana yang asalnya tercapai, disamping mendapatkan pengalaman baru...

Marliyana rasa Marliyana dah tahu kenapa Marliyana bersikap sangat temperamental kebelakangan ini, dan Marliyana semacam tidak boleh mengawal perasaan marah atau irritated. Bukan sebab Marliyana rebellious. Marliyana cuma kehilangan kesabaran terhadap setiap yang berlaku. Marliyana perlu lebih relekskan diri dan minda supaya tidak terlalu wound-up... Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kesabaran...

Marliyana tak tau kenapa alih-alih Marliyana blog sebegini. Marliyana memang rasa lain semacam gitu, tapi tak apalah. Marliyana dah ngantok. Dah lebih satu jam Marliyana taip. Marliyana nak tido. Marliyana dah penat berfikir. Marliyana nak shut-down buat beberapa jam...

Cure for Hard Heartedness
Abu Hurairah(R.A.) reported that , a man once came to the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu `alayhi wa sallam, and complained that he feels hardness in his heart. The Messenger of Allah said, what translated means, "Would you like that your heart becomes soft and that you acquire what you need ? Be merciful with the orphan, pat his head and feed him from what you eat. This will soften your heart." ( Ahmad)

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""God has revealed to me: Whoever walks in the pursuit of knowledge I facilitate for him the way of heaven" (Hadith)"

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do not be diheartened! for there is hope:
formula one
knowledge + amal + iman = LOVING ALLAH
- as we all know, knowledge is veryyyyy important. for without knowledge, it is as if we are living in the dark. however so, having the knowledge but not doing anything to it, it is almost pointless.

I can't sleep... again...

And I shall not rant to anyone or on facebook, hmph (merajok ar...)

Anyway, not been feeling at best the past few days. Lots of thoughts going in and out of my mind. Haiz, I dunno what I'm thinking anymore. I dunno what I'm talking about half the time either. And I guess that's why I rant on and on. Trying to find precisely what I wanna say...

Or maybe... I know what I wanna say, but I just don't feel I should say it.

I'm sick and tired of people!!!! Can?

I'm on an emotional roller coaster. And they all boil down to: jealousy. I think.

I always associate jealousy with being petty, I hate jealous/petty people, so right now I'm hating myself. Hmpfh.

I dunno larh, PEOPLE PEOPLE!!!!

Dang, I feel like going up to someone and shaking the world out of her (can't be him la kan, since can't touch right). Cos maybe that is precisely what I need.

I wonder, if I were to go into a comma, what would I see...

I need to press that STOP button. How I imagine everything around me freezes and I am able to walk and walk and walk for as long as I want and nobody shall disturb me and I can clear my thoughts.

I'll be stopping work on 22nd, Wednesday... I'd been accepted in NTUMS FOC, though I'm not the first 65 people or something like that and won't receive a full goodie bag, errrrrr, whatever. BABSC FOC is cancelled. I'll be doing e-registration & e-orientation. My eyes feel so kero after facing the comp for long hours each day. I can't wait to see my hostel, yet I dread it. I love the thrill driving gives me, yet I dread it too. I'm excited to meet new people, to expand my horizons, yet I dread it too.

I'm one very confused ladeeeeee...

See see, I'm ranting on and on, and I don't even know what's my problem.

I hadn't been a good friend to anyone, and thus I don't deserve any friends?

Acquaintances.... Many.
Friends... Few? Or none?
What more closefriend or bestfriend...
And I thought I don't care.

Actually, I still don't. But I'm just ranting, so yeah.

And popeye chicken is the same as kfc chicken that I feel so cheated, tsk tsk.

Driving in circuit tmr. I've decided that whatever's gonna happen, heck care.
Yet, I cried a few tears when my instructor wasn't looking last Saturday.
I dunno what the tears were for.

Just a breakdown period I guess.

I wanna go Ubin and cycle. I wanna go to the beach and watch the sun set and the waves swish and swosh my worries away...

Tick tock tick tock... Time...

I feel so unsupported. Sometimes I feel people talk behind my back. Look down on me, degrade me, mock me...

Everything sums up to one word: pathetic.

Get over it Marl. These are just pathetic thoughts.

But I do find it hard to trust people these days. People seem so hyprocritic.

Maybe cos I feel like I'm such a hypocrite that's why I vie everyone else the same way.

I don't blame others. I blame myself. For what I go through, it's because I deserve them.

O Allah, please fill my heart with light again.

I should go seek Allah, hear His words, contemplate His guidance...

Goodnight world...

I can't believe this. I started believing it a few days ago (last Friday to be exact), or at least I thought I did. But now, I realise I still can't believe it.

I think because I don't understand it, perhaps one day I will, and I wonder what I'd do. Or perhaps I will never understand it either.

We'll see...

Only God knows why.

Just wondering, how would it be... Not much difference I guess. What would probably make a difference is how I should plan to use up the next twenty...

The first ten hadn't been so good. But I was ignorant. Until the time my mum went for haj. It was as if I went as well. In the sense that when she returned, I was a different girl. A better girl. Ten was the turning point.

Sixteen was another. Will twenty be another one? Will it be good or will it be a bad one? I sure hope and pray it'd be a good turning point. So many plans, so many ambitions and wishes and aims and goals... Semoga dikabulkan... :)

I like the way things are now. My room is more or less cleaner though it seems that there's so many MP/SIP stuffs! At least I'm finally using the study table haha. Last Fri I used to write my logbook and today I decided to move my lappy on the study table.

Random: My dad stopped smoking! Alhamdulillah!

On a darker note (darker kepe haha), I hadn't progressed much at all for my report. And I'm stressed at not doing it. No motivation at all! Why?! I dunno!

Can someone accompany out tmr to do my report? I don't want to go alone 'cause I don't wanna bring my lappy into the toilet when it's time to take wudhu'. Teman pls... You can do whatever you want, study, read book, play game, sleep, talk on phone, doodle, take photos, make video, whatever it's your wish.

Oh, where is there an internet connection and a plug for me to plug in my lappy?

Oh I learnt something new today from watching "Are you smarter than a 5th grader?" on Star World lol.

Now I know what cotton gin is (it sounded like a type of alcoholic drink lol but no it's a machine that removes seeds from cotton) and how much a hectometer represents (100!).

Yesterday morning when I browsed channels, I came across two channels showing really beautiful landscapes, the one with the blue sky touching the green grass in a vast area with mountains adorning the backdrop. And I just went, "That's His creation, how beautiful..."

See TV is not so bad hehe, if you know what to watch and what not to. For parents, I feel that it is doubly important to emphasize this plus why some shows are unsuitable for viewing.

Nyawa2 ikan directly means fish lives, but I don't mean that way lar.

Nyawa2 ikan is a Malay proverb that can mean something like 'struggling' ah.

And that's exactly how I'm feeling.

3 days left *gasp!*

K, confirm ah I'm not going Gombak...

It's k, insyaAllah ada hikmah (there's a reason behind this). InsyaAllah too, there'll be a next time.

Two more weeks to freedom!!!

In the meantime, I'm head over heels feeling like a fish thrown on shore.

There's two kinds of stress. I experienced one of them last week... It's the kind of stress where you have no appetite to eat at all and have stomachache 24/7 from worry.

This week, I'm experiencing the other type. The one where you wanna eat and eat and eat, and whenever you stop munching, you think it's time to sleep. ZzZzZzzz...

I have yet to finish my MP report! And I haven't started my SIP report!

And because I'm not munching right now, I feel very sleepy. And because I feel very sleepy, I'm too lazy to reach for my cookies. -_-

I can't wait! I can't wait!

I shall soon start what I'd been wanting to for a long time... Practical lessons for car and arabic class. InsyaAllah... After SIP.

Ad, Seoul Garden on 10th Feb amacam?

I wanna try new things soon, insyaAllah. Wowhee~!

And I've got loads of interesting books to read!

And insyaAllah finally I shall start some of my personal projects that I'd been planning. There's quite alot actually. I'd probably be busier after SIP! Lol.

For now, it shall be gloom and doom... But I'll pull out of this, right? InsyaAllah I'll pass this just fine.

Been contemplating... NUS, NTU, NIE? InsyaAllah any of them is fine. I'm hungry to learn new stuff on Science. I actually feel compelled to try new things like linguistics or physics you know. But I shall not risk it la eh.

Hmms...

I'm like addicted to Suci. Padahal I don't approve what I watch. Ape nih peluk2?? Ape ni pegang2?? ape nih cinta pergi cinta balik?? Haiz... But sweet uh cerita dier. So what if you're not rich and beautiful, your heart is what matters. Awww...

Been having interesting and fruitful discussions with Hui Yi on train ride home (of course there's news of how others are doing in SIP etc in between haha). And to think, 20 weeks ago I thought I wouldn't get along with her. Turns out she's a great friend to have, and a good company on long journey home. Oh, the journey doesn't feel so long anymore. I'm getting used to it.

My mum is asking me to find a job for after SIP. Any vacancies anyone?

Bertutup sudah tirai June holidays. Rasanya banyak yang telah dilalui.

Niat nak on laptop ni nak start TE reports (have 3 okeh *cries*) or tugasan. But *ahem*, well... terpesong pulak gi baca blog orang sume hehe opps~

Feeling happy, really extremely happy, and no, alhamdulillah no one got hurt in the process in any way.

Went shopping yesterday, met ustazah sakinah yest, ate sushi with kak ain yest, last paper today, met friends today, had fun wrapping hampers (Liyana kekek la kau...) and dunno... all the encouragement I'd been receiving, intentionally from friends as well as randomly out of nowhere :D

Hope tmr is a better day!

My problem is still erm... Half solved luh... I need knowledge before I can go on la, seriously. But where can I get crash course seh. Sape nak pi layan.

Can't stop thinking about KRC. Yay!

Astaghfirullah astaghfirullah astaghfirullah!

This is so embarassing!

Sungguh sungguh!

I'm laughing at my own stupidity and I can't believe what I just did! Accidentally seh!

Sungguh paiseh...

(Btw, psst, so far I have 408 posts... My block number tee hee)

Let's face it lah ok... I simply HATE datelines. The worst thing that can happen is when I do tungkus-lumus already then turns out I did it wrongly and still need to edit somemore. AISEH! Lucky dateline is extended.

TSUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!! Haha...

Actually just feel like screaming, tapi tak tau nak scream ape gitu.

Nak pekik betol2 tak boleh (aurat you know), pekik lah di blog kan...

Truly, crying is the most non-violent way to express your feelings... Argh. I'd say: blogging is also another non-violent way to express your feelings. Though sometimes you hurt other people with your words. I hope I don't hurt anyone through whatever I write. Cos I really believe on 'do unto others what you want others do unto you and don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you' and I wouldn't wanna be hurt by anyone's blog entries.

The songs on my blog make me simmer down a little. Love these songs =) It'd be nice if I'm at home now lying on my bed listening to these songs.

Masih pening!!! Ever since Sunday... Really bad today. Have you ever had two cymbals clang directly over your head? I never had, but I'm pretty sure the headache I'm feeling is just as splitting as if two cymbals are clanged hardly onto my head, oww...

Less than 1hr left. Tick tock.

Wishing for my MP3 to be repaired. Hmm...

SubhanaAllahi wabihamdih, SubhanaAllahi al-azim...

Has my blog been sounding too stressed/sad/angry lately? Opps.. Will try to post more sharings than my personal life kaes.

Oh I was marked 'late' for APEL this morning, opps! Will try to be punctual larh... InsyaAllah...

Finally finished CSAS ppt. Looks quite ok. Waaaa, I'm sleepy. Only slept 2/3am-5am...

For now, I've got a sponsorship letter to draft plus minutes of meeting to vet. Yawn...

I'm getting even more excited about the blood donation~ But a bit nervous and scared too haha. Sape tak seh... unless you're like a regular already la kan.

I need to eat breakfast but so nervous, I can hardly swallow I think ish.

Ok, I'm erm... nvm, ni lah kes orang nervous...

Know what?? I still have yet to start CSAS presentation slides! Err, cos I dunno what to put in there larh... Hope I can present as well as Kak Raihanah hehe.

Anyway, to those who've been trying to lift my spirits since Thusrday, thank you thank you so very much... :)

To those who've been pushing me for deadlines, I'm sorry I hadn't been doing things effectively lately. Still trying to sort things out and prioritise. I need some sense of URGENCY! And for that, I actually thank you for 'reminding' me of my datelines. (Tapi kekadang tu stress jugak, especially kalau dituduh yang bukan-bukan boo hoo~)

I know the people whom these 'dedications' go to probably won't see this, but it doesn't matter right la. InsyaAllah if I get the chance, I would thank personally =)

Do unto others what you want others do unto you~
Love for your brothers (and sisters) in Islam what you love for yourself...

I wonder how people can pester and/or tegur others. I find it hard to do.

I'm loving the songs on my blog.

Memang padanlah aku tak habis2 keje aku, tak habis2 blog! Lol, gotta go, before I get pestered.

I'm being pretty random here, I know. Saje nak luahkan hati...

In need of a pensieve before my hair turns grey like Dumbledore lol. No larh, jk.

Hahahaahhaahahaha came across this:

5) Tidur tanpa Bantal
Mereka memiliki sifat percaya diri yang sangat
tinggi.
Kadangkala sifat percaya diri ini akhirnya akan
membawa kepada
sifat ego.

6) Tidak punya bantal

Kasihan betul... pergi kedai belilah satu!!

Wanna read more?
Ok, super random.

Slept really late yesterday, and now I have a stiff neck!!! Ow ow ow...

Got so many tasks to complete. Yikes!

Guess where I am? Hehe, kat Tampines Library... YES! Using Wireless@Sg. Cool seh. So mestilah kena blog pasal ni...

Actually ngah bored sebab I couldn't find my comic yesterday huhu :'( So decided to go online and wait for somebody to be free so I can go dinner with!

K, guess I'd do my assignment la...

Dush! So pissed off with myself. Why in the world did I not bring my library card today??? Grr, found interesting books at Tampines Regional Library... (Keje aku gitu je, I don't buy books, I borrow from library lol)

Actually I wanted to find for books by Habbiburrahman but takde... Or tafsir books related to hukm-hakam Islam for DPIA to prepare myself but oso takde... I did find a tafsir book for Anak2 Muda on Surah Yusuf but... Nvm.

I found Dakwah dari Perspektif Al-Qur'an by I dunno who, Selagi Masih Muda by Dr 'Aidh Abdullah Al-Qadri, Jangan Putus Asa also by Dr Aidh Al-Qadri and another book about this lady who converted to Islam. But dang! I spent the next two hours after finding those books reading comics and when I wanted to borrow, I realised I don't have my library card... And just happens I lost my ez-link card before therefore my ez-link and I/C are both blocked! So, I went home empty handed waaaaaaa! I could have realised earlier that I don't have my card and can go home to take my card sehhhhh... My house is like 5mins from library je...

Dunno if I'd be able to 'sacrifice' my sleep to go library first thing in the morning tomorrow and bring those books around cos I'd be out the whole day tomorrow. Yay, besok tak sekolah! And I've planned what to do with my time hehe.

Wonder when I'd go see Ms Yian to analyse my DRP results... Heheh...

Ouh, gerbera flower gue bloomed. Pasal finally I added a pad of wet tissue to the stem end.

But I don't feel... err, bloomed... yet...

Entah eh haha, I'm in a 'redha' mood. Like apa nak jadi jadilah, aku dah penat.

I wonder where I'd be in the future, doing what, for what reasons, with whom and how happy would I be.

Nilah time 'go into the future' ni masuk. As Hamdan would say, "Marliyana ni tak tak sabar nak ke future, or entah-entah dia memang dah go to the future and come back dah!" Cos yesterday I saw Ad bring the TP 2008 Open House bag, and I wanted vto tell her, "Eh, dah 2009, masih nak pakai beg 2008 lagi?" and then I realised, sejak bilaaaaa ni dah masuk 2009?? This is not the first time... Last year or was it last last year... I can't remember when. But I think it was 2006, and I asked Ad, "This year 2007 ke 2008?"

Yay to the future... *silence* DUSH!

*gulps* I'm kinda STUCK right now. I can't seem to straighten out my thoughts! Berserabut macam husk kelapa! Ishk.

There are things that only I know and no one shall know other than Allah. K random...

School starts at 2pm tmr with 2hr CSAS4 followed by 2hrs RTecB lec. RTecB sounds interesting. TE too! Though I just got to know what the TE lecturer who happens to take my tutorial and lab session as well is like and he is sooooo not gonna like me. Oh well. Nasib lah eh. I'm so gonna hate BPT. The subject is so dry and boring and the lecturer is making it worst! Zzzzzzzzzzz.... I wonder how exciting LAST would be. It'd better be exciting ah! After having to take all those injections, geez!!!

K ngantok... As usual.... I seem to sleep alot these days. Even in the afternoon, I'd lie down and take a nap.

Dunno ar... I feel so... serious... Stress is setting in, uh oh.

Bought a dark pink gerbera flower yesterday. For myself. Indulgence ar gitu. Haha $1 for my favourite flower, worth it lahh tu. It's kinda layu now though...