One day, when I get married, I'm gonna travel, and perhaps only then I shall get to see the flora and fauna all over the world on top of hills and mountains (if ever I find myself fit enough to climb them) till the bottom of the sea (if ever I learn how to dive). Watching video only is not exciting enough!

Hopefully after AAB201 I would be able to describe the plants I see and referring to a guide I'd know what type are they, and after AAB202 I would be able to describe the animals I see and identify what phylum are they from. Only last year did I learn that corals are classified in the animal kingdom :D

Guess where I am? I''m at Raudah's hall again! On Liyana's bed cos she went home.

I was supposed to sleepover at Faizah's hall together with Amina & Ati, but partly I feel guilty of leaving Raudah in the lurch in a sense, partly oso because my toiletries are at Raudah's hall and partly well, there are other reasons.

I was supposed to drop at Raudah's hall busstop just now, and I did press the bell, and I was standing at the back door to alight, but these two people from the busstop suddenly appeared on the stairs and like caused me to take a step back uh, and to think the door closed when they'd alighted?? I was standing at the door! I made a jump to press the bell and to my dismay it was spoilt. Waddeheck eh. I'm so angry with those two inconsiderate people. Didn't even help me stop the driver from moving off, neither did they say sorry when clearly they had blocked my way, HMPH. I dunno why, I had been shouting/projecting my voice as emcee during the appreciation and suddenly I couldn't shout. I could have shouted at those two to be more considerate and let me off first, and at the driver to reopen the backdoor, but urgh! Nothing beats being angry/disappointed with yourself.

So poor me had to walk back to Hall 6...

I dunno why, I just feel so moody. So alone. Just so upset.

I think because I know I should be doing work yet I'm not doing. Maybe because I feel rather left behind by my friends. Perhaps my energy just drained out trying to juggle my commitments which have crazily been overlapping of late, which is super frustrating as I have to CHOOSE.

:( I wanna sleep. Let's hope I can get the tutorial and part of my lab report done tmr morning when I meet Harizah & Mahmudah...

It's so painful that I'm crying. I dunno what happened exactly, but the base of my right toe is hurting very very much. It's rather red, the pain is excrutiatingly familiar to tendonitis, the area feels warm and I think it's swollen as I cant seem to fit my feet in my shoe. I think it's an inflammation... I'm considering eating some Diclofenac sodium painkillers.

Felt the pain when I woke up, but still endurable. At least I was able to fold my toe while tasyahud. In bio, I started rubbing it to ease the pain, putting pressure on it. By the time it was Zohor/Asar, I was limping and I can no longer fold my toes. As of awhile ago, I can feel my blood pushing through and it hurtttttttttts.

I suspect that it was a mosquito bite. I remember being bitten on Saturday. But wow, such a reaction... Considering my swollen lips episode, I guess I'm allergic to some insect bites or something like that.

I'm already in such a PMS mood these days, the pain is just making things worst. Worst, I think some of my friends are PMSing as well... This spells disaster.

Urgh, my mum keeps shouting for me to eat. So not helping the situation.

I need an avenue to let out!

So upset, suddenly so many things bombarding... at one shot tonight :(

I hate last minute work, but the irony is that I always find myself in such a situation...

I guess I need a break? Preparation for AED presentation, planning for the appreciation, studying for madrasah exams, the endless jalan raya has been abit taxing on me as I find myself pushing myself to go on and on with lack of rest, physically and mentally...

Not to mention my sudden block on what had been a clear path. I dunno if I'd stay in teaching after my bond...

I still feel like approaching a lecturer and asking for a research project to handle, but at the rate I'm going, I'd die if I do that, even if that is one of the things I really wanna do right now. I miss doing lab work (for lifesciences)...

:(((( Just upset. Hope after the presentation tmr and appreciation on Wed night, I'd feel more relieved. Then I can focus on my essays, lab reports and revisions...

And perhaps I can find time to realign my thoughts and paths ahead of me...

The future brings 1001 (err, more?) mysteries... Dwelling on the future can make you go crazeeeeee.

Fb is not safe.

I feel like others don't understand my situation right now. I lost my contacts, so really, it's a challenge for me to contact others... And I have set my priorities, I'm standing by it but everyone else feels that they deserve to be the priority. That's unfair...

Perhaps, they forget. Perhaps I'm just being too selfish...

I'm not crying, I'm just in tears haha. Literally. So sleeeeeeeeeepy. Exam tmr. Before that my FOC mates coming over. Perhaps after that Fityan comm is coming over too. Before all these, I actually have to finish slides for my group project due, which I can't seem to figure out which to put in!!!

As I was reading Brida by Paulo Coelho (one of the 3 books I bought recently, whee~! I wanted to buy more, but Harizah stopped me. For once! She say because it's books. There's another 2 books I wanted to buy, and even another one that I'm looking for but can't seem to find it in the bookstore...) I feel that I'm soooo much like her. Trying to find out something (err no, I'm not looking for magic FYI) and to do so, I need to learn. And I can't seem to finish what I start because I can never decide on one path to truly follow (I'm still having second thoughts about becoming a teacher, I truly miss research work/lab work. When I hear stories from Ad and Liyana, my heart just aches and I feel that I'm not doing what I really wanna do, though at the same time, I don't know if even research work is what I wanna do, I pretty much screwed up my Major Project because for that whole 5 months there, eventhough I know what am I doing and what am I finding for, I still couldn't figure out the big picture much.) The book is captivating, as I can really put myself in her shoes...

Oh I've got a temporary phone while my Samsung phone is being repaired. *Sniff sniff* I lost all my contacts AGAIN. The only numbers I remember are my family's, one of my aunts, Ad, Liyana and Harizah. Wow, smart right, never save contacts in SIM card...