*Turns on reflection mode*

Well, I had been doing a lot of reflections lately. Reflect on my poly days, reflect on my journey in Fityan/NI, reflect on my contributions to each of these organisations, reflect on my roles in each and how little I'd carried out my responsibilities, reflect on my role as a daughter, reflect on my whole self how I'd changed in terms of mindset over the years, reflect on things like failures and hikmah and alot alot more.

Indeed my life has been a fruitful journey, despite the many downfalls, so to speak, along the way...

If you ask me what I'd achieved over the years, I would say: understanding. Alot of things seem to have a different meaning to it and lately, as I reflect, I begin to understand. It is priceless to understand, to someone like me who puts alot of value on knowledge. To understand is to process bland information into tasty knowledge. I ever attended a talk at Masjid Sultan by Ustaz Zhulkeflee in which he said, "Knowledge is only information until it is understood." Well, something like that. And understood here in terms of developing a deeper meaning.

For example, when you point out to a small kid, "This is a shoe." The kid, whose mind has yet to develop to think of the deeper meaning of words would probably be thinking, "That is a shoe." and nothing more. If you were to say the exact same thing to an adult however, the first thing that the person would say is probably, "DUHH! Do you think I'm stupid?". But that's ego, and that's beside the point haha.

My point is, the adult has knowledge (not just information) on shoes. He/she could probably be thinking, maybe without realising, "A shoe is something worn on the feet to protect the feet from injury caused by stepping on hot cement floor, or spiky road etc and from dirt on the ground as well. That particular shoe so and so is pointing to is a pair of fashionable red high heels, worn by ladies to look taller and more elegant." I'm not sure if I've put my point across clearly to differentiate information and knowledge... But nvm, following is the meaning of knowledge:

knowledge
  /ˈnɒlɪdʒ/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [nol-ij]
–noun
1. acquaintance with facts, truths, or principles, as from study or investigation; general erudition: knowledge of many things.
2. familiarity or conversance, as with a particular subject or branch of learning: A knowledge of accounting was necessary for the job.
3. acquaintance or familiarity gained by sight, experience, or report: a knowledge of human nature.
4. the fact or state of knowing; the perception of fact or truth; clear and certain mental apprehension.
5. awareness, as of a fact or circumstance: He had knowledge of her good fortune.
6. something that is or may be known; information: He sought knowledge of her activities.
7. the body of truths or facts accumulated in the course of time.
8. the sum of what is known: Knowledge of the true situation is limited.

Information is just facts, while knowledge is when a deeper meaning is injected into the facts... Something like that.

Bismillah
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Dimulakan dengan bismillah
Disudahi dengan alhamdulillah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah

Dimulakan dengan bismillah
Disudahi dengan alhamdulillah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah

Mulakanlah kerja dengan niat yang satu
Untuk mendapatkan keredhaannya
Moga segala urusan dipermudahkannya
Agar sentiasa dalam kebaikan
Barulah hati kita kan terasa tenang
Dan bersyukur dengan apa yang ada

Dimulakan dengan bismillah
Disudahi dengan alhamdulillah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah

Buruk dan baik itu ketentuan Allah
Kitalah jua yang memilihnya
Amal yang baik akan membawa syurga
Amalan buruk menempah neraka

Hanyalah iman, amal dan juga takwa
menjadi bekal dalam hidup kita
Hanyalah iman, amal dan juga takwa
menjadi bekal dalam hidup kita

Dimulakan dengan bismillah
Disudahi dengan alhamdulillah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah

Dimulakan dengan bismillah
Disudahi dengan alhamdulillah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah

Ilmu pelita menerangi kegelapan
Darilah ilmu datangnya amalan
Dari amalan lahirlah kasih sayang
Saling membantu dan bekerja sama
Rezeki yang ada hulurkanlah derma
Agar hidup harmoni bahgia

Dimulakan dengan bismillah
Disudahi dengan alhamdulillah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah

Dimulakan dengan bismillah
Disudahi dengan alhamdulillah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah
Begitulah sehari dalam hidup kita
Mudah mudahan dirohmati Allah

Allah knows best, indeed, indeed...

I just received a call. Well... I was in the toilet uh, so my mum was the one who answered. It was a call from NUS *gasp!*

Apparently I had given incomplete address... Hmm, I reckon I might be receiving a letter soon? Wonder if it's a letter calling for interview, acceptance letter or worse, rejection letter.

Yikes, I'm nervous.

O Allah...

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang...

Hanyalah kepadaMu kami menyembah, dan padaMu kami mohon pertolongan
Tunjukkanlah kami ke jalan yang lurus
Jalan orang-orang yang Kau beri nikmat
Bukan jalan mereka yang Kau murkai
Dan bukan pula jalan mereka yang sesat




I was at kendarat yesterday morning when my mum called, "Na, ade surat tulis on government service, mama ngan baba kau tak sabar tunggu kau balik. Kita nak bukak."

Me: "Oh. Ok err... bukak uh." (dalam hati, alamak dup dub dup dub)

My mum: Mama bukak tau?

Me: Ah bukak. Harap2 berkat kott haha.


Jap lagi my mum called back saying, "Kau apply course ape, bachelor arts... ape dier ba? Ah, kau kena panggil interview."

Me: Bila tu?

My dad: *read the whole sentence* on 13th May at 5.20pm, look for room 22 bla bla bla.

Dalam hati kata, "Hmm, kau dah tawakkal Marl.. Kalau inilah jalan buatmu, maka jalan inilah yang akan kau tempuhi (walau perlu tembusi onak dan duri)"

So yeah, I'm shortlisted for the interview. It's like 2-3 days away la sehh. Serammm...

Argh.