Life is a classroom in itself. Just that the teacher may be someone else or it may be you yourself.

I'd learnt many many things ever since Pentas right up till now which I wish to share here. However, I can only share some of them and in brief only.

In a certain society, group or whatever, the sense of oneness should be present. It is best to avoid cliques, and instead befriend everyone. This prevents the rise of this clique against that clique which could eventually break up the group into parts. Also everyone has a part to play. Don't expect the leaders to do everything and leaders, don't expect everyone else to do everything either. All should share the load such that the burden becomes not a burden. And leaders, do also listen to your members' opinions. You are not always the right one.

Put one step forward at a time, but don't even think of retracting. Worry not what comes next. Trust yourself. Believe in God.

Our parents have done so much for us. Sometimes they tend to plan for our future as well because they feel that it's their duty. If you really think that by doing something, your future would be better than that your parents plan for you, gain your parents' trust and put confidence in them on what is it that you want and why. They just want the best for us.

Stubbornness can be good at times as being stubborn is believing that you're right. But make sure your stubbornness is at the right place at the right time and that you and the people around you can actually benefit from this stubbornness of yours.

Worry is a hurdle along the race track. The hurdles just hinders your race and may sometimes make you fall. You worry too much and you'll lag behind others or you just stop. Look over these hurdles to the finish line. Imagine yourself reaching that end with the achievement that you want in hand. Be confident that you can overcome these hurdles and do what you can to overcome these hurdles. And if you ever fall down, get up back and continue the race.

A famous quote: "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail" so do plan out your future on what you want amd what you have to do to get it. Some plans don't work, or may not work as best as others would so do back-up plans.

If you have the opportunity to be someone better in future, why not go for it?

Before I talk about Pentas, I'd like to post a song, which keeps playing over and over in my head. And even though I can't stop smiling (Pentas went very well and it's finally over!!!), I feel like crying when I listen to the song. For the video, click here.

Salam Terakhir by Sudirman

Sampaikan salam buat semua
Salam terakhir salam teristimewa
Kepada kau yang tersayang
Pada teman yang ku kenang
Pemergian ku ini tak dirancang

Usah bertanya mengapa aku
Mengucap salam terakhir kepada mu
Kerna waktu berputaran
Bimbang tak berkesempatan
Melahirkan kerinduan terhadapmu

( korus 1 )
Demi sebuah kenyataan
Yang amat menyakitkan
Aku yang tidak berdaya
Hanya berserah padaNya

( korus 2 )
Salam akhir
Salam yang teristimewa
KepadaNya ku memohon keampunan
MelaluiNya ku beri kemaafan
Kepadamu

( ulang korus1, korus2 )

Andainya aku punya waktu
Masih ku ingin mengulangi semula
Saat indah bersama mu
Sayang tak berkesempatan
Abadikan saja salam ku di ingatan

Salam ku yang terakhir

This song was played at the end of our performance when Kam died after being stabbed by a drunk Jam. The video was... heart-clutching...

So, as I said earlier, Pentas this year went very smoothly, with slight slips that hopefully goes unnoticed. Everyone gave their best today especially the four main characters Anas, Hid, Fatin and Wawan. They carried their character well and pulled it off la.

I cried a few times today... First was at the end of the full dress rehearsal when Salam Terakhir was played. Second was when Ili talked to Titisan of how this Pentas would be her last and how she wants Titisan to stay close-knit as always. Third was at the end of the real performance when the song was played. Fourth was when Titisan group-hugged after the performance. Fifth was when Titisan hugged one another in the dressing room. Emotional ehk aku ni? Hahakz.

I've yet to clean my face of the make-up and bathe and solat and all hehehe... So yeah I'm still serba putih now with glitter on my face. OoOoOo...

Anyway, my mum, my brother and his girlfriend, Ad, Faj and Jaja came to watch. Sedih eh, sikitnye orang datang tengok untuk support... Nevertheless I gave my best and I had fun and all. It was sad jugak lah... My mum, my brother and his girlfriend had already gone off when I entered the auditorium. Luckily Ad, Faj and Jaja were there. Thanks for turning up girls! And thanks for the Ferrero Roche!!! And thanks for your nice feedback Ad... Oh and to those who wished me before the performance, thanks ya!

Oh, I've left my post being in charge of public relation in Titisan. Promoted to Assistant Sub-group Head, aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Punyelah terkejut aku! Sape ehk suggest aku jadi ASGH??!! Jadi PR (which does sound easy) already drives me nuts, ni ASGH??!! Seramnye aku... Asallah Hydil ni gi jadi President of MAG?? Dah aku kena jadi ASGH...

Alamak, mata aku dah sekuyu2nye... Pedih seh. Gonna take a few more snapshots of myself in this make-up and then I'll go clean myself and SLEEP! I miss my beauty sleep!!! Let me sleep in tomorrow. If you have to disturb me tomorrow for whatever reason, disturb me after Zohor!

Before I end, I shall list down the main committee in Titisan...
SGH: Fifi
ASGH: Aku
Secretary: Naza
Honorary Treasurer: Fatin
PR: Hid
PM: Ijan
=)

Sesungguhnya today's training wasn't so bad... Started at around noon and ended at about 9pm. Tired but at least it was rather fun. Naza couldn't stop trying to sing 'Sesungguhnya' by Raihan and so I shall post the lyrics here lar ehk. For the video clip, click here.

Sesungguhnya by Raihan

Sebenarnya hati ini cinta kepada Mu
Sebenarnya diri ini rindu kepada Mu
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa cinta masih tak hadir
Tapi aku tidak mengerti
Mengapa rindu belum berbunga

Sesungguhnya walau ku kutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau ku siram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langit Mu
Namun cinta tak kan hadir
Namun rindu takkan ber bunga

Ku cuba menghulurkan
Sebuah hadiah kepada Mu
Tapi mungkin kerana isinya
Tidak sempurna tiada seri

Ku cuba menyiramnya
Agar tumbuh dan berbunga
Tapi mungkin kerana airnya
Tidak sesegar telaga kauthar

Sesungguhnya walau ku kutip
Semua permata di dasar lautan
Sesungguhnya walau ku siram
Dengan air hujan dari tujuh langit Mu
Namun cinta tak kan hadir
Namun rindu tak akan berbunga
Jika tidak mengharap rahmat Mu
Jika tidak menagih simpati
Pada Mu ya Allah

Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih Mu kepadaku
Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada Mu
Moga ku tahu
Syukur ku hanyalah milik Mu

From liriklagu.

Heys peeps, come lar watch me perform this Fri!!! Sms me for tix okokokokokok???? :D

I feel like crying, seriously...

Had Titisan training just now 10am-6pm. First time we practiced on stage and we had to do quite a number of runs to get things right. But still it's not perfect, so yeah we'll have 10am-10pm training from tomorrow onwards till the day itself, which is this Friday...

Heys come watch our performance titled 'Pentas Janji' this Friday at 7pm at TP audi 1. Tix at $6, do get it from me okaes? If you're worried about Maghrib, you can pray at our musollah at the plaza. The performance itself starts at 7.30pm if I'm not mistaken.

Mar-Liyana. Liyana stands for kelembutan (softness) BUT my limbs are so stiff, I can't do my part well for Pentas! And it makes me sad. I just feel so bad. Everyone says, "Feel... Feel it in your soul... Feel with your heart..." but I just can't seem to feel anything other than ache and pain... I'll work to better myself and insyaAllah by Friday I'll be lembut kkk. But come support me lar, give me some encouragement to work harder!

My back hurts when I woke up this morning, and so did my arms as well as my legs. I guess it's from our netball friendly match at Simei court with Istiqamah. I did warm-ups! I suppose it's cos it was my first match and I hadn't exactly practiced the past month... Padahal I didn't play positions that require a lot of running or such. I was GK initially, then I became WD. It was fun initially cos I could talk to the opponent but towards the end when I became WD, the Istiqamah WA looks so serious. I was rather taken aback by her attitude towards me, hardly smiled at all. It's not that she's the serious kind who don't smile cos I saw her laughing away with some other Istiqamah girls, so I just suppose that she just don't want to become too friendly with the opponent in order to play well for the game... Only God knows... She plays very good anyway. No matter how I defended, she'd always get away with the ball. Oh well... It's my first friendly match ever! And it gave me some things to learn.

Anyway, now, my back, arms and legs hurt double that of this morning. I hit my back against the stage divider just now and it was really painful lah ok... My right arm had to work forcefully with my stick and my legs had to keep me balanced. 4 more days... Ouch, it hurts just to think about it lol. Hmm... Do you think I'd earn myself some muscles by end of this week? Hehe.

But as painful and harsh as training can be, it can be fun as well, if you know how to enjoy it... For example, Hydil went around the stage just now telling each member not to be stressed and tensed, haha. I couldn't help but smile. Then there was Naza knocking her stick against mine as if we're warriors on a battlefield. No fair, her stick so much longer than mine lol. Besides, training-or should I say drama, allows you to express yourself, in ways that you may not be able to do so elsewhere and it's great!

Wah! 11+pm already!! I seriously need to sleep! I hope my back and limbs will be more... malleable and not stiff up!

Haiz, miss the Brothers songs... I tried looking for their cd, but I found none with all 4 of my favourites in... Oh well...

Was hoping to meet Ella at netball since her mum Cik Sa'adiah helps out at Istiqamah mosque, but then... She wasn't there. Otherwise, she'd have run and hug me! Miss her...

Eh, why am I still typing away??! Gtg now, good nitez! Cya... next week? Haha. I feel so much better emotionally after blogging...

After practising stomp everyday and getting back my Westlife cds and listening to the youtube video on fityan blog and listening to the song on Zee's blog, I really feel music flowing in my blood haha.

Haiz, my home computer is a bit siao, sometimes have internet connection, sometimes don't. And it just happens that when I wanna use it, either there is internet connection and my brother is using it or there is no internet connection... Urgh! So frustrating ok. I love blogging... :( eventhough I hardly have any time to blog these days, I can just leave a line or two to express my feelings. Oh well...

Anyway, yeah some of you must be wondering, "How come is Marliyana blogging at this hour when she keeps saying she has Titisan training pratically everyday at 10-3? Maybe training cancelled..." N-O, no, training is not cancelled, just... how should I put it? Postponed? Haha, I really think putting a fine to latecomers is a good idea hehe. Selambat2 aku, aku selalu siang jugak seh...

Results were out yesterday... Ok lah, alhamdulillah... Cuma ada sikit dissatisfaction 'cos I did worse than semester 1. NooOooOooo!!!!!!!!

Then last night I went Ghufran help Liyana with the design a recycling bin competition. Aku, Liyana, Nadia ngan Zee macam budak2 apa seh haha. But we had fun despite the rush and our product turns out rather cute uhuh. Hehe, if any of the rest took a pic of it, I'll try to post it here ya.

Klah, my peeps reach artspace oredi. Time for me to go! Sry for the *thumbs down* English. Malas lar...