I just did something un-typical of me today. I'm so relieved I survived (seems the right word now)lol. Guess what? I crashed TPJC today! I'd never dreamed of doing it if there wasn't any fellow crasher, haha. You know me and my questions, "Are you about this? Won't we get caught? Isn't this crazy?" Now THAT'S the typical me. I did ask those questions, to myself and to those around me, but I still crashed TPJC.

Let's see... It was a pretty boring day since the sunjects were Arts and P.E. only. Val, Marcus and I went to the library, later joined by Emily and Meiling who had History lecture. I was still very scared then. I mean, I don't have the TPJC badge and if I'm caught by the DM, whom according to Marcus's brother is really not hard to notice, too many questions will be asked that I can't answer. Marcus was telling jokes (sorta) and telling us of his brother's description of the DM which was so funny. At the same time, I had a terrible stomachache. You can barely imagine how I felt!

Anyway, the day went by and I attended the Econs lecture. It was erm... how should I put it? Bland? It's the subject. Ok, I admit that maybe I see it from the point of view of someone who'd heard many seniors say it is a boring subject instead of from the point of view of someone new to the subject and curious to hear what it's about. The teacher was ok. He tried to make us more enthusiastic over the subject. He was cheerful and made us laugh at times. He tried to make us be interested in the subject too, by giving us short and easy quizzes to make us feel, "Oh, we can do this. It's not so bad afterall. I wonder what he'd teach us next..." I learned something in the lecture theatre at least. Now I know what the terms microeconomics vs macroeconomics and positive vs normative statements are as well as how to use these terms. Not bad eh?

Well, the end of the lecture means the end of the day at TPJC for the day (other than having to wait till it's EXACTLY 12.50 before the err... holder of the keys, lol, unlocked the gates.

After school, Val, Marcus and I met Chuan Li at TMS to visit the teachers. It was a bit awkward talking to them at first but after some time, we loosened up. Hmm... I didn't expect the teachers to accept crashing into a JC! All 4 teachers I met thought it's a good idea. When Val told the teachers of the crashing, I was stoned for awhile, especially when we were with KC Tan. I thought the teachers wouldn't approve! Haha, they've proven me wrong. After listening to their encouragement, I think I'm gonna crash TPJC again this Wednesday! But only one more time 'cos 1) Val would be getting her civics group soon and I can't possibly join them and 2) I think my wits can't take it lol.

Well, till more news then! For now, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha!

I miss 4R so much!!! There's so many wonderful memories spent with my lovely classmates... I can't wait for the next gathering. I hope someone plans it soon! I'm not good at organising one. If I did, it'll most probably turn out bad. I was just wondering if I should ask my mum to let me throw a birthdy party cum class gathering in February. But then... I'm really bad hostess. But, IF I do get my wish, I wanna make it at the barbeque pit beside my house. It'll be lovely... (day dreaming lolz...)

Anyway, I miss 4R to the extent that I dreamt of the class! I think it's cos I keep looking at my class pictures before I sleep (I have the school class photos pasted on my wardrobe and I put a class picture taken on Teachers' Day in a frame beside my bed) that the images came up in my dream.

Dream 1
It started with my grandma asking me if I wanted to go to London with her (in real life, that would never happen). Then, somehow, I got hold of news that my class was going to London a day after my grandma was. I didn't know who to go with. Should I be filial to my grandma or should I be loyal to my class instead? So well, anyway, suddenly the day my grandma is taking the flight arrived and I was asked if I wanted to go or not. My answer was: NO. Then, can't remember how, but well maybe there wasn't really a how (you know how dreams are), I ended up in a dormitory (not a hotel) with some of the girls from my class. I took the left corner bed beside the window. Valerie took the king-sized bed on my right nearer to the door. Opposite us, Si Hui, Shi Yun and Karen (I think) pushed three single beds to form one large bed. Anyway, when I looked out of the doorway, I just get the feeling like I'm an exclusive camp or something. On my left, there's a grand staircase leading down and on my right as well as in front of me, there're doors leading to other rooms for other 'students'. Walking around were girls my age, but didn't take a closer look at their faces.

Random: My mum is making me feel so bad for not getting any school! You think I like staying at home, not knowing what to do do, so much eh? Puh-lease. How I wish I could go to school to meet some of my old friends and new ones?! But now that I'm stuck at home, I'm stuck ok?! Grr... I feel like crying. I think all my friends are in their new JCs now, except those who are very sure they wanna go to Poly and they're working. Me? I am hoping with all my heart that I will go MJ if not TJ, which had been my lifelong dream. Every time after prayer, I would ask Allah to let me go TJ, and if not, MJ. Sometimes I cry, because my mum wants me to go to JC so much and I feel so pressurized. I know, if what's meant to be mine will be mine and what's not, will never be mine. But it doesn't hurt to keep asking. It keeps me constantly hopeful, eventhough sometimes I feel that JC is so far from me based on my PRELIM results. How much better can my O level results be? I believe in miracles, though I believe strongly with fate too, and I hope a major miracle would happen if my fate says that I'm not to go to JC. Please Allah, grant me my wish...

Dream 2
Will continue some other day. I'm depressed as it is. I wanna go library to return some books and borrow new books. I hope there's a lot of Tamora Pierce and Danielle Steel's books... Their books take me away from the real world, and that's what I need now, badly...

Happy New Year! 2006 is finally here! I'm gonna be 17 soon! Wow, I feel so matured... Oh well, "age is just a number" as the saying goes. I mean I read a book (Dating Game) where a 48 year old man married a 24 year old woman and they're perfectly happy about it. The woman's mother, Paris, who is 47 years old had a boyfriend who is 32 years old, but they didn't get married 'cos she found him immature. Paris was plunged into the dating world after 24 years of marriage 'cos her ex-husband had enough of her and divorced her to get married to a 31 years old widow who has 2 boys. I know it's just a book, but it's part of reality. The world IS turning upside down.

Speaking of feeling matured, I do think I'm more matured than some of my friends and with my second brother, AT TIMES, in terms of decision-making, interest and some others. Of course, I am still 16 and acts like one, but only half the time.Te other half I am just me and that could mean being 16, younger or older depending on the given situation. I mean, do you hear me yak about cute guys on tv or the newest fashion trend or all those celebrity stars on my blog?? Not much, right!

Anyway, my wisdom teeth are growing! There's two, both on the bottom. The right one seems fine, but the left one hurts and looks my my gums are swelling! I decided to look it up on the net and *shudders*, look at this and this! I have a bad feeling about the left one, it hurts so much when I chew my food... Waa... I just told my mum I want porridge instead of rice tomorrow. Looks like it's gonna be like this for some time until I get to see a dentist to see if it's growing well and whether I need it extracted or not. From a forum I read, the extraction doesn't hurt, or at least lesser than it is hurting while I chew! But from abother forum, it sounds scary! Haiz... It seems safer to just extract it as soon as possible but well... $$$ Oh well, just hope I don't have to wait for too long lest there's an infection or something, ouchie!

I wanna go for a blood test! Firstly, it'd be cool to know my blood group and secondly, I wanna get early detection for anything that can be detected by blood tests. I read Zakiah's blog earlier today and I just found out you can get your blood tested at the polyclinic! I won't mind that. I mean, my dad would be paying for it through GIRO and it's only half the price other people pay anyway! I've got the Civil Servant (or Service, can't remember lol) Card, that's why.

Oh oh, how can I forget to write this. "Dia" stars today! Can't wait to see what happens in tomorrow's episode. "Dia 2" was a real disappointment towards the end. I hope this is not gonna be the same. I want Fifi to go to mental hospital (just to tell, I felt like writing 'hell' back there). And Susi can follow her mother, or biological father. Either way, she's good riddance. I have to say though, she adds to the spice of the story. I think what Fifi and Susi do are reasonable, but what I can't stand is Dwi's stupidity and the negligence of Van (it sounds better than written) and Dia could be more insistent. I'd love to get Rian back into the picture, but not likely I guess...

Well... Gotta get some stuff done for the class blog! I'm really proud with what I'd produced and I think I'm getting the hang of html! Tataz then, have a great new year ahead! 2006,here I come!!!!