I am feeling... UNPRODUCTIVE. And so I am feeling... WORRIED/PANICKY/GAN CHEONG at the same time too. The thing is... I'm not running around the house screaming in a fit of worry. And neither am I sitting down to get things done. Oh dear...

Rasa hati ni tak tenang langsung. Every few minutes, my brainwaves would send signals reminding me of ALL the things I have yet to do. Though my breathing is quiet, as if I'm sleeping... Ikut hati nak terus gi tido je, hmm... Takble takble.

Keep asking myself, "Cammaner ni, cammaner ni..." Adui.

I'm scared I fail in my duties, as a student mainly currently since exam for TP and DPIA are just around the corner and my lab reports and tugasan(s) I've yet to start at all. These days whenever I try to memorize something, I find it very hard to do. Cammaner ni?? What have I done wrong?? Did I eat something I shouldn't have eaten?? I dunno... Biasa-biasa aje sume pe... I hope, in my usaha to dekatkan diri pada Allah, pada Rasul, pada agama dan pada ilmu, I'll overcome all of this SOON.

I need a break! Seriously... Marathon marathon.

Memang bagui setiap masa lapang dipenuhi dengan activiti2 ber"manfaat". Why do I put in inverted commas? Cos I've been questioning myself lately, why do I do the things I do? And more often than not, the answer I get is not one which I want. Susah la. Cammaner ni?

I was google searching... And came across Faizal's old post:

- its never easy to reconcile two parties, but theres a reason why they approached you
- with great power comes even greater responsibility
- self-reflection is VERY important. you might never know where u faltered, until you rethink and rethink of what happened.
- never lose faith, because your sisters and brothers will always be there to push you up and higher
- love, and be loved
- always question your Niat or Intention to be on this path as a Da'i/Khalifah, and seek the meaning in prayers
- when our hearts are aligned to God, then untiy will arise, and the beauty of doing God's mighty works on this earth will prove as beauty in everything else in life.

I dunno... Partly I think because kebelakangan ni asyik kena tegur until I dunno apa yang betul apa yang tak dan apa yang hak dan apa yang batil. Diberi akal untuk berfikir, tapi rasa ilmu ni cetek sangat nak mempertegaknya what I feel is right.

It's like there's this inner conflict within myself and I dunno how to solve it. Itu mungkin kenapa rasa tiada ketenangan langsung di dalam hati! Yang mampu dilakukan ialah untuk berdoa kepadaNya supaya diberi petunjuk...

Also, there are a few things which I encounter that makes me... envious and jealous. How I wish... I can't disclose further. This blog is afterall open to public. Twice I wanted to get all these feelings out but both times macam lupa gitu. Mungkin memang it's not meant to be shared. Tak tau lah...

Tereasa diri ni tak tau ape2. Terasa begitu bodoh dan jahil sekali. Walaupun terus-menerus diisi dengan ilmu...

Tak tau lah. Kenape la rasa sebegini... What have I done lately which I shouldn't do? I've reflected a bit and hadn't found anything that could contribute to this. Need to reflect deeper I guess.

Macam terasa ape eh... Terkilan... Over a few things.

Hmm...

Even while typing this, kejap2 terlintas dalam benak all the things that I'm supposed to be doing. Cammaner ni?

Sometimes I find it so hard to work in a team. As much as I know that there's only so much I can do alone, macam entah, it feels hard to get other's cooperation.

Marliyana, time exam2 cam gini, sisah la kau ber-feeling2 cam ni. Dah la...

InsyaAllah will update on cPR (wonderful job to organising comm) and sleepover. I think a pic update is due, but nanti2 eh, I'm feeling so tired...

soo..what are you waiting for?? =D
Visit Us @ DTalk 2008!!

What D-Talk??
D-Talk is jointly organised by students from Nanyang Polytechnic, Temasek Polytechnic and An-Nahdhah Youth. We wish to engage the youths and this is part of our activities to attract more youth and raise awareness amongst Muslim Youth in Singapore on the importance of da’wah (sharing about the values and teachings of Islam to others), imparting relevant skills and knowledge and promoting a da’wah culture; focusing especially on sharing about Islam to non-Muslims. Beyond just preparing our Muslim youth to face the current growing interest in Islam, D-talk aims to educate them about da’wah being an obligation.

When??
20-22 June 2008

Where?
An-Nahdhah Mosque.
Located at Bishan. Near to Bishan Interchange,
Beside Girl Guides Association and Bishan ITE

Who??
youths of aged, 15-21.
Students from Secondary Schools and Post-Secondary Institutions
(Polytechnics, Junior colleges, Madrasahs, ITEs)...
and not forgetting NI members!!
Only 50 participants!~

So hurry and grab a place for yourself! :)

How to Register??
coming your way...

More information will be UP very soon. :)
Do check it out...

Assalamu alaikum Wr Wb

Sdri Marliyana

Terima kasih di atas pemberitahuan di bawah.

Harap maklum tiada peperiksaan ulangan untuk program DPI Andalus. Saudari boleh menduduki peperiksaan tersebut (Tafsir & Faraidh) pada tahun depan (2009) bulan Disember di cawangan Jurong West 1 (8.30 – 11.00 pagi).

Syukran.




I wanna cry!!!!! Cos my Tafsir exam falls on 15th Jun (when I'm supposed to be in Redang) and Faraidh is on 22nd Jun (when I just finished DTalk)

I'm like being asked to choose either, how can I do that??

"Ku berserah, ku berpasrah hanya padaMu ya Rabbi"

I'm listening MP3 and that was lyrics that was played as I am typing this. It truly descibes how I feel. Oh my...

Ya Allah, aku berserah padaMu. Kau yang Maha Mengetahui.

I seriously have no idea what to do! On 22nd, oklah, I can cabut straight after DTalk. No problem. On 15th?? Gakkan kott nak balik dari Redang, take the exam then go back right?? I can't just cancel KRC, the long-awaited KRC... I paid $190 oredi tauu.. Then gakkan pulak nak skip the exam je and repeat the whole module in Dec 2009??? When my parents have paid like $75 per month for??

I'm wishing for a miracle. And I'm incapable of miracles. Ya Allah, aku memohon kepadaMu, Tuhan semesta alam...

Akhirnya, udah usai aku membaca novel ayat-ayat cinta. Tidak sekali aku menangis, namun hati dipenuhi rasa pilu. Amat indah sekali novel itu. Cuma terdapat beberapa ungkap sahaja yang tidak bisa aku setujui.

Dakwah... Indah sekali usaha mereka berdakwah. Segala-galanya dilakukan ikhlas kerana Allah, kerana taqwa mereka kepada Allah, hanya mengharapkan balasan daripada Allah.

Sungguh sabar sekali dalam menghadapi ujian. Ujian bukan sekecil yang dihadapi kita seharian, namun ujian yang membawa seseorang mendekati ajalnya.

Namun novel ini mengajarkan bahawa Allahlah yang Maha berkuasa, tidak ada yang terjadi yang bukan kehendaknya.

A really nicely-written book. Inspirational & motivational to me. Makes me wanna manage my time properly and plan for the future. Makes me wanna give my best in my studies and learn because of Allah. Makes me realise the ilmu that I have is a tiny weeny part of ilmu Allah and without Allah's consent, I won't even have the ilmu within me. Makes me wanna hafal the Qur'an from the start to the end with the translations and frequent my tongue to utter words from the Qur'an. Makes me wanna learn Arab and speak in Arab to my friends. Makes me wanna go Al-Azhar to study, or even Syria. Or at least, makes me wanna study Pengajian Islam in greater depth. Especially tafsir Al-Qur'an and hadith (especially when Ust Fathurrahman also added that ilmu hadith u=is essential in all the other fields in Islamic Studies). Wah, makes me wanna better myself and wanna be a better muslimah. Makes me wanna jaga my akhlak more. Makes me long for syurga more! Strengthens my faith! Alhamdulillah...

SubhanaAllah, masyaAllah, what a wonderful book... Sesucinya sesuatu cinta itu tak akan sesuci cinta buat Illahi dan Rasul-Nya.

I'm smiling =)

Ayat-ayat Cinta by Habbiburrahman Al-Shirozy is a must read.

Astaghfirullah astaghfirullah astaghfirullah!

This is so embarassing!

Sungguh sungguh!

I'm laughing at my own stupidity and I can't believe what I just did! Accidentally seh!

Sungguh paiseh...

(Btw, psst, so far I have 408 posts... My block number tee hee)

Siapa bersungguh-sungguh, dia mendapat!!!
-from novel ayat-ayat cinta by Habbiburrahman Shirozy

Wa man yattaqillaha yaj’al lahu makhraja. Siapa yang bertakwa kepada Allah maka Dia akan menjadikan untuknya jalan keluar.
-from same novel

I'm stuck reading the novel (uh oh). It's so page-turning lah! Within 3 days I read almost half the book akready (yea yea others would have finished it earlier, but I've kinda lost touch with the 'skills' of reading novels).

I'm so in love with the Arab language! How I wish I can read the Qur'an and understand the meaning, without needing translations...

Nak belajar Arab... :( Ust Sakinah, Liyana, Kak Syazwani, Diyana tolong ajar boleh? Setakat biasa-biasakan cakap Arab ngan kita bila jumpa pon ok, takyah nak sit down together and belajar from book...

A couple of times I see Arab classes in the newspaper or hear it from friends, and I soooo wanna join. Unfortunately, I dunno eh, macam tak dapat commit larh...

I wanna be like Fahri.. Put up his whole life planning in his room... Me? I don't even know what tests/assignments I have due next week if Ad doesn't tell me!

Gosh, there's so much I wanna better myself in. Camne eh? Where to start?

I kinda feel that these days I'm do things because I'm asked to, and not because I want to. It's different if you do things with passion, with keredhaan..

Sometimes pulak, I really wanna do something but I keep procrastinating it, "Nanti lar, nanti lar..."

Rasa macam nak push pause button to everything, reorganise and then play again. Or rather, i should say 'record'. Caus everything we do is somewhat 'recorded' and will be 'replayed' to us in the hereafter...



I really enjoy Ust Fathurrahman's Faraid class. Not only is he funny, his explanation is also very clear with support from al-Qur'an and hadiths (sometimes). And he actually summarised most part of Faraidh in a single paper that really helps us in our revision. Hehe, spoonfed ehk. Really, I compare his lesson with Ust Saifuddin's (sry Ust...) lesson, I feel that I learnn so much more in Ust;s Fathurrahman's class. Simple and easy to understand with loads of examples and practices that you have the numbers at the tip of your fingers!

I'm loving DPIA... I really value the lessons taught. (Though I must say I really dread the tugasan and exam... Menyetresskan gilerr okeh!)



Oh oh, by the way, helped Fityan's kendarat last night. First time beb aku jadi kendarat and Liyana of all other jobs you can give me, you pot me responsible for serving the pengantin!!! Initially ok, since I didn't foresee pape ah. Just that Liyana says it's a critical job. Ok... Then Ust arrived and told me, "Awak jangan pulak tertumpah lauk kat pengatin!" Argh, panic! Wild imagination!! What if this... What if that...

When the pengantin arrived, lagi lah panic aku! I expected someone to give me instructions what to do and when no one did, there's only 1 person I can ask, that is someone who's married, none other than: Ust. Kwang3!

In the end, Zul carried the food in the dulang while I followed him from behind and transferred the food on the table. I must add: supppppppppeeeeeeeerrrrrrr slooooooowly ok. Calm je, padahal dup dub dup dub, keringat membasahi serkup sume. Then straightaway I blah.

Then I kept looking at the pengantin. Why are they not eating yet nih??!! Tried to think back and realised I did not put the fork and spoon. Panicked, ran to the back, asked Ust, panicked, ran to the front and realised fork and spoon nye dah ade lah...

After that I went back to where I'm supposed to be: the desert table and carried on my job. Saw the pengantin jalan-jalan and back to the dining table for pictures. And I realised, I haven't cleared the table!!! Dush. Quickly grabbed a dulang, asked Kak Ain to follow me and when one group left from the phototaking sessin, Kak Ain and I went to clear the table.

Oh know what? Now then I realise I did not put any drinks for the pengantin. OoOoOopps. Nasib tak tercekik ke terbegik ke!

Reminder to all: you either put someone experienced or someone who's married to be responsible of serving the pengantin. I AM NEITHER. Gosh, *smacks forehead* paiseh tauu.. It was the one day they become raja and permaisuri and they didn't even get any drinks?? Cekik darah nye Marliyana. Lol.

“Aku tersangat rindu kepada para Ikhwanku.”
Maka bertanyalah para sahabat,

“Ya Rasulullah SAW, bukankah kami ini Ikhwanmu?”

Rasulullah SAW menjawab,

“Bukan, malah kamu adalah sahabatku. Sedangkan Ikhwanku adalah orang yang beriman denganku walaupun mereka tidak pernah melihatku.”

Hadis ini diriwayatkan oleh Imam Muslim daripada Abu Hurairah RA dan Anas RA dengan matan yang sedikit berlainan.

Dari lbnu Umar RA katanya, Rasulullah SAW ditanya oleh para sahabat RA,

“Apakah ada orang yang beriman kepadamu sedangkan mereka tidak pernah melihatmu dan membenarkan ajaranmu sedangkan mereka tidak pernah melihatmu?”

Baginda SA W menjawab,

‘Mereka itu adalah lkhwanku dan mereka bersama-samaku. Beruntunglah mereka yang melihatku dan beriman kepadaku dan beruntung juga mereka yang beriman kepadaku sedangkan mereka tidak pernah melihatku.” (diulang 3 kali).

(Riwayat Muslim)

Daku ingin sekali mengikut contoh sebaik-baik contoh ini..

Teringat tazkirah time Night cycling...

Terfikir juga... "Ikhwanku"... Nur Ikhwan? Cahaya Persaudaraan...

There's soooo much I wanna say tapi tak dapat ku luahkan kerana ia tidak patut diketahui sesiapa pun. Ia rahsia hanya buatku ketahui. (though I do wish I can share with someone, but I won't even tell my mum, why would anyone else know can? hanya Dia sahaja yang tau...)

Feeling rather... I dunno... Ad and I term it as depression, but I'm not sure if it's the right word. (And at the same time, I can't put one exact term to my feelings anyway, since there's so many feelings berkecamuk around everywhere)

How would you like to have your whole body numbed and turned to lie on your side, and as much as you try to jerk your limbs, you can't move? I felt that before, under somekind of sleeping paralysis. But at least I 'woke up' after that and am still ALIVE today..

But how would you like, after not being able to move at all, to have your eyelids pushed down to almost pop your eyes out and then have a glass tube inserted into the side of your eye near your nose, and not only that, when it's in, it pushes onto your blood vessel till it breaks and blood oozes out before your eyes get pinched shut.

Just as you thought the ordeal was over (eventhough you can't feel anything, you wish you could just run away and hide somewhere), you are made to lie on your back and a needle is inserted from your lowest rib-bone up your sternum and pierce your heart (as much as you wish for a cupid arrow to hit your heart, you'd never dreamt something sharper would hit you, right?) and you see almost all blood in your body get drained.

Fortunately (or unfortunately, however you put it) your wish to simply vanish comes true as another needle is inserted into your heart again and this time you feel some fluid get flowed through it and before you know it, you get sleepier and sleepier and never to wake up again...

That is how it is like if you were to put yourself into the shoes of a lab mouse. That is how I imagine the mouse 'felt' during LAST lab just now. And as much as I don't want to do it, I would have to for it will be my practical test. Yes, I would have to do that.

It's like an irony that LAST stands for Lab Animal Safety Technique or something like that. Theory and practical are so totally two different things.

Felt like vomiting after lab just now, gosh! Lucky I didn't eat anything for lunch, cept ice-cream (Mat Kool choc tastes nice! thx AD!)

Hmm, as usual, I feel so much burden on my shoulders. Wish I can view it all not asburden, but as opportunity to gain knowledge, tools to achieve my main aim: mardhatillah!

I dunno... Sometimes sincerity fade. And without a sincere heart, things get tough and very challenging. I wonder, is there anyone who truly devotes his life in only ONE aim to achieve His pleasure and so EVERY SINGLE THING he does is ikhlas lillahi taala.

I wish to be like that.

Unfortunately, I can't! Some would say, "Well you're human afterall" but...

Lillahi taala
Lillahi taala
Lillahi taala

Isn't that supposed to be the RIGHT way?

I don't know. Only He knows.

Today is the day I gave my final decision. I had more or less decided last week actually but I dunno, I found it hard to say out and officialise that decision cos making that decision automatically means I've agreed to take on the challenge amd take up all the responsibilities meant for me. -_-

The more others try to convince me, the more unsure I get.

Whatever it is, I've officialised my decision just now.

(Suddenly terpikir, cam gini agaknya perasaan kalau nak kahwin eh?? Waduhh)

Speaking of marriage... My mum ever mentioned, she'd like to see me married by 24 or latest 25, or else I'd be labelled 'andalusia' or more commonly known as 'andatu'!

I'm 19 this year. This leaves me with 5/6 years at most. *gulps* Reminder to self: Time flies REALLY fast these days *double gulps*

My room is berserak as ever. And half of me wanna clean it. But the other half...

1 more week to CPR. Less than 2 weeks to term test (5 PAPERS OK!!!) followed by Camp Xplore faci training. Roughly 3 weeks to Camp Xplore (min target reached alhamdulillah!) and KRC (I have yet to register nih!! Don't leave me!!). Less than 1 month to D'Talk *BIG BIG gulp* (More decisions to make *groans*) About 3-4 more months before it's the end of lectures and tutorials! (for the time being) And then attachment *lub dup lub dup* for I dunno how many months with who at where and all *seramz* And before I know it, I'd be wearing THE robe to officialise my graduation and then... WHAT?

Where do I go next?

Sleepy already... Before I end of, just wanna say two things:

"Ana dah terima. Lillahi taala. Lillahi taala. Lillahi taala. InsyaAllah."

"Hanya kasih dan sayang sanggup kuberi. Cinta hanya untukNya dan RasulNya." - dunno where I heard it...

I must wake up tomorrow determined to accomplish more things....

Loving Nur-Ikhwan more and more!

(Hmm... I'm having mixed emotions.. I wanna blog but I can't really blog, so that's it for today.)

I didn't know the album name of this song is 'The Way of Love' until today haha.

Astaghfirullah minal khothooya

Robbiy zidniy 'ilman naafi'aa
Wawaffiqnii 'amalan maqbuula
Wawass'lii rizqoon thoyyiban
Fatub 'alayya taubatan nashuuha

HambaMu ini datang padaMu
Tuntunlah kami kemana pergi
Aku tersesat dijalan ini
Tak tahu lagi arah kembali
Sudilah Engkau mau peduli

Yaa man yaro sirro qolby hasbith-thila 'uka hasbi
Famhu bi'afwika dzanby washlih qusudiy wal a'mal

Ya Illahi Ya Tuhanku
HambaMu ini menujuMu
Jiwa ragaku jadi belenggu
Agar mendapat keridhoanMu
Tujuan akhir jalan hidupku

Emangnya gue busy banget kebelakangan ini ya. Tapi sempat juga mengheret my mum, my eldest bro and his girlfriend watch it just now at Downtown East. Caught the 9.50 one..

Wahh, the story is sweet... I can't wait to find time to read the book. Currently, I'm reading Salju Sakinah by Zaid Akhtar. Simply love my usrah sisters for sharing with me about these wonderful books =)

I enjoyed a lot a lot yesterday, but not without relevant takeaways!

Climb I.G.M by Saff Perdaus

Lessons from rockclimbing
-hold onto the rope of Allah
-one problem, many ways of solving it
-support from friends
-teamwork allows you to achieve greater heights
-you tend to fall many times along your life journey, but as long as you get up back after that, you would be able to reach the top
-sometimes when you need to let go of certain things you've been holding on too tightly in order to advance
-sometimes you just need to take a step back to see the bigger picture before moving on again
-sadly sometimes you're too focused on your given task that you sweat all your sweat out for it and forget to have a look around you, that would probably make you smile

I love rockclimbing! Even if it means I'd have a very much aching body the next day! Ya my arms and ankles hurt. I strained my right wrist and right ankle during bouldering but I wouldn't miss climbing the high wall for anything. I'm glad I went for it. Kalau tak... Nyesal tak sudah tauu! Great to see some old peeps there! Missed you guys. Was hoping Kak Huda and Kak Nas were there...

Night Cycling 08 Appreciation Night

Sungguh cantik deco nye! A wonderful night. A very happy night.



Reflect: Muadz Bin Umair tetap menegakkan bendera Islam walau telah terpotong kedua-dua tangannya hinggalah beliau rebah di medan peperangan Uhud itu. Cukupkah 'pengorbanan' kita selama ini untuk menegakkan bendera Islam di tangan kita?

Random pics

Today feels like it was divided into 2. The first part being from morning (actually since last night larh) to around 8.30pm was DISASTER. Stress. Can't concentrate. Lost. Sleepy. Tired. Exhausted. Lazy. The second part started around after Isya' till now alhamdulillah. There's a certain calmness and ease walaupun my workload is still the same, tak berkurang tak bertambah.

I just guess talking helps. And reading happy Mothers' Day blog entries. And looking through crazy silly pics haha.

Still a bit tired though larh...

I ask myself: how many laps have I run so far? I've lost count... It's either that or this life marathon is EXTREMELY looooooong!

Fruits are nice. Only fruits that I eat larh.

Hope I won't be late for APEL tmr.

I want a looooooooooooooong looooooooooooooong loooooooooooooong break, can? From school, from CCA, from events, from camps, from classes EVERYTHING. I wanna hibernate.

Waaaaaah! I have so many things to do!

Actually I'm just being paranoid lah. I tend to be like this sometimes. I have so many things to do, yes, but some are due later while others need to be prioritised first yet I tend to longgok everything together and stress over nothing. This is when thinking too much about the 'future' is bad for you.

Must think (and do something) about the present more!

(I took 10mins to talk to Ad 'cause I'm feeling so tired and so my brain function and my speech is sooooooo slooooooow. Aiseh~)

Schoolwork:
TE lab 2 lit review - intro (Mon)
TE lab 1 materials method, discussion - intro (Mon maybe)
BPT tut 2 (Mon)
BPT project launch (Mon)
SIP form (by Tues)
RTecB topic 2 lecture quiz (on Wed or Thurs)
BPT post-lab (on the spot on Wed)
CSAS (in 2 weeks time - Wed)
LAST 10 animals (Thurs)

Hack!

Others:
Sponsorship (tonight) - tak habis2 lagi!
Elaborate Dakwah topic, plan activity and contact speakers (by Thurs)
Faraidh Research - Sg context (by Sun)
Tugasan Faraidh - cucu lelaki pada anak lelaki (in 6 weeks time) - 3pg
Tugasan tafsir - Al-Fatihah (in 6 weeks time) - 5pg

Schedule:
Monday: gimme a break
Tuesday: Camp Xplore meeting
Wednesday: Titisan
Thursday: D'Talk prog meet
Friday: mixed usrah
Saturday: Climb I.G.M and Nite Cycling Appreciation Nite
Sunday: Madrasah

Happenings/Birthdays in May:
2nd May: Bro Mohksin's birthday
11th May: Mothers' Day
11th May: Fathi's birthday
13th May: Kak Dessy's birthday
13th May: Bro Asrul's birthday
16th May: library books due
16th May: mixed usrah
17th May: Saff Climb I.G.M
17th May: Nite Cycling Appreciation Nite
23rd-24th May: D'Talk workshop for organisers

Why don't I feel lega it's all out of my system???

What's taking up my June holidays:
9th June: LAST husbandry stuff (no it's not a course to find a husband whatsoever okeh)
11th-12th June: Camp Xplore
13th-16th June: KRC
17th-19th June: gimme a 3-day break la, is that too much to ask for?
20th-22nd June: D'Talk

Having fun seems a chore to me...

Been running a marathon since Apr 1st and I must keep pushing myself till the end point - which will be the starting point of another race I'm sure (eg. exam, SIP, some event...) I should really consider taking up logistics (NOT fnb k) for the next event...

What I really WANT:
hibernate
sleep
clean my room (I can't believe I'm saying I wanna clean it, normally its 'I need to clean it)
catch a movie (my mum ajak tengok Ayat-ayat cinta and I shrieked, "NAK!!"
read a novel - a Malay novel by Habbiburrahman (can't believe this also!)
meet Sylvia & Khairiyah (their birthday presents are long due!)
write sylvia a letter
go jalan2 with my mum without having to worry about ANYTHING
donate blood (tak puas hati ar the first time round)
cekik somebody (just kidding!)

This ^^^ is the reason why I put "O u who believe! Strengthen uselves with resolution and prayer. Indeed Allah is with those who persevere in adversity 2:153" as my MSN nick, I really need to reemind myself at all times. Soon, my mum is gonna hang a 'Dengan nama Allah' carved wood in my room so I can remind myself to do everything in his cause at all times.

I'm loving Allah, Rasulullah, Islam, my parents, my friends and even myself more and more, but I feel that I fail to show it. Not show to show off kinda context. But show in my actions gitu. Now, I feel like my actions are not in line with what I believe gitu. Susahlah nak explain!

Issues I need to resolve:
Within myself (berbulan-bulan dah! Masih tak resolve lagi)
Amongst my D'Talk prog members (where can I get strength, courage and firmness O Allah?)
Amongst my Camp Xplore admin members (same as above, need to instil some leadership skills in myself!)
Juggling school with others (time management rabak sey)
Health (entahlah, I'm like giving up on it... Will try to eat more fruits)

Some things I'm proud to have done this past week:
Managed not to fall sick!
Learn to adjust margins and tabs on Microsoft Words
Did camp xplore brochure (with help from other dept of cos)
Presented on Medinan Charter (Piagam Madinah)
Created a video for Mothers' Day (she didn't cry though, why??)
I didn't cry once even though I'm under alooot of pressure
dah itu je seh... nothing on school... :(

Some things I'm disappointed at myself about:
My failure to be firm as a letter
My failure to arrive early/on time for school
My failure to get Director's List (I feel as if it's a duty entasked to me...)
My failure to keep my room clean
My failure to be aware of my food intake

Banyak eh aku tulis. Wanna write more actually... Wanna write about what I think about this makcik I met at Ghufran, about career/SIP, about marriage, about LAST lab, about faraidh lesson, about family, about weird stuff and many more! Btw, jangan judge by what I'd just said... These did circulate in my mind a lot, but I don't wish to be judged by my thoughts can?

My next tagline: "Okeh?" :n

Nak makan chocolate, nak makan sushi, nak makan bubur, nak TIDO!

Tak nak buat keje, tak nak gi skola, tak nak kluar rumah, tak nak bangun dari katil pon! (except for necessities larh)

Actually, I have so much to thank for, ungrateful me...

Anw, initially I thought cyclone had something to do cloning humans and I actually wanted to ask, "They're successful??" Ermmmmmm

Still having headache. Movement and speech getting slower and slower, eyes getting more and more tired...

Sometimes thinking is such a tiring thing to do

Choices... Just thinking about these...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Quiz from Quiz box

Khas untuk mama yang tercinta... 19 tahun lamanya mama tidak jemu membesarkan Nana Dalam kandungan, dalam timangan, dalam pelukan mahupun hanya dalam hati sahaja Ketika gembira Ketika bersuka Mahupun ketika berduka Mama sedia ada untuk Nana Dihias kecantikan pada luaran Mahupun pada dalaman dengan ilmu agama Tidak dapat dibalas semuanya Melain doa Seorang anak bagi ibunya “Ya Allah, ampunilah mereka (kedua ibubapaku), sayangilah mereka sebagaimana mereka memelihara aku di masa kecil”



Brothers - Lagu Untuk Ibu

Seorang Wanita Bermahkota Ibu Menggenggam Jari-Jari Kecil Ikatan Ini Tidak Kan Terurai Kerna Tautan Ini Tautan Darah dan Akidah Dan Rahmat Dari Allah Kini Ibu Peganglah Tanganku Ini Biar Kubawa Ibu Menjelajah Hasil Titik Peluhmu Biar Kubawa Kealam Ku Hasil Ukiranmu Selama Ini Dodoianmu Ibu Membina Benteng Pemisah Antara Yang Hak Dan Yang Batil Membakar Semangat Perjuangan Mengait Kasih Pada Junjungan Tercinta Tersujud Lemah Mengabdi Diri Kepada Yang Esa Jika Belum Pernah Kau Dengar Ucapan Terima Kasihku Ketahuilah Doaku Ini Moga Tuhan Menyayangimu Sepertimana Kau Mengasihiku Dari Dulu Hingga Kini Untuk Selama-Lamanya

Taken from delirik

Let's face it lah ok... I simply HATE datelines. The worst thing that can happen is when I do tungkus-lumus already then turns out I did it wrongly and still need to edit somemore. AISEH! Lucky dateline is extended.

TSUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!! Haha...

Actually just feel like screaming, tapi tak tau nak scream ape gitu.

Nak pekik betol2 tak boleh (aurat you know), pekik lah di blog kan...

Truly, crying is the most non-violent way to express your feelings... Argh. I'd say: blogging is also another non-violent way to express your feelings. Though sometimes you hurt other people with your words. I hope I don't hurt anyone through whatever I write. Cos I really believe on 'do unto others what you want others do unto you and don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you' and I wouldn't wanna be hurt by anyone's blog entries.

The songs on my blog make me simmer down a little. Love these songs =) It'd be nice if I'm at home now lying on my bed listening to these songs.

Masih pening!!! Ever since Sunday... Really bad today. Have you ever had two cymbals clang directly over your head? I never had, but I'm pretty sure the headache I'm feeling is just as splitting as if two cymbals are clanged hardly onto my head, oww...

Less than 1hr left. Tick tock.

Wishing for my MP3 to be repaired. Hmm...

SubhanaAllahi wabihamdih, SubhanaAllahi al-azim...

Has my blog been sounding too stressed/sad/angry lately? Opps.. Will try to post more sharings than my personal life kaes.

Oh I was marked 'late' for APEL this morning, opps! Will try to be punctual larh... InsyaAllah...

Try multitasking... How about sleeping while studying? I did that throughout TE lec and BPT lec haha afterwhich on the way to library I slept while walking while planning haha.

Sooooooo tired and sleepy and exhausted... I think there's lead in my head. The heavy type one. Berattttt macam berkilo-kilo! Ni sekarang pon lentok je kepala ni.

The different levels of tiredness... This morning, during APEL, I just kept quiet. During meeting after that, I was crazy. Had fun disturbing everyone else since I'd finished my part of the project already. During lectures, forced myself to stay awake and barely managing to... Jotted down notes and highlighted the important points as usual, but tulisan... macam cakar ayam! But readable. The funny part is when people around you are feeling tired too.

Ad: "What you write?"
Me: read out the sentence I'd just written
Ad: "But it doesn't make sense la..."
Me: "It does." read out sentence again. "It's exactly what he (the lecturer) said."
Me: zzzzzzz

Kwangz.

Pening seh kepala... I need to go get some rest but, there's a lot of things to do. Schoolwork itself only I have to write out BPT short note on some dunno M-what broth for lab at 9 tmr and it's a groupwork so I gotta give time to Ad to compile la kan. Plus have CSAS at 2 and I need to prepare presentation (slides and notes prepared larh, just need to sebatikan the info dalam hati) plus need to hand in draft of resume and cover letter. ALL by tmr. The 'good news' is that I'm gonna reach home only at around 10 plus pm. ZzZzZzZzzzz...

Dahlah, ciaoz now... 1 min to 3.30pm.

Ad is left with 3 pracs left before TP! And I have yet to start. ZzzZzzZzzzZzz...

what in the world am I online so early in the morning? Haha, actually I wanted to finish up some stuff I didn't manage to complete yesterday (not so yesterday afterall, it was around 2 plus/3am when I slept. *YaWn!*) but as usual did the normal routine first, check e-mail, check fityan blog, check my blog hehe. And I decided to blog sikit. Actually semalam nak blog but err, lupa kott? Haha

Missed my usrah sisters greatly yesterday, but then dapat jumpa Kak Maryam and chatted with Liyana, jadi terubat sikit rindu hehe. Usrah really bonded us together. I'm glad to have made the decision to attend the second usrah they had (I didn't attend the first and I came late for the second, pasal... masih decide nak pergi taknak nak pergi taknak haha. Memang gitu... NI pon, it took me as year long to decide to join hehehe)

Anyway, Kak Maryam told me I looked happy yesterday. Hehe, eh? Padahal dalam hati tu bergelora segala emosi memikirkan all the tasks I'm supposed to do tau. Kepala pening and there's one time I could feel really strong heartbeats in my head oww. But I heard some good news yesterday... I'm in the same group as Ad for BPT prac hehe. Padahal we mati2 thought lain group tau.

Ad, I'm so happy we're in the same class again and same group again for labs and projects!!! I dunno... Alhamdulillah I've never fought with Ad. I'm sure there are a few differences between us (for one she goes jamming while I get a headache just listening to it on radio or what - I listen to music like the songs I put up here =)) Kadang2 it gets a bit awkward between us to be in the same class after a year separation, cause I kinda changed. I'm not as organized as before (I don't even care of the position I place my pens in my pencil case anymore) and I'm always late for class which I never was last time! These are just to name a few, kan Ad?)

Oh, back on topic (gtg off real soon!).. Towards the end of the day, dah change to reflective mode. The walk home from Ghufran (oh I walked to Ghufran yesterday with Kak Maryam instead of taking bus, best seh) was quiet and extremely slow... Reflected a lot... Especially, why do I do the things I do? A very good question in times like this, nilah masa kita perbetulkan niat. This question can bercabang to so many things, cause there's so many things we do kan? I thought about school, about Fityan, about NI, about Camp Xplore, about DTalk, about myself... I love these solo reflective night walks. Haha, biasa larh takde companion home, except after KPR class then rabbitku plus doraemonnya ble walk together since we live quite nearby.

Anyway, dah lambat uh. Yikes! Takpelarh, APEL seh... Even cikgu datang 20mins late. Asalkan datang dah.

Just some shoutouts:

Tsuraiya, I heart heart you so much! Thank you for taking off some of my beban. I understand you're still trying to cope with school and all... It measn a lot to have you by my side.

Liyana (both Liyanas actually), wwe chat long long again k. =)

Kak Maryam, haha best berbual ngan Kak Maryam. But I feel bad you 'send' me to my destinations, eventhough you have reasons walking in the same direction as I am.

Ad,haha you can see how happy I am. InsyaAllah we'll do better this sem together kay? Jia you to us! If I've changed, I hope it's not too drastic for you to take, sorry kalau inconvenience ape2...

K ciaoz,

Cuma nak share what a brother shared with me...

Dan orang-orang yang beriman serta beramal soleh (dengan tidak menjadi keberatan kepada mereka, kerana) Kami tidak memberati diri seseorang (dengan kewajipan) melainkan sekadar yang terdaya olehnya, merekalah ahli Syurga, mereka kekal di dalamnya. (42) surah Al-araf


Surah Al-Asr
وَٱلۡعَصۡرِ (١) إِنَّ ٱلۡإِنسَـٰنَ لَفِى خُسۡرٍ (٢) إِلَّا ٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ وَعَمِلُواْ ٱلصَّـٰلِحَـٰتِ وَتَوَاصَوۡاْ بِٱلۡحَقِّ وَتَوَاصَوۡاْ بِٱلصَّبۡرِ (٣)

Demi Masa! (1) Sesungguhnya manusia itu dalam kerugian; (2) Kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh dan mereka pula berpesan-pesan dengan kebenaran serta berpesan-pesan dengan sabar. / (3)

"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."

"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."

"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.."

"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."

"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."

"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."

"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."

"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."

"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."

"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

-Maya Angelou
Don't ask me who she is, I dunno. But I do find some of the things she say to be true cos I'd been through them =)

I can't believe it...

Finally I got the experience of donating blood. And, lol dalam saat genting camtu pon I didn't faint. I was fully aware of my surroundings, and I was moving my toes and fingers to prevent from getting cramps. I just closed my eyes 'cause that's what I was asked to do. And my head was facing the side 'cause someone pushed it that way and since I dunno what to do, I just followed instructions la kan.

Oh, don't understand pe aku bebual? Erm... I got a bit dizzy during the blood donation. Initially I thought it's normal so I kept quiet. The nurse was very far anyway, so I just rested my head and closed my eyes. Skali bila bukak mata, woah~ Bright lights and pangs in my head. But was still persevering lol, stupid thing to do I tell you... When the nurse was attending the person on my left, I called quietly and said slowly, "Excuse me, I'm feeling a little dizzy..."

And zap zap, everything happened so quickly, the line to the tube was cut or something, someone pushed down the back of my seat so the 'chair' becomes a bed and someone wrapped my arm with bandage (I didn't even get to choose the colour :() and pushed my arm in a position that it secures the bandage and closes the wound/hole whatever tightly. I don't even know when the needle was pulled out. Someone then pushed my head to the side and asked me to close my eyes. And I was so lazy to move. Terperanjat jugak at the speed they did things. I was expecting the nurse to say, "Oh it's normal, just lie down in your chair" or something of that sort instead of a flurry of events happening. Was kinda disappointed I couldn't finish donating, huhu~ Nak jugak tanya, "Erm, when I feel better, may I continue donating?" Lol, fat chance larh.

Time lie down with my eyes closed, ada ke patut aku sakit perut. Aiseh apa dah, of all times.. But takde pape arh, tahan je. Felt my whole body went cold, sejuk semacam seh as if there's no blood gitu but my heart was thumping really quickly. I didn't get to see myself, like duhh, but I think I probably went really pale since betol macam no blood is reaching my body parts seh, brr... Even my back felt cold. But I kept quiet and rested pasal really pening. I felt so hungry as if I'd fasted the whole day padahal before going I had a heavy heavy breakfast.

Hmm, two possible reasons... One is maybe cos I really didn't drink enough water. Two is probably because I didn't have enough sleep..

Oh, the needle tak sakit pon cos the area has been anaesthesized already (I imagine Ad asking lotsa questions about everything if she were in my place, but I keep quiet je). Nampak needle memang seram jugak, macam small sharp-tipped senduk gitu, definitely larger than the normal needle though, but tak rasa. Firstly the small bag of blood was emptied into three smaller tubes. I assume it's those that will be tested. Hehe, eh, I sort of enjoyed the experience. Nak donate lagik! Haha, pening lagi nak??

Macam malu jugak ah.. I was like the first person there to feel dizzy (err, I was probably one of the first few youths larh) and time nak kena anaesthesize tu Cik Nordin kacau-kacau. Abe dah lepas the dizzy moment, Sham came over followed by others who kept asking, "Ok tak?" Thx for the concern korang. But paiseh seh, imagine: "Ni yang pengsan tu eh?" Ermmmmzzzz. YES thank you, how may I help you??? No larh, that didn't happen... Haha Cik Nordin kena 'marah', he was like asking, "Ni dah kenapa pulak ni ngan dia?" The nurse replied, "Awak lah ni asyik kacau-kacau dia!" Kwangz.

Haha, all in all ok ar. Great experience. Now I truly believe, donating blood is not at all painful! I really wonder how much they managed to take before the tube kena cut off. And please dn't throw away the blood yer, use it tau.

Next things to do on my list, makan, nak tido hehehehe

Finally finished CSAS ppt. Looks quite ok. Waaaa, I'm sleepy. Only slept 2/3am-5am...

For now, I've got a sponsorship letter to draft plus minutes of meeting to vet. Yawn...

I'm getting even more excited about the blood donation~ But a bit nervous and scared too haha. Sape tak seh... unless you're like a regular already la kan.

I need to eat breakfast but so nervous, I can hardly swallow I think ish.

Ok, I'm erm... nvm, ni lah kes orang nervous...

Know what?? I still have yet to start CSAS presentation slides! Err, cos I dunno what to put in there larh... Hope I can present as well as Kak Raihanah hehe.

Anyway, to those who've been trying to lift my spirits since Thusrday, thank you thank you so very much... :)

To those who've been pushing me for deadlines, I'm sorry I hadn't been doing things effectively lately. Still trying to sort things out and prioritise. I need some sense of URGENCY! And for that, I actually thank you for 'reminding' me of my datelines. (Tapi kekadang tu stress jugak, especially kalau dituduh yang bukan-bukan boo hoo~)

I know the people whom these 'dedications' go to probably won't see this, but it doesn't matter right la. InsyaAllah if I get the chance, I would thank personally =)

Do unto others what you want others do unto you~
Love for your brothers (and sisters) in Islam what you love for yourself...

I wonder how people can pester and/or tegur others. I find it hard to do.

I'm loving the songs on my blog.

Memang padanlah aku tak habis2 keje aku, tak habis2 blog! Lol, gotta go, before I get pestered.

I'm being pretty random here, I know. Saje nak luahkan hati...

In need of a pensieve before my hair turns grey like Dumbledore lol. No larh, jk.

Was browsing through my blog archives for an article I'd posted a long time ago and came across Mar 2006. I realise I hadn't changed much. Currently I'm feeling just like how I felt then, though for different reasons... And those motivational story, funny joke, unbelievable experiences... more or less help.

Btw, I went for a free neck massage just now. Just 10mins but best~ Hehe.

Oh, let me post what I was actually looking for... It's related to yesterday's usrah topic that's why:

Top 10 Beauty Tips - Apply to the Male Gender As Well (e-mail)

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Try 'Smiles'; A simple formula guaranteed to beautify any face instantly.

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Use 'Speak Words of Truth and Kindness'; as this mouthwash never allows
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Can be achieved by Looking for The Good . This product also has a positive
effect on the heart. Tip: Lowering
your gaze when required also helps!

4. LOSE WEIGHT:
by Repenting and making Taubah Both these load shifters will reduce stress
and leave you feeling
considerably lighter.

5. FOR THE SOFTEST SKIN:
Can be achieved by 'Tears'used alongside 'Prayer', particularly late at
night; it will leave you glowing and
feeling relaxed. Use a wonderul cream called "Noor"

6.FOR THE BEST LOOKING HANDS
Give donations and charity.

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by contacting the 'Forgive Yourself and Others', and 'Counting Your
Blessings', Health Spas. No need to
travel, just give them a call and they'll treat you wherever you are.
Their holistic treatments have a whole host of
additional health benefits including stress busting.

8. FOR A BETTER POSTURE:
Strengthen and straighten your back by using 'Help Carry Another's
Burden'; You'll be surprised by how easy
and natural it is to use.

9. FOR PERFECT POISE:
Use 'Knowledge and Wisdom'; This excellent product will do wonders for
your self esteem and confidence, and will even boost your body's defences.

10. FINALLY, TO DRESS THE BEAUTIFUL YOU:
Find the ultimate outfit in, 'Taqwa', This robe perfectly fits yet allows
room
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Here's to a more beautiful you!!!

O Allah, O Sufficer of the isolated and weak and Protector against
terrifying affairs! Offenses have isolated me, so there is none to be my
companion. I am too weak for Thy wrath and there is none to strengthen me.
I have approached the terror of meeting Thee and there is none to still my
fear. I beg for Your Mercy! Ameen

Apr 2006 was a great month for me, had some motivational stories posted up there. Unfortunately they don't appear on my labels and I didn't have those using my previous blog account.

I'm so excited to donate blood tomorrow! Wee~

Sampai mimpi2 skali seh. Haha, not scary nightmares don't worry. But it was weird, cos I woke up this morning and found a mark on my left arm as if I had been poked with the needle already uh oh.

The first time I wanted to donate blood was sometime last year or early this year when ASc organised a blood donation drive. I went on the last day quite late in the afternoon. I was one of the last few people to sign up. Unfortunately, I was having a slight flu that day, and eventhough it was nothing, they were strict with the procedures and I didn't get further than Station 2/3.

But I'd gone to draw blood before, twice. Just about a small tube full only instead of 300ml though... The first time was at CGH. I think I didn't have a good breakfast. I didn't know I had to draw blood that day so I didn't observe any rules. That time, when I went home, I felt weak, especially at my arms.

The second time was before Hep B jab to check for reactivity. That was a BREEZE! No pain at all, except a bit ah. Though the nurse couldn't find my vein and had to have the doctor do it. Haha, the nurse poked and not a single bit of blood came out. She tried finding the pulse again but can't find (Ad recorded all this with her new cam). So in the end, I been poked in both arms instead of one. Ok arh tu. I think I was a bit scared and it was really cold (plus memang I've got lotsa babats lol) so it was hard to find the vein la. Hope it wouldn't be as hard tomorrow.

So excited larh!

But I didn't exactly follow the directions, opps. I just kept to my normal eating/drinking habits je. InsyaALlah takde pape la.

Okaes! Don't wish to skip my dinner. (Yum yum, there's my mum's begedil - maybe that's why me so degil eh?)

Oh and I have a CSAS presentation to prepare for as well. And I haven't start! Uh oh!

Kalimatan habibatan ila ar-Rahman
Khafifatan `ala al-lisan, thaqilatan fi al-mizan
Subhanallahi wa bi hamdih, subhanallahi al-azim

Lyrics taken from iLuvislam

Ilaahi lastu lilfirdausi ahlan
walaa aqwaa 'alannaaril jahimi
fahabli taubatan waghfir dzunuubi
fa innaka ghoofiruddzambil 'adziimi

(Tuhanku aku tidak layak
untuk syurgaMu
tetapi aku tidak pula
sanggup menanggung
seksa nerakaMu,
dari itu kurniakanlah
ampunan kepadaku,
ampunkanlah dosaku,
sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun
dosa-dosa besar........)

Wanna hear th song? It's no. 2 on my taubat playlist
Dzunuubi mitslu a'daadir rimaali
fahablii taubatan yaa dzaljalaali
wa'umrii naaqishun fiikulliyaumi
wa dzambii zaa-idum kaifahtimali

Ilaahi 'abdukal 'aashi ataaka
muqirron biddzunuubi waqod da'aaka
fa in taghfir fa anta lidzaaka ahlun
wa in tadrud faman narjuu siwaaka

All Praise is for Allah, and peace and blessings of Allah be upon His beloved Messenger Muhammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam.

We are grateful to Allah subhana wa ta'ala for giving us the opportunity to sit in His remembrance. For truly it is a great favour indeed that despite all worldly distractions He has brought us to His House (mosque). Then sat us in His dhikr. And by sitting in His dhikr Allah subhana wa ta'ala helps us to get closer to Him and for every Muslim the true goal in life is to attain the pleasure of Allah subhana wa ta'ala.

Apart from that we all have a common interest, that we would all like to love Allah subhana wa ta'ala and we ourselves would like to be loved by our Lord Most High.

Now is it not strange that a person has a certain desire or goal in life but doesn't make any effort to achieve it?

Surely it is a basic rule in this world that when a person has a particular interest or hobby, he does not waste any time. He spends most of his time in an activity that will help him achieve his goal. For example if a person wants to be good at a particular sport, he would play that sport very regularly and often spend a lot of money and time on trying to achieve his objective.

So truly if our objective in life is to be loved by Allah, and we also know that this can happen through doing His dhikr in abundance, then why is it that we not make ourselves busy in His remembrance?

The formula for achieving this is straightforward, Allah subhana wa ta'ala has stated in the Qur'an 'Fadhkurooni adhkurkum'(Remember Me and I will remember you). It is stated in a Hadeeth that Allah remembers His servant as soon as he remembers Allah..

Subhanallah, can you imagine the Lord Most High, The creator of the Heavens and the Earth remembering you? Indeed that is great thing. And this method for achieving our objective is so easy that it almost defies belief.

In a Hadeeth transmitted by Bukhari it is stated that Abu Hurayrah radhiallah anhu narrated that Allah's Messenger sallallahu alayhi wa sallam said "Allah Almighty says, 'I am towards My servant as he is towards Me. I am with him when he remembers Me.. If he remembers Me alone, I remember him alone. If he remembers Me in a gathering, I remember him in a gathering better than it."





Compiled from various sources.

Permission is granted to circulate among private individuals and groups, to post on Internet sites and to publish in full text and subject titlein not-for-profit publications.

Note that an English translation of the Qur'an is an interpretation of the Qur'an, and does not have the perfect status as the Qur'an in its original Arabic form..

KECANTIKAN WANITA

Untuk membentuk bibir yang menawan, ucapkanlah kata-kata kebaikan. Untuk mendapatkan mata yang indah, carilah kebaikan pada setiap orang yang anda jumpai. untuk mendapatkan bentuk badan yang langsing, bagikanlah makanan dengan mereka yang kelaparan. Untuk mendapatkan rambut yang indah, mintalah seorang anak kecil untuk menyisirnya dengan jemarinya setiap hari. Untuk mendapatkan sikap tubuh yang indah, berjalanlah dengan segala ilmu pengetahuan, dan anda tidak akan pernah berjalan sendirian.

Manusia, jauh melebihi segala ciptaan lain. Perlu senantiasa berubah, diperbaharui, dibentuk kembali, dan diampuni. Jadi, jangan pernah kecilkan seseorang dari hati anda. Apabila anda sudah melakukan semuanya itu, ingatlah senantiasa. Jika suatu ketika anda memerlukan pertolongan, akan senantiasa ada tangan terulur. Dan dengan bertambahnya usia anda, anda akan semakin mensyukuri telah diberi dua tangan, satu untuk menolong diri anda sendiri dan satu lagi untuk menolong orang lain.
Kecantikan wanita bukan terletak pada pakaian yang dikenakan, bukan pada bentuk tubuh, atau cara dia menyisir rambutnya. Kecantikan wanita terdapat pada mata, cara dia memandang dunia. Karena di matanya terletak gerbang menuju ke setiap hati manusia, di mana cinta dapat berkembang.

Kecantikan wanita bukan pada kehalusan wajah. Tetapi pada kecantikan yang murni, terpancar pada jiwanya, yang dengan penuh kasih memberikan perhatian dan cinta dia berikan. Dan kecantikan itu akan tumbuh sepanjang waktu.
http://www.van.9f.com/kecantikan_wanita.htm


Wanita solehah itu aurat dijaga,
Pergaulan dipagari,
Sifat malu pengikat diri,
Seindah hiasan di dunia ini.

Keayuan wanita solehah itu, tidak terletak pada kecantikan wajahnya,
Kemanisan wanita solehah, tidak terletak pada kemanjaannya,
Daya penarik wanita solehah itu,
Bukan pada kemanisan bicaranya yang mengoncang iman para muslimin,
Dan bukan pula terletak pada kebijaksanaannya bermain lidah, memujuk rayu,
Bukan dan tidak sama sekali.

Kepetahan wanita solehah,
Bukan pada barang kemas atau perihal orang lain,
Tapi pada perjuangannya meningkatkan martabat agama.

Nafsu mengatakan wanita cantik dengan paras rupa yang indah bak permata yang menyeri alam,
Akal mengatakan wanita cantik atas kemajuan dan kekebalannya dalam ilmu serta pandai dari segala aspek ,
Hati menyatakan kecantikan wanita hanya pada akhlaknya,
Itupun seandainya hati itu bersih untuk menilai.

Wahai wanita jangan dibangga dengan kecantikan luaran,
Kerna satu hari nanti ianya akan lapuk di telan zaman,
Tetapi jaga dan peliharalah kecantikan dalaman ,
Agar diri ini bersih dan sentiasa mendapat Rahmat Ilahi,
Wahai wanita jangan berbangga dengan ilmu duniawi yang kau kuasai ,
Kerna ada lagi manusia yang lebih berpengetahuan darimu ,
Wahai wanita jangan pula berdukacita atas kekurangan dirimu,
Kerna ada lagi insan yang lebih malang darimu.

Wahai wanita solehah jangan dirisau akan jodohmu,
Kerana muslimin yang bijaksana itu tidak akan terpaut pada wanita hanya kerana kecantikannya ,
Bersyukurlah diatas apa yang ada,
Serta berusaha demi keluarga, bangsa dan agama
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As usual, there are tonnes to talk about cos there are lotsa stuff going on in my mind and I like to speak my mind on my blog (tetap ada batas2nya though of course). If not on my blog, I feel very reluctant to open up. Partly because the trust is still not there. Or even if the trust is already there (boleh rasa lah eh), perhaps I feel I'm not given the opportunity to express or, like, I don't see the need to let people hear me babble on. I can be quite a long-winded granny sometimes I realise (tengoklah my blog entries are mostly loooooooooong) and why make others suffer? Especially those whom I know respect other people and wouldn't interrupt (and tetap sabar) eventhough dah super-di-duper bored with what I'm talking about. Hehe, so jangan salah sangka, bukan taknak open up. Macam kekadang orang tanya, "Amacam", and I just keep quiet or jawab "Ok ah" je kan...

Especially if I'm in those down moments, I tend to be quieter cos I'm actually thinking/reflecting on alot of things. My steps will be slower and thinking process will follow suit.

Sorry ye if anyone got irritated with me today and yesterday if any. But yesterday, mostly I was still trying to keep up with the pace of the marathon. Today then felt the tiredness and exhaustion seep into the very bones.

Acrually dah very the ngantok dah ni, but I feel macam banyak benda nak buat, risau kalau2 tak dapat complete the race.

Some events coming up for me;
Tmr: Titisan (I still remember you guys insyaAllah.)
Sun: Blood donation at 10am + Madrasah at 2pm (that's why I can't be with you guys!)
Next Mon: Meet Mr Kok (and maybe Ms Yiab also, or if not, on Tues then)
Next Tues: Camp Xplore meeting (every Tuesday larh)
Next Wed: CSAS4 ppt + hand in draft cover letter & resume + Titisan
Next Thurs: D'Talk2 Prog?
Next Fri: NI lepak session?
onwards I have stuff/events that have yet to be confirmed except...
17th May: Night Cycling Appreciation
31st May: Cakap Pasal Remaja
11tth-12th June: Camp Xplore
13th-16th June: Kem Remaja Cemerlang! (really reeally looking forward to it)
20th-22nd June: D'Talk2 (lub dup lub dup)
23rd June: Clean rabbit/mice cage for LAST

Birthdays coming up...
Yesterday (2nd May): Bro Mohksin
11th May: Fathi
13th June: Kak Dessy & Bro Asrul
17th June: Sape ehk?

Grr, my brother go and disconnect the internet! The rest of my post is gone, penat lah!