Anisah and me at the registration table. See my butterfly brooch? Nice right? Present for my madrasah results woo hoo!

The registration table, seriously I didn't realize behind us were wrapped gifts. Should have broken into the glass and taken one huh?

Fityan Ghufran! Penggerak masyarakat Islam pada masa akan datang, insyaAllah...

Fatayaats on stage during Tathmin Mibarrat. I think Kak Nor has the cutest pose lol.

Golden Pan! (Psst, it's actually a name of a drink haha) This was taken before we went on the treetop. Everyone was shagged man...

At the treetop with everyone in the pic. I love this pic, the background is just so nice. It's like too good to be true. We look like in the middle of some forest huh?

On our way back to the meeting point. Sempat eh, but nice view. Dun ask what I was doing haha. Dah penat kena pose gitu lah jadinyer

Hazwani from NYPMSN and me. Sweet eh her smile :D

Hujan... Alhamdulillah kita kat penghujung rancangan, eh salah: event, baru hujan. Ni budak2 orchestra kat bawah tu lah ni. Asal dorang main je hujan, asal hujan je dorang main haha.

Pengembara sisters kita

NiTREK @ MacRitchie Reservoir with NI and NYPMSN

Some of the people in my group. Masa ni my shoes were off, seluar jeans aku yang terlalu panjang setengah basah haha. Ni lah main game kat tepi laut, tsk tsk. Takpelah, orangnye pon dah mintak maap.

Gelagat sisters kita yang mempunyai otak2 bergeliga haha

Sisters Powerrr in black

Ni lah gambar2 Fityan Power terlepas ni hehe.

I'm wondering if getting a tetanus infection is just as painful as getting the jab ish.

The jab it self was super painful. Tried my best to laugh it off and bear with it. Left Raffles clinic all ok ar manageable.

But when I peeled off the plaster at home, it stings and stings and hasn't stopped. Owwwww! The whole day today I was so moody. This is wrong. That is wrong. Everything seems to piss me off. And it's not great being pissed off with everything under the sun ok...

Anyway, touched the injected area just now. It's hard. Like there's a round metal piece underneath my skin around the wound. And the stinging can even give me headaches...

Initially I thought like maybe a bit of the needle broke off or something, but Ad says she feel the same, so it should be perfectly normal. Right? Haha, I hope so..

There's soooo much to blog about! But I haven't even edited the previous post which I didn't complete. I don't think I'd even complete it... Sounds pointless no\w. Like whatever la...

Let's rewind abit aite...

Saturday - I know I missed the flying kite
Sunday - NiRREK, zonk out
Monday - AMic lab, Pycho proj, errands, zonk out
Tuesday - spent the whole day doing AMic Background Info
Wednesday - Only to realise I forgot to save half of it so had to do the whole thing again afterwhich attended NI meeting and ate at KFC
Thursday - went to take the tetanus jab & blood screen then attended NI usrah
Friday - AMic lab, photocopied some stuff, looked for tudung, sleeeeeeeeeep, then on comp
Saturday - do some psycho, attend Ghufran event and then gonna watch Wayang Betulllah with Naza
Sunday - wrap up everything before school starts!

I have a long list of things-to-do and I'm getting nowhere to finishing it. And 2008 is already around the corner!!

Just sharing a song shared by my frenz...

Ku Merintih, Aku Menangis,
Ku Meratap, Aku Mengharap,
Ku Meminta Dihidupkan Semula,
Agar Dapat Kembali Ke Dunia Nyata,

Perjalanan Rohku,
Melengkapi Sebuah Kembara,
Singgah Di Rahim Bonda,
Sebelum Menjejak Ke Dunia,
Menanti Di Barzakh,
Sebelum Berangkat Ke Mahsyar,
Diperhitung Amalan,
Penentu Syurga Atau Sebaliknya,

Tanah Yang Basah Berwarna Merah,
Semerah Mawar Dan Jugak Rindu,
7 Langkah Pun Baru Berlalu,
Susai Talkin Penanda Syahdu,
Tenang Dan Damai Di Pusaraku,
Nisan Batu Menjadi Tugu,
Namun Tak Siapa Pun Tahu Resah Penantianku,

Terbangkitnya Aku Dari Sebuah Kematian,
Seakan Ku Dengari,
Tangis Mereka Yang Ku Tinggalkan,
Kehidupan Disini Bukan Suatu Khayalan x2
Tetapi Ia Sebenar Kejadian x2

Kembali Oh Kembli,
Kembalilah Kedalam Diri,
Sendirian Sendiri,
Sendiri Bertemankan Sepi,
Hanya Kain Putih Yang Membaluti Tubuhku,
Terbujur Dan Kaku,
Jasad Didalam Keranda Kayu,

Ajal Yang Datang Dibuka Pintu ,
Tiada Siapa Yang Memberi Tahu,
Tiada Siapa Pun Dapat Hindari,
Tiada Siapa Yang Terkecuali,
Lemah Jemari Nafas Terhenti,
Tidak Tergambar Sakitnya Mati,
Cukup sekali Jasadku Untuk Mengulangi,

Jantung Berdenyut Kencang,
Menantikan Malaikat Datang,
Mengigil Ketakutan Gelap Pekat Dipandangan,
Selama Ini Diceritakan x2
Kini Aku Merasakan x2
Dialam Barzakh Jasad Dikebumikan x2

Ku Merintih, Aku Menangis,
Ku Meratap, Aku Mengharap,
Ku Meminta Dihidupkan Semula,
Agar Dapat Kembali Ke Dunia Nyata,

I'm so damn freaking pissed off lah ok! really test my limits. Hilang kesabaran betul! Wanna who I lost patience with? Myself...

Ok, Lee Phin asked Shahirah and me to redo the background info for Amic. I was slightly pissed off, but okok fine so we need to show Mr Loh something new rather than just an edited copy of the proposal.

The thing was I have Fri night till Mon midnight to complete it. My topic was: Antibiotics.

To be continued...

Ya Allah, terimalah taubatku ini...




Andai Ku Tahu by Ungu

Andai kutahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan tolong panjangkan umuruku

Andai kutahu
Kapan tiba masaku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan jangan Kau ambil nyawaku

Aku takut
Akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut
Dosa yang terus membayangiku

Andai kutahu
MalaikatMukan menjemputku
Izinkan aku
Mengucapkan kata tobat padaMu

Aku takut
Akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut
Dosa yang terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku
Dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku
Menangisku bertobat padamu

Aku manusia
Yang takut neraka
Namun aku juga
Tak pantas di syurga

Andai kutahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ampuni aku
Menangisku bertobat padamu

Aku takut
Akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut
Dosa yang terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku
Dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku
Menangisku bertobat padamu

Taubat Seorang Hamba by Irsyadee Feat. Hafiz

hati hiba mengenangkan
dosa2 yg ku lakukan
oh tuhan maha kuasa
terima taubat hamba berdosa

ku akui kelemahan diri
ku insafi kekurangan ini
ku kesali kejahilan ini
terimalah...terimalah..terimalah...taubatku ini

telah aku merasakan derita jiwa dan perasaan
kerana hilang dari jalan menuju redhamu ya tuhan...

haaaaa......

ku akui kelemahan diri
ku insafi kekurangan ini
ku kesali kejahilan ini
terimalah...terimalah..terimalah...taubatku ini

di hamparan ini ku meminta moga taubatku diterima...

ku akui kelemahan diri
ku insafi kekurangan ini
ku kesali kejahilan ini
terimalah...terimalah..terimalah...taubatku ini (2x)

Doa Taubat by Madrasah Aljunied

Tuhanku aku tidak layak
untuk syurgaMu
tetapi aku tidak pula
sanggup menanggung
siksa nerakaMu,
dari itu kurniakanlah
keampunan kepadaku,
ampunkanlah dosaku,
sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun
dosa-dosa besar........

[بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَـنِ الرَّحِيمِ ]

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

[قَدْ أَفْلَحَ الْمُؤْمِنُونَ - الَّذِينَ هُمْ فِى صَلاَتِهِمْ خَـشِعُونَ - وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ عَنِ اللَّغْوِ مُّعْرِضُونَ - وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ لِلزَّكَـوةِ فَـعِلُونَ - وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ لِفُرُوجِهِمْ حَـفِظُونَ - إِلاَّ عَلَى أَزْوَجِهِمْ أَوْ مَا مَلَكَتْ أَيْمَـنُهُمْ فَإِنَّهُمْ غَيْرُ مَلُومِينَ - فَمَنِ ابْتَغَى وَرَآءَ ذلِكَ فَأُوْلَـئِكَ هُمُ الْعَادُونَ - وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ لاًّمَـنَـتِهِمْ وَعَهْدِهِمْ رَعُونَ ]

وَالَّذِينَ هُمْ عَلَى صَلَوتِهِمْ يُحَـفِظُونَ- أُوْلَـئِكَ هُمُ الْورِثُونَ- الَّذِينَ يَرِثُونَ الْفِرْدَوْسَ هُمْ فِيهَا خَـلِدُونَ-]

(1. Successful indeed are the believers.) (2. Those who with their Salah are Khashi`un.) (3. And those who turn away from Al-Laghw.) (4. And those who pay the Zakah.) (5. And those who guard their private parts.) (6. Except from their wives or their right hand possessions, for then, they are free from blame.) (7. But whoever seeks beyond that, then those are the transgressors.) (8. Those who are faithfully true to their Amanat and to their covenants are Ra`un.) (9. And those who strictly guard their Salawat.) (10. These are indeed the heirs. ) (11. Who shall inherit Firdaws. They shall dwell therein forever.)

[1]
Sesungguhnya berjayalah orang-orang yang beriman,
[2]
Iaitu mereka yang khusyuk dalam sembahyangnya;
[3]
Dan mereka yang menjauhkan diri dari perbuatan dan perkataan yang sia-sia;
[4]
Dan mereka yang berusaha membersihkan hartanya (dengan menunaikan zakat harta itu);
[5]
Dan mereka yang menjaga kehormatannya, -
[6]
Kecuali kepada isterinya atau hamba sahayanya maka sesungguhnya mereka tidak tercela: -
[7]
Kemudian, sesiapa yang mengingini selain dari yang demikian, maka merekalah orang-orang yang melampaui batas;
[8]
Dan mereka yang menjaga amanah dan janjinya;
[9]
Dan mereka yang tetap memelihara sembahyangnya;
[10]
Mereka itulah orang-orang yang berhak mewarisi -
[11]
Yang akan mewarisi Syurga Firdaus; mereka kekal di dalamnya.

For further explanations, visit this site.

Finally managed to upload photos from my cam. Woo hoo! Finally I have Bluetooth! So pathetic right.. So looooong then get bluetooth haha.

Hari Raya Korban '07. That's me, Huda & Huda! Haha, I'm not kidding.


Juz as the saying goes, there's a child deep down in all of us!

Winnie!!

Classic.. The Disney Princesses, in my opinion, is the best work Disney has put up.


Satu kiblat menyatukan semua umat Islam. =)

Hehe, more Disney! Btw, I did that bracelet. Nice eh?


Took this while waiting for my grandma to enter the gate. Wish I could go with her... I so wanna take a plane. And definitely I even more so wanna visit Mekah and Madinah!


On the bus with Si Hui and Siti on our way home from 4R class chalet. Siti wanted to stay longer but I dragged her home lol. Well, I had MBio on the next day la dey!

Everyone who came to the class chalet. Not all, but still quite a handful there! Missed them sooo much! How I wish everyone had come. Oh btw, Joel looks different oOoOohhh... Hahaz

Who else if not Siti and me! Similar smiles don't you think?


Clockwise from left: Siti, me, Val, Marcus, Kenneth, Shermaine and Emily (in front)


That's my black cat btw. Malice the malicious!
Ad, Jamie and me in school after AMic paper if I'm not mistaken. Wait till I upload the videos hehe.





Macam emas maner haha! It's actually my mum's set of orange brooches. Oh yeah, she has loooaads of brooches. I think my collection only covers her set of blue brooches, which is her least I think.


And that's my mum! She was trying to hide behind me to look smaller lol.






First trying out my hp cam functions. This is negative.


And this is sepia. Love this.
Aaah... The tranquil...


THE END. Opps, I think I did some mistakes with the captions n positions of the pics. Shall edit another day larh haha. I'm sleeeeeeepy....

Just wanna share a video made by NYPMSN about Eid Adha.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIBgiLF-MVE

Juz sharing an e-mail I received...

Kenapa Aku Diuji ?

"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
- Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3


Kenapa Aku Tak Dapat Apa Yg Aku Idam-Idamkan ?

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216


Kenapa Ujian Seberat Ini ?

"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286


Rasa Frust ?

"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."
- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139


Bagaimana Harus Aku Menghadapinya ?

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah- daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
- Surah Al-Imran ayat 200

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45


Apa Yang Aku Dapat Drpd Semua Ini ?

"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ..
- Surah At-Taubah ayat 111


Kepada Siapa Aku Berharap ?

"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."
- Surah At-Taubah ayat 129


Aku Tak Tahan !

"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir."
- Surah Yusuf ayat 87



Bukankah alQuran itu sesuai di semua zaman dan tempat, dalam apa jua keadaan?

Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihe wasallam) said: 'When a man dies and his relatives are busy in funeral, there stands an extremely handsome man by his head. When the dead body is shrouded, that man gets in between the shroud and the chest of the deceased.





When after the burial, the people return home, 2 angels, Munkar and Nakeer(names of two special Angels), come in the grave and try to separate this handsome man so that they may be able to interrogate the dead man in privacy about his faith. But the handsome man says, 'He is my companion, he is my friend. I will not leave him alone in any case. If you are appointed for interrogation, do your job. I cannot leave him until I get him admitted into Paradise '.





Thereafter he turns to his dead companion and says, 'I am the Qur'an, which you used to read, sometimes in a loud voice and sometimes in a low voice. Do not worry. After the interrogation of Munkar and Naker, you will have no grief.'





When the interrogation is over, the handsome man arranges for him from Al-Mala'ul A'laa (the angels in Heaven) silk bedding filled with musk.





Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihe wasallam) said: 'On the Day of Judgement, before Allah, no other Intercessor will have a greater status than the Qur'an, neither a Prophet nor an angel.'

I've changed. To me it's gradual. To my friends whom I've not met for quite sometime, it's drastic.

It's true what one goes through shapes what a person is like. Whether a person is good or bad, is one way or another influenced by people and the surrounding around him/her.

I still wonder whether this change that I'm experiencing is for better or for worse. For now, it seems a bit of a mix. I dunno. I'm still at this stage of trying to discover myself.

It's nearing the end of this year. And since term tests ended, I'm on a 'reflection' mode. What have I done this year??

I think the changes started one fine week last December. KRC4 taught me a lot of things and slowly, I begin to change, for the better.

However, as time goes by, I start to experiment on things. And I got busy with responsibilities entasked to me. And I keep on changing, this time round it's a mixture of good and bad. From what I see, I'm having some problems trying to filter out the bad. Looks like I have to change the pore size of this filter.

It is often than not, easier said than done. Change for the worse is easy. Change for the better require a lot of will-power and courage and encouragement. (Juz noticed how close 'courage' is to 'encouragement').

June was a challenging time. there was a lot of decisions to be made. Some of which, I made wrongly and I suffered the side effects. The correct ones kept me going. But for most of the time, I was confused.

It hasn't been easy. I believe there's something behind all of it. I've yet to see it.

I have two weeks. Two weeks till 2007 leaves us behind, never to come back again. Two weeks to change to someone better. To brace myself for what comes knocking on my door next year. (I remember what Mr Tan used to say, "Are you ready for the opportunity when it comes knocking on your door?" My 19th year standing on Allah's land. 'Mardhatillah'... is what I'm looking for. What will 2008 hold for me? Will I survive 2008? Before that, wil I survive for these last two weeks of 2007? Is two weeks enough? HOW do I change?

No wonder I'd been getting a headache lately...

Finally end of term tests!!! Practically every min I think of what I wanna blog about. Wellz... And now when I'm on, I dunno what to blog about haha.

Been exploring facebook. Interesting, but waste of time haha. Anyway, let's see what I didd this week shall we?

Last Sat: Fityan Power camp in the morn at ECP. Zonked out at home.
Last Sun: went Expo. Visited NI booth. Had a fun time shopping! Rushed to get ABchm ppt slides from other groups and searched for AMic Malaria useful links.
Mon: ABchm ppr in the morn, AMic in the aftn, slacked after that.
Tues: Slack. Studied at library with Ad and Jamie. Went Ghufran for awhile. Went to 4R class chalet. OoOoooo...
Wed: Met Ad in school to study MBio.
Thurs: MBio ppr. Take madrasah record book. Celebrate at haig road. (I'll be getting my Swensen banana split sometime soon!) Slacked, couldn't concentrate.
Fri: MCT ppr. Celebrated at KFC. Spicy fries yum yum! Psycho short project meet. OSH talk. Usrah. Slack...

I'll be going Malaysia tomorrow. Day trip only la... Hoping to shop somemore hehehe. Korban taklimat at Ghufran on Sun morn. Hoping to eat Swensen after that! Or at least get my spicy fries! BY MON: Amic background info yawn. Mon-Fri: Amic proj + Psycho proj boo hoo... Tues night: meeting at Ghufran. Wed: Hari Raya Haji! Gonna help out at Ghufran.

Actually there's a lot of things going through my head. After usrah, I was practically talking to myself out loud while walking home ish. Entahlah, too tired to share... Nytez!

The ties that break what is before forbidden...

Kak Azlin











Ustaz Ahmad and Kak Nor





Semoga pertalian yang terjalin kekal selama-lamanya. Amin.

I'm on hiatus. Term test week!! Pls dun bother me if you have nothing impt. Pray for me!

Some pics to do the talking for Fityan Power closing camp for 2007, Fri & Sat, 7 & 8 Dec 07. Enjoy!















"You shall hold fast to the rope of GOD, all of you, and do not be divided. Recall GOD's blessings upon you - you used to be enemies and He reconciled your hearts. By His grace, you became brethren. You were at the brink of a pit of fire, and He saved you therefrom. GOD thus explains His revelations for you, that you may be guided." [3:103]

“Dan berpegang teguhlah kamu sekalian kepada tali Allah (agama Islam), dan janganlah kamu bercerai-berai; dan kenanglah nikmat Allah kepada kamu ketika kamu bermusuh-musuhan (semasa jahiliyah dahulu), lalu Allah menyatukan di antara hati kamu (sehingga kamu bersatu-padu dengan nikmat Islam), maka menjadilah kamu dengan nikmat Allah itu orang-orang Islam yang bersaudara. dan kamu dahulu telah berada di tepi jurang neraka (disebabkan kekufuran kamu semasa jahiliyah), lalu Allah selamatkan kamu dari neraka itu (disebabkan nikmat Islam juga). Demikianlah Allah menjelaskan kepada kamu ayat-ayatNya, supaya kamu mendapat petunjuk hidayahNya.” [3:103]