Hmm, been a few days since I last blogged huh? On hiatus sikit uh. Bukannya ape... been reflecting a lot lately and lately I feel kalau tak jot down my reflections macam wasted buttt... I can't share here lah.

There's a lot to say but ngah very ngantok sekarang. Like seriously pedih mata sehh.

Anyway, need to be in sch at 7.45am sharp tmr to go for bio symposium at NYP. Ad and I are so gonna cam-whore right Ad? Hehe. don't forget your cam!! Eh, NYP nye musollah kat mane ehk?

I think I'll be ceasing blogging-activity for some time. Just share sharings if I have any, tu je kott... Busy ah. Haha, chewahh busy ke perr Marl?

Kk dah, takble tahan, chaloz

Sajak - Guru Oh Guru

BERBURU ke padang datar
Dapat rusa belang kaki
Berguru kepala ajar
Ibarat bunga kembang tak jadi


Dialah pemberi paling setia
Tiap akar ilmu miliknya
Pelita dan lampu segala
Untuk manusia sebelum jadi dewasa.

Dialah ibu dialah bapa juga sahabat
Alur kesetiaan mengalirkan nasihat
Pemimpin yang ditauliahkan segala umat
Seribu tahun katanya menjadi hikmat.

Jika hari ini seorang Perdana Menteri berkuasa
Jika hari ini seorang Raja menaiki takhta
Jika hari ini seorang Presiden sebuah negara
Jika hari ini seorang ulama yang mulia
Jika hari ini seorang peguam menang bicara
Jika hari ini seorang penulis terkemuka
Jika hari ini siapa sahaja menjadi dewasa;
Sejarahnya dimulakan oleh seorang guru biasa
Dengan lembut sabarnya mengajar tulis-baca.

Di mana-mana dia berdiri di muka muridnya
Di sebuah sekolah mewah di Ibu Kota
Di bangunan tua sekolah Hulu Terengganu
Dia adalah guru mewakili seribu buku;

Semakin terpencil duduknya di ceruk desa
Semakin bererti tugasnya kepada negara.
Jadilah apa pun pada akhir kehidupanmu, guruku
Budi yang diapungkan di dulangi ilmu
Panggilan keramat "cikgu" kekal terpahat
Menjadi kenangan ke akhir hayat.

USMAN AWANG
1979
From http://adib.typepad.com/blog/2006/03/where_are_youte.html



Lilin Seorang Guru
Album : Impian Kasih
Munsyid : In-Team
http://liriknasyid.com

Pernah langkah ku payah
Menuju ke destinasi
Kerana malam gelap
Dan bintang hilang kerdipnya
Menjadikan arah ku keliru
Ke timur atau ke barat

Bagai lilin membakar diri
Menerangi kegelapan hati
Kau curahkan bakti dan budi
Jasamu tiada berganti

Namun tanpa rasa payah
Dia memimpin tanganku
Melangkah satu persatu
Dan mencipta jejak impian
Menjadikan arahku jelas
Aku harus ke hadapan

Ohoo… aku kini rindu
Pada satu nama yang berjasa
Tuhan, beri kekuatan
Untuk mendidikku selamanya
Ku pohon restu kasih-Mu
Ampunkanlah guru-guruku

Semalam ku lihat dia
Di bibirnya ada kalimah
Yang bergetar saban waktu
Sambil tangan menggenggam lilin
Lilin yang tiada terpadam
Menerangi hidupku kini

There are really some good videos at youtube about guru. Do check them out when you're free :)

Actually I'm very the extra the super the tired... but I MUST post this. I'm free from TE and BPT projects woohoo~

Takdelah good news mane pon, risau jugak pasal peer evaluation nanti...

But I just had to treat myself. After handing in the projects, I went to ITAS to buy bbq chicken pau, chicken pie and cheese croqutte. and on the way home, I bought Trophy ice-cream (!!!!!), Twisties and bread (for cats, but apparently I saw none except Tiger but I think Tiger was already full).

Oh, I forgot to eat the pau.

I'm so happy and excited and invigorated actually, but there's just some hours of sleep I owe myself (especially my eyes, I feel like a pale panda with super blue black eye rings/bags) so let's save all the happy feeling tmr aite aite?

Good night!

Trophy was... oOOo deliciooooouuuuusssss, yummeh!

To Titisan (and Nadi), sry can't go watch PPP today :( all the best yawh!!!

Aww, I wanna go watch that can?
Read movie review here.

Anyway, pic of a dog we saw outsie TAF last Friday before LAST lab. Cute right?


More dog pics here.

Pesta Peti Putih (PPP) a.k.a White Box Festival

Come down and support Temasek Polytechnic in this year's Youth Malay Theatre Festival [competition] initiated by local theatre company, Teater Ekamatra.






Title: Apostasi - Peralihan Kepercayaan

Venue: Republic Polytechnic, The Republic Cultural Center (TRCC)

Day/Date: Friday, 25th July 2008

Time: 8.00PM - 10.00PM

Ticket price: S$12

Limited Seats of 400 only.
Free Seating.

Purchase through GateCrash or nearest SAM machine.

Groups of 10 or more enjoy a 20% BULK discount.
Call HOTLINE 6100 2005 to buy now!

If you are interested to watch the other school's performances, here are the dates:


24th July (Thursday) : NUS/DSL
25th July (Friday) : PJC, TP
26th July (Saturday) : JJC, RP

Does anyone wanna go with me? I need 9 more people :D

P.S. Needing to blog BADLY but BADLY suffocating under tasks.

Ape bahasa inii?? Hahah, english been very the rabak lately, opps~

Qiyam postponed wekk.

Meaning... I MAY be able to see Titisan at PPP. Hmm...

Wurble!

Haha, don't ask where that came from or what it means, cause I have absolutely no idea. Wurble. Wurble. Wurble. Stop it seh Marl...

Hadn't blogged about my life's happenings since last Wednesday. Well, not much to talk about...

Well, been thinking about where I should head next alot lately. Padahal lagi many months jugak eh sebelum ble graduate, insyaAllah graduate in April! Sebab there was this frther studies talk on Wed and Fri so terpikir la kan... Also I've been visualizing how SIP would be like, and trying to prepare myself for it by *ahem* paying a lil bit more attention especially during RTecB practical (though I reached like 40 minutes late!!! Opps~ Almost said I love Dr Chang lol. Nah that sounds SOOO wrong. Takde, I'm soooo glad it's Dr Chang, selamat aku. Kalau tak, hah dah sampai dah tu warning letter, which would be my first. NO WAYYY!)

Hmm... I think kan... I'm sticking to Sciences. Unless I have no choice... Tu nanti ble pikir, but I guess I'll take things I'm more or less familiar with kalau takde Science, maybe Psycho or Socio or perhaps Teaching (Science). Very low chance you'll see me in Business or Design or Engineering next year. I can't do them for nuts. Siang-siang I already cancel out SIM and SMU cos they're business schools!

Tapikan... To think of it, I never thought I'd be where I am now!! Sec school aku kutuk seh Biotech cos kan... psst, my Bio teacher took Biotech and I don't exactly like her uh oh. So, kemungkinan la kan I end up somewhere I never thought I'd be. Though hope la kan, ble masuk Science... Yang kena mengena ngan Bio uh. Chemistry pon ok jugak. Physics and Maths waaaaaah, minta ampun sih!!!

Then kan, ada jugaklah been doing reflections... Especially after usrah on Wed and KPR on Fri. Tapi ada private sikit nak share kat sini. Cuma... Ada parts tu rasa macam apa tau... Macam kena sepak gitu! Anyway, kalau nampak i'm being quite ke ape, leave me alone la yearh. Ngah berfikir or ngah reflect reflect OR ngah stress over school.

Ni actually ngah stress nih. BPT project patutnya dah send Hui Yi but kan, psst, belum start buat pon! And TE pon patut dah kena send Thilini, but I told her already la I'll finsh up by tomorrow morning and send to teacher besok straight. And my edits for PBL 1 patut kena send Jewel but only half done! Sebab rushing rushing nih is that next week date due!! Fri, 25th!

Then kan, next Wed ada RTecB quiz topics 5 and 7 and Thurs ada LAST quiz topics 2.1, 2.3 and 2.4. Then jugak kan, besok malam nak gi kasi moral support sikit la kat members-members aku nih (dah kena nih, Marliyana tak sekali pon tengok PPP play for this year, sry uh babes and hunks, busssssy banget gitu loh), Tuesday ada Bio talk kat Eden Hall (God knows where that is), Wednesday and Thursday dedicated to last minute editing of projects. Or... ada NI gathering ke *winks* Sry Titisanians, I don't think I can be there for your bump-in all the way at RP... Friday ada Qiyam at some Sembawang masjid till Sat morn then Sat afternoon ada 1 usrah then Sat malam ada another usrah. Sunday biasa madrasah. Added to that, rasanya macam ada hal lain on 27th jugak, ape ehh?? Banyak lah pulak keje nih. Hmm, I need my organiser back I think. Wekkk!

OH. And I forgot yet again, I'll be 20 according to the Islamic calendar tmr if I'm not mistaken!!! Izzit Ad? 18 Rejab kan kan? Gosh I don't even know. Tengok ah, asyik lupa je. Then then, on 26th pulak ada orang tu nye b'day, hmmmmmmm.... ;)

K. S.T.R.E.S.S. Lol. Sape tak sehh...

Oh, Ad there's something I wanted to give you but I forgot! Alar, takde impact ah camni... Takpe2.

Fityanees! 25th-26th tu jangan lupa qiyam tauuuuu.

K, time to blah. Rasanya jap lagi akan blog lagi. Hehe.

Two Choices

What would you do? You make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: 'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?'

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'

Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first! Run to first!' Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!' Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.

All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'

Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third! Shay, run to third!'

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!' Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.

'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the 'natural order of things.' So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little spark of love and humanity or do we pass up those opportunities and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?

A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's least fortunate amongst them.

(Truthfully, I don't know if I wouldd have taken the choice these boys had made. =( I hope the next time something like this happens to me, I would be reminded of this e-mail and of which is the RIGHT CHOICE to make...)

KeredhaanMu by In-Team. I like the lyrics. The song.. Okok lah, nak dengar cari sendiri, kat youtube ada.

Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku
HambaMu merindukan
Rahmat kasih sayangMu
Dan jua keredhaanMu
Dalam hidupku

Meskipun ku ulangi dosa noda
Yang menjanjikan azab sengsara
Namun ku sedari
KeampunanMu tidak bertepi

Ku akui diri ini
Hamba yang mungkir pada janji-janji
Jadikanlah taubat ini yang sejati
PadaMu Ilahi

Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku
Ya Allah, redhakanlah kehidupanku
Moga terhapus penghijab kalbu
Antara Kau dan aku

Tuhan,
Ku zalimi diri ini
Andai Kau tak ampuni dan rahmati
Alangkah ruginya diri

Tuhan,
Jangan Kau palingkan hati ini
Setelah Kau beri hidayah
Sesungguhnya Kau Maha Pengasih

(Ya Allah kekalkan dan kuatkanlah iman di hati. Jangan pula engkau menarik kembali hidayah yang telah engkau berikan. Ampunilah dosa-dosa hanbaMu ini ya Allah ya Tuhanku, Tuhan semesta alam yang Maha Mendengar, Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyanyang dn Maha Pengampun...)

Native Deen - Test

Lately things have been so stressed for you
It seems like life is trying to mess with you and pester you
You thought you knew exactly what to best pursue
You working hard on those things that you set to do
But you confess it's true that your success is few
And your folks are only helping in depressing you
You try to do the Deen but they be stressing you
And it gets to you but you suppress that too
An exam, you go and study day and night
You pray and write, hope for a grade you like
But when you get the test you're in dismay and fright
There's no A in sight and only 8 were right, wow!
And what about the sister you enquired about
She's so pious, devout that it required a scout
But then you get the news her Wali fired you out
They were wired, no doubt, to someone higher in clout
Lately its seems that your calling in life
Is just you falling in strife
The word appalling is right
And you notice you've been feeling sick, why who knows
So you call upon the doctor she can eye it close
She tells you I suppose, that you wont be very happy when I diagnose
Although you try your hardest not to cry it shows
It's a monster load, and your strength is sinking
You start wondering and thinking

What's going on? it seems all wrong, why am I the one struggling along?
I don't know why I'm hurting, I never hurt nobody
My life I'm living right, but it's crumbling around me
How strong is my faith this time? (got to pass the test)
Will my solution include Haram? (got to pass the test)
I gotta be strong during times like these, (got to pass the test)
I know after hardship there goes ease! (got to pass the test)

It's a test, (from Allah), a test (from your Lord), it's a test (what you gonna do?), gotta realize it's a test (4x)

Folks used to say you were smarty kid
Others made mistakes but you hardly did
Since then man, life has just been marvelous
You stand tall like an obelisk
It's obvious
Your high paying job is never arduous
Your living in your crib and you got marble this and marble that
Others dream to rival that
And your blessed to never draw major debt because success is your motto nothing keeps you down
Passing peeps in town, yo by leaps and bounds
People clapping when you talk because of deep renown
You drive Hummers and top model jeeps around
You know its bad and haram to be a miser and boast
But your healthier and wealthier and wiser than most
You gotta an adviser to those, who try to propose
Cause there's so many potentials that they line up in rows
You got it all, the power the money the wealth
Your thinking God's gotta love you more than anyone else
But wait Whoa wait a second, this isn't what your thinking

You gotta stop and think why you getting all the blessings
Don't want to let it shake ya, or let the devil make ya
Forget to praise Allah and then fail the test your taken
No doubt you're gonna try your best
Gotta be thankful and pray no less
Already gotta head up above the rest
Cause you realize this is just a test


Chorus

So face it, in life, you'll be tested at times
The devil, he's bright, don't let him mess with your mind
Yo, we're blessed, the Divine, which is the best for mankind
So He (God) gives us exams so don't get stressed out and whine
Even the best of all humanity was tested Himself
Allah can test us with calamity or test us with wealth
Can you hold back from profanity and focus yourself
Or maybe keep away from vanity and function in stealth
It's tough, trust me I know that it's rough
But after pain comes ease and you'll be blessed from above
I hope when the time for my test comes along I will cope and I'll find I'll be blessed when I'm strong
So my people, when life is a mess
You gotta focus and realize, this could be your test.

Berapa jam aku habiskan masa untuk tidur?
Berapa jam untuk baca quran?
Berapa jam untuk tengok tv?
Berapa jam untuk hafaz quran?
Berapa jam untuk mengadap laptop?
Berapa jam untuk tolong umi & abah?
Berapa jam untuk tolong adik-adik belajar?
Berapa jam untuk 'shopping'?
Berapa jam untuk mengulang quran?
Berapa jam untuk jalan-jalan?
Berapa jam untuk baca buku?
Berapa jam untuk berbual kosong?
Berapa jam untuk ziarah jiran dan saudara-mara?
Berapa jam untuk main game?
Berapa jam untuk tengok vcd?
Berapa jam untuk siapkan assignment?
Berapa jam untuk termenung?
Berapa jam untuk kerja-kerja Islam?
dan.. berapa jam untuk mengingati ALLAH?

Jawapannya... Biarlah rahsia...

Muslims should be like Flowers..
Flourishing in the garden of Islam.
Spreading the fragrance of Kindness and Love everywhere..
Loving each other for the sake of Allah..


Muslims should be like Flowers..
Flourishing in the garden of Islam.
Keeping the garden most attractive and charming.
Flowers having the colors of sabr and taqwah.


Muslims should be like Flowers.
Flourishing in the garden of Islam.
Smiling always and
Thanking Allah for the beautiful bounties.


Muslims should be like Flowers..
Flourishing in the garden of Islam.
Helping each other..
Enjoining the right and forbidding what is wrong.


Muslims should be like Flowers..
Flourishing in the garden of Islam..
Always Remembering Allah..
Obeying his commands and pleasing Him.


Muslims should be like Flowers..
Flourishing in the garden of Islam.
Enjoying the rain of mercy,
Praising Allah.. saying Alhamdulillah.~



In this world there are lots of Muslims..
Muslims from different nations and tribes..
from different backgrounds..
looking different from each other..
just like different flowers in a garden..
roses, sunflowers, jasmines and many more beautiful fragrant flowers..
all look different from each other but they all are beautiful. SubhanAllah.



We all are like flowers..
Some are roses, some are sunflowers , some are jasmines.
We all are in the same garden..
That is the garden of Islam.
We are asked to enjoin the right and forbid the evil.
We are commanded to love each other for the sake of Allah.


We must try to strive hard to follow the Quran and the authentic sunnah of prophet Mohammad pbuh. We must respect each others' views.

Even if we ever realize that a brother or a sister is somehow not following Islam correctly, we should try to correct them with kindness and love. We must not treat them harshly. We must not hurt anyone's feelings.


Help each other for the sake of Allah.
Let the Imaan be your strongest weapon against shaytaan.
Let sabr and taqwa adorn yourselves,
like the dew drops adorning flowers.


Brothers and Sisters~
We all are from Adam and Eve.
None of us has the superiority over the other except for piety
(as told by our beloved Prophet Mohammad pbuh).
There is no room for racism.


Always remember
Allah is watching us, wherever we are, whatever we are doing.
Prepare for the day we will be facing Allah swt and will be questioned about our deeds.


Let's be like the flowers~~
Spreading the fragrance of love, kindness and peace everywhere.. InsyaAllah.

Suatu hari, Imam Al-Ghazali berkumpul dengan murid-muridnya lalu beliau
bertanya (Teka Teki ) :



Imam Ghazali = " Apakah yang paling dekat dengan diri kita di dunia ini
?

Murid 1 = " Orang tua "
Murid 2 = " Guru "
Murid 3 = " Teman "
Murid 4 = " Kaum kerabat "
Imam Ghazali = " Semua jawapan itu benar. Tetapi yang paling dekat
dengan kita ialah MATI. Sebab itu janji Allah bahawa setiap yang
bernyawa pasti akan mati ( Surah Ali-Imran :185).


Imam Ghazali = " Apa yang paling jauh dari kita di dunia ini ?"

Murid 1 = " Negeri Cina "
Murid 2 = " Bulan "
Murid 3 = " Matahari "
Murid 4 = " Bintang-bintang "
Iman Ghazali = " Semua jawaban itu benar. Tetapi yang paling benar
adalah MASA LALU. Bagaimanapun kita, apapun kenderaan kita, tetap kita
tidak akan dapat kembali ke masa yang lalu. Oleh sebab itu kita harus
menjaga hari ini, hari esok dan hari-hari yang akan datang dengan
perbuatan yang sesuai dengan ajaran Agama".


Iman Ghazali = " Apa yang paling besar didunia ini ?"

Murid 1 = " Gunung "
Murid 2 = " Matahari "
Murid 3 = " Bumi "
Imam Ghazali = " Semua jawaban itu benar, tapi yang besar sekali
adalah
HAWA NAFSU (Surah Al A'raf: 179). Maka kita harus hati-hati dengan nafsu
kita, jangan sampai nafsu kita membawa ke neraka."


IMAM GHAZALI" Apa yang paling berat didunia? "

Murid 1 = " Baja "
Murid 2 = " Besi "
Murid 3 = " Gajah "
Imam Ghazali = " Semua itu benar, tapi yang paling berat adalah MEMEGANG
AMANAH (Surah Al-Azab : 72 ). Tumbuh-tumbuhan, binatang, gunung, dan
malaikat semua tidak mampu ketika Allah SWT meminta mereka menjadi
khalifah
pemimpin) di dunia ini. Tetapi manusia dengan sombongnya berebut-rebut
menyanggupi permintaan Allah SWT sehingga banyak manusia masuk ke neraka
kerana gagal memegang amanah."


Imam Ghazali = " Apa yang paling ringan di dunia ini ?"

Murid 1 = " Kapas"
Murid 2 = " Angin "
Murid 3 = " Debu "
Murid 4 = " Daun-daun"
Imam Ghazali = " Semua jawaban kamu itu benar, tapi yang paling ringan
sekali didunia ini adalah MENINGGALKAN SOLAT . Gara-gara pekerjaan kita
atau urusan dunia, kita tinggalkan solat "


Imam Ghazali = " Apa yang paling tajam sekali di dunia ini? "

Murid- Murid dengan serentak menjawab = " Pedang "
Imam Ghazali = " Itu benar, tapi yang paling tajam sekali didunia ini
adalah LIDAH MANUSIA. Kerana melalui lidah, manusia dengan mudahnya
menyakiti hati dan melukai perasaan saudaranya sendiri "

Tak tau lah kenapa kan, macam I'm very careless with my right hand throughout the whole day gitu. Kejap langgar ni. Kejap langgar tu. Sampaikan sekali tu time nak masuk BPT lt, tersepit wrist kat pintu yang sungguh berat itu sampai bengkak tangan sampai sekarang! Tadi nampak obvious inflammed and bruised but now looks normal, just that it's painful...

Have I ever said this before? I LOVE shopping... with my mum... when she's feeling rich... lol. Best tau, nak apa cakap je. But I not so bad larh...

Bought my baju raya already for this year. The first time I look at it macam okok lah, lawa but still look around but bila tengok nye tengok, macam terpikat lah pulak hehe. Dah try lagilah jatuh cinta. Finally! The colour I'd been wanting! Heheh, secret. Nanti Raya then tengok lah ye. The pink was also lovely. (Every year mesti terpikat pink jugak haha) but then... the only size left is M and macam gelebeh lah pulak. Macam ngah pakai baju my mother or something gitu. But seriously, the pink was really attractive tau. Haha kk enuough about pink.

Then went Afghanistan area (tadi kat Geylang... Kat kedai Yasmin, my mum regular customer kat sana, tadi pon pergi sana my mum nak gi amik the kain she tempah. It's the kain she tempah using the money we gave her for her birthday. Lawa tu lawa, but seriously I feel it's too ex uh. She'd said she wanted a bicycle, and so I raised/collected the amount of money from my dad and brothers for that, but.. takpelah kan, asal she happy... Eh panjang ah pulak...) I bought 2 casual clothes. Murah2 je... $12 and $15 but rather nice... Kalau ada corak lain, I wouldn't mind buying a few more sets hehe. The $15 one is the kind of baju I feel really comfortable wearing these days. Unfortunately coraknya satu je...

K, tangan dah sakit and I haven't do my schoolwork nih...

Happy birthday Liyana!

Let's flashback sikit la yerh...

Nur-Ikhwan loves! The heads sesi kenal2 with alumni followed by the handover session held in school yesterday. The new comm akan menggegarkan seluruh 600 berapa km2 of Sg land? K takpe haha. InsyaAllah, we'll unleash bakat2 terpendam of each and everyone of us and shine and hone them hehehe. Ble sumerr??

Next up is the closure of D'Talk '08. Our post mortem was gerek. No blood and tears hehe. Still feel like I could have done more, but... D'Talk 08 dahbis dah, dah tutup tirai, dah tutup kedai dah... FOR NOW.

D'Talk has definitely opened new doors of opportunities for NI. InsyaAllah we'll grab as many opportunities as we can handle, in the hope that these opportunities make us better Muslims, better people, better citizens etc.

D'Talk itself. Terlalu banyak gambar (sampai 500 hah! powerla media&publicity!), so I just take a bit a bit jer...


Camp Xplore... Was in and out every once on awhile so I wasn't really involved in what the pax were doing.


Random pics! From my hp... Sry, sungguh malas nak upload hehe.

Ni kucingku, namanya Malice dan itu adalah bakul kesayangannya.

Ini bukan kucing saya. Ni kucing bawah blk sebelah. Lupa nama yang diberi padanya kelmarin. Though currently choc vanilla seems to suit it well.

Ini pon bukan kucingku, tapi dia setia menunggu kepulangan ketika aku pulang malam. Namanya Tiger.

Ini Tiger di siang hari. Tiger suka sekali dengan basikal2 org, esp. yang ada bakul or back passenger cushioned seat. Liyana, you wouldn't wanna live in my house area at all. There's LOADS of cats. And I love it!!

Chloe Tan Yi Ting!

Ad sempat gi outerspace time LAsT break eh Ad? HAHA

Habistu wanted pulak tu.. Kena wanted pon senyum nih!

Haus Ad? Ngah belajar apa tu? Pasal anatomy anjing eh?

KRC: HANG TUAH! Meh kita perkenalkan. Yang nih Hayah ngan Raudah

Yang nih Raudah, Nadhirah n Nassier. Kitorang ngah bukak prize hamper luh.

Ni pulak Zulkarnain ngan Hayah. Mane aku eh?

Hah ni dia pon... Aiseh asallah kain kat kepala tu tak turunkan eh... Hmm, that's the Hang Tuahs of KRC5 and that's our flag!

In ferry otw back. Everyone was asleep, but I couldn't keep my eyes shut. alot of things were whirling in my head...

So I went up to the deck and look what I caught!

And this too! Sungguh indah sekali, Subhanallah...

Group pic after snorkeling

Group pic after Subuh before we set off

Group pic at Masjid Kristal, Terengganu, Malaysia... Orang suma spread out, I dunno why I was stuck between Nadiah and Jun...

There's alot more for KRC updates! That shall be a separate one okehs. InsyaAllah soon soon... Haha, naik basi seh...

I feel so lucky to have my sisters with me in this journey. I know I can always turn to them for comfort. :)

So, I guess it's official now. Hmm... All sett and ready to give what you have guys? :D




I was really exhausted with school projects yesterday. Not anyone's fault lah. My groupmates are really kind to me actually. What makes me feel frustrated is myself. How I'd changed... Used to finish all my homework (kalau tak habis, nangis beb), listen attentively in class, and NEVER late for class (Klah pernah skali dua pasal bus breakdown etc, but hey I used to reach school at 6.50am in the morning kay) and during projects, I'm the one getting frustrated at others tapi sekarang the cycle has turned and I'm the black sheep here. Mmmbekkkk... And I don't like it. I wanna be back to normal. I don't mind being the goody kind (hey, weird as it sounds some people mind). I'm proud of it. But it's like there's nothing to be proud of now.

You know, as Ustaz mentioned in KPR last Friday, (it's something like this lah eh, not his exact words) if there's a bad apple in the tree, check it's roots and correct what's wrong. Hmm... I'm still finding what's wrong.

Hey, let's look on the bright side! It's 6 days to my birthday in the Islamic calendar! Whohoo! Erm... I'd be 20. 2+0=2 kan? Heheh. I wannna make this year my first year to celebrate it. How to celebrate I'm not sure hehe. I only got to know of my birthday just like 2 years ago and I forgot about it last year so this year shall be erm... remembered? Hehe.

Okok wanna have my breakfast now. It's 12 Rejab today. I think I wanna fast 14, 15, 16 Rejab. Anybody wanna join? :D

OK! I'm at this "I-don't-care-what-happens-so-I'll-just-do-what-I-want" mood again.

Oh wells, penatlah pikirkan orang lain. I mean memang when you work in a group/team kena ada cooperation. But not that I didn't try! Dah try dah, dah 'push' dah hah. Tapi kalau thumbdrive tu dah decide nak corrupt and delete all my files with no reason whatsoever nak buat macam mana kan... And this fatigueness is still here. Baru tadi baru je masuk Isya' tertido sampailah kul 1.10am bila terdengar my pintu rumah bukak and tutup. (Bukannya apa, my brother kluar... YES at 1.10am in the morning -_-)

Nak tau what I did after my thumbdrive suddenly ada pop-up, "please format your disk"? Yelah, usaha dulu la kan, eject, masuk balik, eject, masuk balik, try, try, try, tak boleh. Gi comp my brother, plug in (sikit nye susah), try punya try pon takble. Kasi my bro check kan (he's more comp wiz than I am lah), he said there's no files at all inside. And for the last time, I tried again at my lappy and then... CRY.

Dugaan besar tuh. All my research materials and whatever summary I'd done so far ada kat dalam hokays! With NO BACK UP FILES.

Now I've got one injured thumbdrive ngah recover kat hospital after puas dah satu dua hari paksa dia telan ubat (the broken one dah di 'repair' but somehow it's still ada loose sikit so dia masih not in use) and one thummbdrive that decided to 'lose its memory' (fed-up sangat I just reformat it as my VERY LAST USAHA nak cari my files in it). Left one thumbdrive, or should I say MP3 and yang ini dah dekat setahun injured, dia ada sott sikit, bila on akan stuck. Ada brain damage, ada blood clot sikit. Tapi yang ini nak hantar dia gi hospital for operation sungguh the mahal jadi dia duduk lah cacat sikit kat rumah ni. Ada bahagian patah sikit, ear piece pon dah tak tau mana, so nasib kau lah wahai MP3 sayangku. Transferred my music files on my lappy as back-up. Now I'm looking for something to store ALL my lappy programs, music, pics etc JUST IN CASE. Kat mana eh boleh store these?

Kita ngah buat mask baru. Nak tau mask ape? Mask muka dek semacam, so kalau kawan tak puas hati then pakai mask tu. Yelah kan, gakkan nak nangis. Dah penat menangis.

Oh, nak tau how I solve my TE problem? ALHAMDULILLAH on Friday tu tergerak hati nak print out the summary I'd done (not updated though but waddeva lah kan, at least ada) and one of my research materials yang paling panjang berjela (walaupun berat hati cos seriously waste paper and duit tau tuh) AND ALHAMDULILLAH I have a good habit of putting urls after I copy paste something into words so... boleh check up balik online and retrieve my necessary info! Well, but still that took time and plus my tertidoness-in-front-of-comp-yang-sungguh-tak-boleh-dielak (I wonder if it's normal or izzit some kind of penyakit), I missed the deadline AGAIN which would probably furiate my groupmates. Nak buat cammaner! Buat muka dek (and kesian) je lah bila jumpa nanti! Tak kesian ke???

Okaes, I've wasted one hour of my time blogging. But it's worth it.

I can't wait for 25th July. It's the first freedom day I have, cos that is the date for TWO project submissions. Though I know after that there's one more submission plus two almost-one-month madrasah overdued tugasans, but let have a SHORT rest la kays, BISA NGGAK??

Aiseh mata pedih ni. Well, gotta push all the way. Kalau lapar insyaAllah masih ada makan. Hehheh.

Oh I saw the pic of the gathering my pri sch friends had. Aww... heart pain :( *sniff*

Eh tadi kan kat Afghanistan I saw this small boy who seriously looks like bro Hafiz H. Serious macam photocopy! Hmm... Terkejut jap. Haha.

Kay dah start merepek meraban dah. Nitez... I mean morning... And for those yang sedang berjuang like me and feel orang tak faham keadaan kita, hey, know that I understand haha.

And kat akhirat nanti pon not like Allah is gonna ask how many project deadlines you missed. Kan kan kan? Asalkan you put in your utmost effort, you've done your part lah in my opinion.

One reason why I don't ask for deadlines... I know I'll somehow miss it no matter how hard I try not to (Liyana remember mlm 2nd day D'Talk, I wanted to do my Faraid tugasan and push sampai sungguh takble push! Thx for helping sis).

And one reason why I don't like giving others deadlines... I don't like to receive deadlines.

But gotta agree la kan, some things really need deadlines. Lest you become DEAD MEAT.

Kita nak gi snorkeling lagi... Nak main badminton lagi. Nak main netball lagi. And PALING MISSED, nak baca novel and watch movies lagi!!!

I have less than 7 hours to finish TE and BPT *gulps*. Qiong it out..

Really miss my pri sch classmates. They're having a gathering this evening and I can't join. Even Mdm Irma is gonna be there tau... I wonder how they're doing, each one of them..

You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, once in a while
When you believe
(miracles happen)
You showed me dreams come to light
That takin a chance on us was right
All things will come with a little time
When You believe

When you believe
The soul is a shining light
When you believe
The heart has the will to fight
You can do anything, don't be afraid
We're gonna find our way

It's so hard to understand people's minds. That's why they teach that in diploma/degree level...

Dah lah, dunno what to say. There's so much I have to filter to post here.

I'm seriously havving trouble with schoolwork. I dunno what is it with me, but I get really tired easily these days meaning I can't complete my schoolwork on time. And I feel bad, as I pull down my team members with me. I'm really afraid they'd give me low marks for peer evaluation. But, I'm really trying my best! I dunno lah... Is there anything that can make me stay awake besides coffee. I really have a lot of overdue stuff, which I know I can do IF I have the time... Hoping for understanding from my team members...

:( Back to work. Have quiz later and tmr and 2 PBLs and 1 project and 3 tugasans. Splendid... Wish me luck seh. (Doa for me ye)

Before I forget... Happy birthday BABA!!!

Ok, this time of the year every year I shall be declared bankrupt, lol. Have a nice erm... night.

We're now in the month of Rejab. Then gonna be Sya'aban, then gonna be RAMADHAN.

I find the song Tasbih really nice above the other songs and so I wish to put the lyrics here...



Tasbih – the Seedlings of Paradise
Subhan Allah, wa’l hamdu lillah
Wa la ilaha illa Allah
Allahu akbar wa la hawla
Wa la quwwata illa billah

All Allah’s creation glorifies Him
Infinitely perfect, beyond understanding
And though we cannot praise Him
As much as He deserves,
We say ‘glory to Allah, subhanallah!’

All praise is for Allah, exalted be He
He is worthy of all praise anyone could ever speak
In thankfulness for all the blessings He bestows
We say, ‘praise to Allah, al-hamdu lillah!’

There is none we worship except for Allah
There is none we yearn for except for Allah
It is the best remembrance – no god but Allah
Every moment in our hearts, we remember Allah

Allah is more exalted than heaven and earth
His pleasure more important than the greatest of rewards
Allah is greater than any praise we make of Him
So in word and deed and prayer we say, ‘Allahu akbar.’

Lyrics from Nur Al-Habib Productions

A khutbah Jumaat one fine Friday in September 2000 says:
Mukmins will utilise the month of Rejab and Syaaban to prepare themselves for the heralding entrance of Ramadhan. They prepare themselves both physically and spiritually. They cleanse their hearts before welcoming the holy month of Ramadhan so that when it arrives, their hearts are all ready to embrace the light, blessings and fadhilah from Allah. These are the features of mukmins. Rasulullah always recite this prayer during the month of Rejab:

"Oh Allah! Blessed us in the month of Rejab and Syaaban, and make us reach Ramadhan."

This is the prayer or doa which we should be reciting in the hope that we will be blessed by Allah during the two months of Rejab and Syaaban, starting today. It is also in anticipation for us to meet and embrace the holy month of Ramadhan. Let us increase our ibadahs during these months and reduce our wrong doings during these times.

Don't we want to grab these golden opportunities? Just like how we anticipate our bonuses each year, just look at how Allah grants bonuses of blessings for us. Not only are they given every year, but they are also bestowed every day, every week and every month. We will lose out if we forfeit these bonuses from Allah. In Surah Mukminun, ayat 61 Allah says:

It means: "It is these who race for the good deeds, and they are foremost in them"

Baarakallah.......
Taken from Cyber Mimbar

Btw I came across a few sites (juz to name two: here and here) which says that the various rewards stated about fasting a certain number of days in Rejab and solat Raghaib is da'if/fake/palsu...

I try my best not to put any hadiths here of which I'm not sure of their authenticity. As for the doa, I only know it's narrated by Imam Ahmad:
“O Allah! Bless us in the months of Rejab and Syaaban, and let us meet the month of Ramadhan” (Hadith narrated by Imam Ahmad) Authenticity I'm not sure. Kena tanya Ustazah Sakinah ni hehehe


Just one last thing to add:
ITAQULLAH! Hadith:
Fear Allah, not the people, because we will get only what Allah has prescribed for us and nothing more. Stand up! Be strong and morally upright. "Say: 'I believe in Allah', and thereafter be upright." (related by Muslim)

The songs above are from Talib Al-Habib's album titled rahma. I find his songs very nice and soothing to the soul... Some of his songs are from hadiths and he adds his own poems to some of the songs. Mostly he's praising Allah and talks of Rasulullah. Listen to them :) You can find lyrics here. Enjoy!

A brief intro to the songs...

Kalimatan
Kalimatan - the Seal of al-Bukhari: (Bukhari) The album ends with the short but powerful hadith that Imam al-Bukhari chose to end his great work Sahih al-Bukhari. It is narrated here in full, and the translation is as follows: ‘there are two phrases which are beloved of the Most Merciful, light on the tongue, yet heavy on the scales (of reward): glory be to Allah and all praise to Him, glory be to Allah, the Mighty.’
Taken from http://seekersdigest.wordpress.com/2008/02/09/kalimatan/

Hadith of mercy
27. Ar-Rahimu na yarhamuhumurrahman tabaraka wata’ala irhamu man fil-ardhi yarhamukum man fissama’ (Hadithu Sahih Rawahu Ahmad)
Orang-orang yang pemurah akan dirahmati Allah, kasihanilah makhluk-makhluk yang ada di dunia maka akan dikasihi kamu oleh orang-orang di langit.
Taken from http://semalubirru.blogsome.com/2006/07/

Tauhid
It's something we normally recite after our prayers, but nicer when sung like this kan kan kan?

Tasbih
Truly a nice poem written in praise of Allah with tasbih sung in between.

The rest I have yet to have a closer look at... so yeah, read the lyrics yourself hehe.

Anyway, just a little background on the singer:

Talib al-Habib was born in London in 1976 and grew up in Manchester, before moving to South Africa with his family for a ten year stay. It was here that he met his spiritual guide and began traversing the path of traditional Islam - the methodology of uniting the practical, intellectual and experiential facets of religion - under his instruction. He later returned to the UK in early 2002.

Read more here.

Takyah attend APEL at 8am in the wee morning on every Tuesday lagi!!!

Hehe, finally finished my Values Reflection this morning. Crapped all the way, ape lagi kan... They ask to reflect on APEL values learned through 1 learning point and 1application. Don't think I answered opps~ Hopefully DR Yee Mon is lenient and will pass me asal I do heheh.

Meh kita share sikit. Cerita sedih tau ni.. haha.

Questions dia:

To reflect is to ponder, to think deeply and seriously, to contemplate. Share your personal perspective on how you feel about your life journey. Share your "Joy of Learning," "Joy of Giving," and "Courage to Do Right."

You are to review your journal and then reflect on your life journey in Temasek Polytechnic. Take note of significant events or issues that made an impact on you.

Meet the requirement by having a minimum of 500 words, 1 learning point and 1 application in this reflection.

This is what I wrote:

Submission Date : 7/8/2008 7:33:20 AM

I believed I entered Temasek Polytechnic in 2006 as a failure. I did not do well for my GCE 'O' levels and cried for days upon receiving my results in February that year. Even after I'd entered TP as a freshman, I still cried in my heart. All my friends were in JC, except those who CHOSE to be in poly. Me? I had no choice but to go poly. My whole life before that was tuned to sitting for O levels, then going to JC, then going to uni and so on and so forth. Even when I did not get to go to JC for three-months course before 'O' level results were out, I asked my friends for their JC notes and studied to 'prepare' myself for when I would enter JC after results are out.

So when my results did not allow me to go to JC, I had to change my life plans drastically. All the effort I had put in to go to JC seemed pointless as my dreams were shattered. It was hard to get back on my feet, especially when my parents looked so disappointed in my failure to go JC. The first thing I had to do after receiving my results was to choose a course in a poly, which back then I find challenging as I hardly have any idea about the courses the different poly have to offer. When I look back at it now though, I can confidently say, 'I have no regrets in my choice.' Temasek Poly is the best poly for me and Applied Science - Biotechnology is just perfect for me. And it's not that I didn't have a choice. I could have chosen to go astray but I chose to go poly and give my best anyway.

Since April 2006, things started to look a little brighter. At the very least, I managed my studies pretty well alongside other activities I am involved in. When I received my first semester's results with a GPA of 3.86, I was reminded of what a friend told me when she comforted me for not being able to go JC. She said, 'Perhaps, poly is where you can shine.'

After all these while, I do feel that I did shine in my poly years. Maybe not so much of a 'wow', but at least I am proud of where I am and what I had done. It's true that everything happens for a reason. My being in poly too has its own reasons, which I slowly uncover month after month.

Being in poly, I am able to focus solely on Science, a subject I was truly fascinated with since primary school. I did not have to divide my attention to 'unnecessary' compulsory subjects like English, Malay, Social Studies and Literature, which I neither had interest nor do well in. I am really happy to be in Biotechnology where my hunger for the knowledge in the Sciences is slowly satisfied. Though, as a saying goes, “The more you learn, the less you know”, there is really so much more about Science!

Being in poly too allowed me more freedom in managing my time. Unlike secondary school where there would definitely be homework every single day, poly provided me with more free time, which I put to good use. Apart from participating in the malay drama club in TP (Malay Arts Group - Titisan Temasek), I also helped out at a nearby mosque and once in a while I got together with friends in TP to organise events for ourselves and people who know us. I was satisfied with how I managed my time, being able to do well in my studies while contributing to the school as well as the community. At the same time, I was able to develop values like compassion, cooperation, perseverance, initiative and more.

Problems arised when on top of all that I had, I decided to work. My parents were strongly against the idea, fearing for my well-being and my performance in my studies, but I went against them anyway with the reason that I would like to experience the working world early so I would not get a shock when I enter the working world.

That was a decision I regret till now. A mistake I did that I could not forgive myself. I wasted my time, money and effort in something with so little returns. I felt really selfish and was really uncomfortable with the job. Besides, my studies were also affected. When I realized what I had done, I could not quit. Due to peer pressure, I was afraid to quit. Idid not want to be labeled as someone who easily gives up. I felt trapped with no choice. When I saw how I did for my term tests though, I know I had to do something. I had to quit no matter what happens. I know my priority is my studies and it is time I prove it.

I did not rely on my family or friends for support for fear they would tell me, “I told you so” and so I had to muster the courage on my own. I finally quitted in July 2007, four months after I joined the company, and focused on my studies again. I am glad I made that decision to stand for what I believe is right, just in time to be able to pull my grades up a little. I received the worst results that semester, but at least I passed all my subjects.

Since then on, even though I still contribute to my CCA and at the mosque, I had learnt that no matter what, my schoolwork deserves my topmost priority. There were times when it gets pretty challenging juggling three things at once, but with proper time management and a persevering and resilient spirit, I believe anything is possible!

All in all, I know I have not wasted my youth away.

No of words: 998

Guess how I wrote so much?

Treat it like I'm blogging lor!

So lethargic :( I don't like... It's like there's this negative energy all around me. I wanna get up and moving and going and going and going! Instead here I am fallig asleep every minute I see my bed. Padahal I don't see anything that could make me this tired. I mean yes NAPFA is tiring but hey that was yesterday MORNING, hours ago sey and I'm sure I had enough rest for it. Actually this lethargy has been dragging me down the whole week. By 10pm that's it I'm a goner. Padahal I'm used to sleeping at 2 or 3am in the morning. And if I get to sleep early, I'd get up fresh ready to groove the next day. Ni tak! Dah lah tido siang, pagi bangun lepas Subuh confirm condemn balik sampai masa kena gi school or wherever I need to go. Sheesh.

Oh and NAPFA yesterday is making everything ache. My legs, my stomach, my back, my shoulders and even my head and heart! :(

Just hope tomorrow is a better day. A much much better day. Pleaseeeee... Pretty please with all the do'a(s) on top...

I want aircon :( My room is feeling super hot but I'm so lazy to go clean that fan of all the habuk it's been accumulating.

Oh guess what? I broke my thumbdrive. Broke okeh! Into two. Managed to put it roughly back together but I need to hold it in a certain position in the USB before I can open my files. I've transferred all my files in it into my lappy but guess what... My BPT and wastewater content summary both corrupted! And I haven't send to anybody in my group! Meaning I've got to redo from scratch! I hope Ad kept my first draft...

I dunno why, like everything is so wrong. I'm so easily irritated. Orang senyap aku tak suka. Orang vising aku tak suka. Orang happy aku tak suka. Orang sad aku tak suka. Dah kenaper ehk?

Feel like there's something missing and I wanna fill that gap but I dunno what gap is that and what to fill it with!

Let's get all the tasks out of the way aye? But then, it's a neverending cycle. Lepas satu satu. WHY AM I FINDING EVERYTHING A BURDEN??? Padahal it's things I can say I would wanna do. Grr, geram tau. Geram dengan diri sendiri.

The prospect of having to do assignments in uni is dreadful... But my parents would want me to go uni... Marliyana, what do YOU want? I dunno... I dunno...

I just received a ppt from Lifang which says some ways to avoid illness is to:

1. Speak your feelings
2. Make decisions
3. Don't live by appearance
4. Trust
5. Don't live life sad

I think I left out one or two. If you want the ppt, let me know, I'll forward to you kaes.

Started new module at Andalus just now: ejarah Perundangan Islam. Sounds dry. But we got Ust Fathurrahman, insyaAllah ok lah... His class today was quite funny, and with a strained stomach muscle, pain seh ketawa. Got my tugasan topic: Prinsip2 Asas Perundangan Islam, beri contoh2, err... *looks left looks right* Nak tulis ape ehk???? Some others got topics like Imam Shafiee, Abu Hanifah, Ahmad bin Hambal and Ibn Tarmiyah, Penurunan dan Penulisan Al-Qur'an, Pengumpulan Hadith, Isytihad, lagi tak ingat ape...

Oh the tugasan system has changed to only one tugasan per semester instead of four!!! Phew~ It's a big load off okeh. I still have 2 tugasans overdued, my Tafsir Al-Qur'an about Surah Al-Fatihah and Faraid about hukum2 and contoh2 bagi cucu lelaki. Sounds chicken mcwings BUT I just need time... IF I can convert all the sleeping energy to doing assignments kan baik... Actually I aimed to finish these two tugasan latest my Tuesday morning, but right now I dunno can ke tak nih!!

Oh please don't nag at me. It's so dang irritating okeh. (Actually at this time I find motivation words irritating too.)

I'm not ready to grow up... :(

I want chocolates :(

"Man jadda wajad, wa man zara'a hasad, wa man lajja walaj" (Whosoever puts effort finds what he seeks, and whoever sows he reaps, and whosoever is persistent to enter finally enters)

I.am.feeling.... worried over something. I have a notion worried over what, but I can't be sure. Had this feeling since last night. Resah, gelisah... Tak tenteram. Macam ada yang sungguh tak kena gitu...

I hope it has nothing related to this hadith:




Al-Nawwas bin Sam'an, radiyallahu 'anhu, reported that the Prophet, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, said:

"Righteousness is good character, and sin is that which wavers in your heart and which you do not want people to know about."
[Muslim]


According to Wabisah bin Ma'bad, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said:

I came to the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, and he said: "You have come to ask about righteousness ?" " Yes," I answered. He said: "Consult your heart. Righteousness is that about which the soul feels tranquil and the heart feels tranquil, and sin is what creates restlessness in the soul and moves to and fro in the breast, even though people give you their opinion (in your favour) and continue to do so."
[A good hadith transmitted from the Musnads of the two Imams, Ahmad bin Hanbal and Al-Darimi]

from http://fortyhadith.iiu.edu.my/hadith27.htm

LAST was horrible yesterday... Goodbye rat...

Anyway, took my NAPFA this morning. What the toot... Failed my standing broad jump and 2.4km run quite badly... Oh wells... Expected actually. Always didn't do well in these in Sec school either. Passed just because My Ng and the other PE teachers seriously push us till we pass. No wonder Temasek won the fitness award for lik how many consecutive years sehh..

So unfit... So sad... No wonder I always lazy to do things. Korang let's play netball and badminton yok! And who wanna go rockclimbing? NI-ans *ahem*!! Hehe. Fityan too ;)

I feel creative juices welling up in my brain but I can't put aside time to pour them on paper! Wish to open Secret Gate again!!! Missing my bcreative side. Missing Sylvia badly too!

And Siti... She asked me out today and I'd wanted to go, but I was super tired after NAPFA that I just went flat.

I'd been eating ALOT despite the ulcer in my mouth. Opps~ Cotrol!!!

Oh oh, the ulcer has more or less healed already whee~!

Watched Spiderman3 for awhile just now on HBO. "whatever comes our way,whatever battle we have raging inside us, we always have a choice. my friend harry taught me that. he chose to be the best of himself. its the choices that make us who we are, and we can choose to do whats right." :)

Just wanna share another hadith:


Abu al-‘Abbas ‘Abdullah bin ‘Abbas, radiyallahu anhuma, reported: One day I was behind the Prophet, sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam, and he said to me:


"O young man, I shall teach you some words [of advice] : Be mindful of Allah, and Allah will protect you. Be mindful of Allah, and you will find Him in front of you. If you (have need to) ask, ask of Allah; and if you seek help, seek help from Allah. Know that even if the Nation (or the whole community) were to gather together to benefit you with something, they would not benefit you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded for you, and that if they gather together to harm you with something, they would not be able to harm you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded against you. The pens have been lifted and the pages have dried."

from http://fortyhadith.iiu.edu.my/hadith19.htm

Oh lupa nak bilang... Ni penting kaes.

I spent the whole of LAST lecture MSN-ing with Ad, Jamie, Anil and Xavier on paper lol. Padahal duduk sebelah2! But seriously DR Yee Mon was just readin from the slides and initial part of the lec I didn't have my slides with me, so yeah...

Haha, first time gitu Marliyana main2 during lec. Oh wait a minute, I did this before. Time PCT with Ad and Nurul. Haha. Funny seh that one. Ish, tengoklah masuk poly jadi cam gini ish ish.

But seriously some lecturers just bore the hell out of you. (I hope it leaves behind the heaven with you...) I really felt I was wasting my time there in the lt just now. I would have gone home if it were not that Dr Yee Mon is my CP. (Psst and he's spending $200 on us heheheh)

K dah.

P.S. LAST is a subject. Lab animal safety and technology or whatever it is larh. Have practical tmr, I wonder if we'll have to perform cardiac puncture on our rats andd put them to sleep (euthanise) tmr... *sniff sniff*

Btw to those who dunno, tmr will be Kak Hanisah and Sakinah's last day at Ghufran and they'll be returning to UKM this Sunday. :(

45oth post whee~

Hmm, swimming (snorkeling kott) under a pile of schoolwork to do. I'm glad I'm not tied down by any other urgent responsibilities currently that requires immediate attention, though my tasklist seems to get longer each day! It's k... One at a time I guess...

Feeling quite motivated actually. Something Ustazah Sakinah or one of the other sisters said yesterday made me sort of decide where I wanna go next. Or at least narrow down my choices... She said somethig, which I can simply conclude as: We Muslims wouldn't want to be at a disadvantage because we refuse to learn secular studies. We need Muslims in every other stream, the Science stream, the Arts stream, the Business stream etc to show that Muslims are not one dimensional. Islam afterall is not just a religion of worship, but it's actually a WAY OF LIFE... MY way of life. Taking the secular stream doesn't mean we can't practice Islam or that we are not practicing Islam.

Hmm... I know I am only one person. One Muslim. But one can still make a difference right? That's why I strive to do well in school. Hopefully I motivate other Muslims as well. I think I need a new badge that says, "JOM BELAJAR!" haha.

It's really sad larh to see a lot of Malay/Muslim students playing around in school not bothering with studies or not trying to always better their grades. What's happening??

Ok if I wanna do well this term, I guess the first step is to GET BACK TO WORK... NOW!!! K byez!

Oh I have yet to say what I feel like becoming... I wanna try out for medical school, I wanna be a doctor and I wanna cure people. :)

Oh btw, KPR starts tmr!! At Khawarazmi room level 2 7-9.30pm, hope to see you guys there!

Juz for sharing :)

I remember Ustazah Aishah saying about points 1 and 6. It helped a little y'know. So, for those still having to memorize specific surahs from the holy Qur'an for madrasah oral exams, try it!

Memorizing the Holy Quran
Posted by miorkhabir on October 21, 2007


What you should do before, while, and after memorizing the Book:

1. Ikhlaas - (Sincerity)

The purification of ones intention and correcting ones desire is obligatory. It is likewise for making ones concern with and memorisation of the Quran for the sake of Allah, and for gaining success with His Paradise and obtaining His pleasure. Also for obtaining those mighty rewards which are reserved for those who recited the Quran and memorised it.

“Say: Verily, I am commanded to serve Allah with sincere devotion…”
Az-Zumar, verse 11.

2. Correction of ones pronunciation and recitation (tajwid)

Taking the Quran from a good reciter is obligatory. Likewise, correcting ones recitation firstly and not depending oneself in its recitation even if one is knowledgeable of the Arabic language and of its principles, is also obligatory. This is because in the Quran there are many verses which occur in a way that is opposed to what is well known in the rules of the Arabic language.

3. Specifying a daily limit for memorization

It is necessary for the one desiring to memorize the Quran that he sets himself a daily limit for memorizing; a number of verses for example, perhaps a page or two or even an eighth of a juz (maqra’). So he begins, after he has corrected his recitation and set his daily limit, to learn by frequent repetition. It is also necessary that this repetition is done melodiously and this is so that a person follows the Sunnah firstly and that the memorization is made firm and strong secondly.

“Whoever does not beautify the Quran (recite it melodiously), he is not of us.”
Riwayat Sahih Bukhari.

4. Not surpassing one’s daily limit until you have perfected its memorization

It is not permissible for the memorizer to move to a new portion of the Quran until after he has perfected the memorization of his previous limit, so that what he has memorized is firmly established in his mind.

5. Memorize using the same copy (mushaf) of the Quran

Among the things which aid the memorization is that the memorizer should keep for himself a specific mushaf (copy of the Quran) which he should never change. This is because a person memorizes using the sight just as he memorized using the hearing. The script and form of the verses and their places in the mushaf leave an imprint in the mind when they are recited and looked at frequently. If the memorizer was to change his mushaf from which he memorizes or if he was to memorize from a number of different copies, the places of the verses would be in different places and also the script may also be different. This makes the memorization difficult for him, and therefore it is obligatory for the one memorizing the Quran that he does so from a single script and mushaf and should never replace it.

**There are differences of script in the Rasm Uthmani mushaf and the other ones, such as the symbols of sakinah (tanda mati) and tanwin.

6. Understanding is the way to memorize

Among the things which greatly aid the process of memorization is understanding the verses that one has memorized and knowing their relationship and link, one to another. Tafseer is necessary, no doubt, and this makes easier for him to memorize the verses. But it is not good to know the meaning alone in the term of memorizing. Repetition of these verses should be the foundation. Ones who rely upon the meaning alone will forget often and his recitation will be disjointed due to his mind being scattered and occupied with other things. This occurs frequently, especially when the recitation is long.

7. Do not move from a complete surah until you have completed the first part of it to the last

It is desirable for the memorizer that he does not move onto another surah after finishing one, except after having perfected its memorization and connecting its first part to its last so that his tongue can flow in the recitation, from beginning to its end. It should be like flowing water and like a person who recites al-Fatihah without any difficulty or having to think about it.

8. Reciting to others

One should not depend on himself for his memorization. He should test his memorization by reciting the verses or surah to somebody else. Many individuals among us who memorize a surah make mistake and a person may not realize that until he looks into the mushaf. Furthermore, he may not realize by himself at which place he makes an error in his recitation despite the fact that he may be reciting from a mushaf. Reciting to others is a means of perceiving and knowing these errors and being constantly aware of them.

9. Constantly returning to what one has memorized

The Quran is different from any other materials that is memorized such as poetry and prose. This is because the Quran is quickly lost from one’s mind.

“By Him in whose Hand is my soul, it is faster in escaping than a tied camel.”
Riwayat Sahih Bukhari and Muslim.

So it is obligatory and a must upon the memorizer of the Quran to continuously recite what he has memorized from the Quran. Without it, what he has memorized will escape.

10. Being aware of the resembling parts of the Quran (mutashaabihat)

The Quran has approximately six and a half-thousand verses and there are approximately a thousand verses in which there is a resemblance of some sort. One of the ways to aid oneself in this matter is to study those books which deal with this topic of resembling verses in the Quran. Among the most famous of them are:

1) Durratut-tanzeel wa ghurratut-ta’weel fii bayaanil aayaat al mutashaabihaat fii kitaabillahil aziiz - by al-Khateeb al-Iskaafee.

2) Asraarut-tukraar fil-Quran - by Mahmood bin Hamzah ibn Nasr al-Kirmaanee.

11. Taking advantage of the golden years of memorizing

The successful one, inevitably, is the one who takes advantage of the best years of memorization and these are from the age of 5 to 23 approximately. A person’s ability to memorize during these years is very good. In fact, these are the golden years of memorizing.
To memorize at this stage can be done very quickly and forgetting is not so easy. The opposition happens after this time when a person memorizes with difficulty and forgets with great velocity.

And with Allah is success and prayers and peace be upon our Messenger Muhammad, upon his family and all his companions.

* Taken from “Al-Qawaid adh-dhahabiyyah lil hifzil quranil azeem” by Abdurrahman Abdul Khaaliq.

** English translation by Amjad ibn Muhammad Rafiq, University of Essex Islamic Society.

Alhamdulillah I'm improving :) Actually not really, but I've decided to, "JUST DO IT!" Simple reason: If I don't get what I wanna eat, I'd be a big mad monster. So let's just face all the pain it has to give AND JUST EAT. I've yet to finish one whole chicken though, and I plan to do that today, with the help of bonjela which costs like $5 seh...

K, time to eaaaaaatttt!!!