Finally, I have finished watching Ketika Cinta Bertasbih. I find part 1 rather redundant, but part 2... Ya Allah... Memang emotional roller coaster... Kalau dah jodoh tu takkan ke mana, insyaAllah :D The film didn't make me cry like Ayat-ayat Cinta did but I find the messages delivered in KCB meaningful. Bila Anna's father tell Azzam about the expectation of an Al-Azhar graduate, macam terasa gitu... Of course, I'm not an Al-Azhar graduate, not even near pon... But just macam tersentak at the respeonsibility of someone who calls him/herself a 'graduate'. And the true meaning of learning... Haiz, I'm a bad student... Trying to improve myself... Hard... Very hard indeed... I still fall asleep in class, play games, check sms, check e-mail, check fb, go MSN etc if the class is boring. Otherwise there'll be weird shapes appearing on my notes... If that happens, it means--> I'M SUPER DUPER EXTREMELY BORED.

Hmm, since I'm here, let me give a glimpse of the first few days of school and hari raya which I'd been wanting to blog about. (besok skola start lambat so boleh tido lambat hehe!)

School started last week, the last week of Ramadhan. It is pretty tiring.... i truly enjoy Plant Diversity, not because of the subject but because of the lecturer who views the concept of learning differently. He doesn't give us any slides, not much of a problem, I have no qualms taking down the important points he say and show. The pace that he's taking is abit fast but still manageable. I just like his personality and his deep passion for what he's teaching. He is preparing us not to sit for exams and pass with flying colours, but he is really teaching us about plants, facilitating our interest in plants... I'm not that gaga over plants as he is (I pretty much dislike having to learn about plants, what more it's diversity and ecology and whatnots) but his passion kinda rubs on me :))) I'm starting to get fascinated by plants. ;)

Animal biodiversity interests me more. It IS interesting. It just makes you go, "SubhanAllah!" when you learn. The world is sooooo diverse and there is nothing that is created without purpose even to the tiniest organism there is. No matter how simple or how complex an organism is, it has been equipped with the necessary appendages to function properly.

I especially love the bio videos, very visual... It brings you across time and space! (At least, the videos that my lecturers choose to show us does) I feel like in a different world when they show the underwater lifeforms... NICE! And I love the experiments they do to prove their theories, just brilliant seh. How they come up with the theories themselves is already brilliant! What goes through their mind eh?!

Some may argue that the theories that these biologists/scientists (whatever you call them) come up with are against Islamic teachings, but yea these are just theories based on facts observed. That is Science, all about observation and deriving certain conclusions from the observations... I mean, I would hold on strongly to what Islam teaches me, and at the same time I wanna know what are the theories being theorized out there... I wonder if there have been Muslims who comes up with some theories based on the Quran and Sunnah and then test these theories with experiments. I'm sure there are! Just that I have yet to hear of them. I wanna research on this... Very curious.

Oh, as I have complained on fb, there is this lecturer who's teaching us for the first time who scolded me and a friend infront of the whole class for entering the class 5 minutes late. What happened was that it was actually a 3-hr lecture and after 1 hr by the other lecturer, there was a break where this lecturer had not arrived. I got wind that she had posted notes the night before and so myself along with a couple of others took the opportunity to rush to the library and quickly print out the notes. The fact is that I checked the portal on the previous day's afternoon and there wasn't any new notes! My friend said that she posted it up late, about 10pm at night. The lecture started at 11.30am but I didn't know there were nots since I'd just checked the afternoon before! Well, the library building is very far from the extra secluded lab at blk 7A, so obviously it took some time to get there, log into the computer, download the doc and print! What I couldn't accept is that I was scolded (interrogated is more like it... "Why are you late?" "Do you know that you have missed 5 mins of my lecture?" "Where were you from?" "How come you didn't print earlier?" "How come you didn't check the portal?") right blatantly infront of the class. I understand that she wants to instill proper discipline right from the start and warn the class, but I just find it unreasonable that I was attacked like that! She didn't even apologise for putting up the notes late!! She just said that she'd the head of department or something like that and thus she's very busy such that she can only finish deleting out the backgrounds of the slides, save as pdf and upload to the portal the night before the lecture. If she expects me to understand that, then do understand that most students don't check the portal 24/7 and some students may not have printers at home and some students stay far that they need to have early rest the day before and it takes time to journey to school to print in the morning... Spoiled my mood for the rest of her lecture (as well as the second one this week) and she has totally destroyed my first impression of her. It will take forever to change, and in the meantime I find it hard to accept anything that she's saying, especially since she spends half the time talking about pedagogy (which shouldn't be a problem if I had a better impression of her). My impression is heavily tainted that I find fault in everything she does and says eventhough I know that what she is teaching is ilmu and what she is saying may be correct! Haiz...

Chemistry is boring as usual. So physics. I took chemistry expecting more well... chemistry! But half of what I'm learning is physics and i simply suck at it. I have to put in extra effort (double the brain juices) to understand what's going on and to pass my exams. I used to fail my physics and when I got B3 for my O levels I was glad to think that it'd be the last time I see so many rocket science equations and formula. So so so feel like crying when I find that chemistry in NIE is half physics. But I couldn't have taken anything else. English sounds fine, I love languages but... I can't think of TEACHING English in Sec sch later on. I'd rather teach Chemistry. And so here I am enduring and trying to survive Chem/Physics... I miss the focused-learning in TP on Bio/Chem...

Oh one of the Chem lecturers' a Muslim. I'm impressed... You rarely see a Muslim lecturer other than those Malay lecturers teaching Malay language... But really, he needs to apply better pedagogical skills...

I have project due 2 weeks from now, and 2 9900 word essays due within these 4-5 weeks. so far that's all. Wait till the lab reports come in etc...

Today I just feel extra stressed, I dunno.

Haiz, let's leave the raya stories to another time...

Oh, I got a shock of my life when I entered NIE last week, the green grass are gone! It's brown everywhere! (and the cream colour of the building just adds to the dullness. And there were gates inside!! But this week they'd been planting and they've removed all the gates, thank God.

Oh I bunk in with raudah on one of the days last week :P I miss my hall, but I'm having second third fourth fifth thoughts of staying in a hostel again...