Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha! Allahu Akhbar!

What do you feel when you hear the takbir this morning? Maybe Aidiladha doesn't mean as much as Aidilfitri to you... For me, it's like I don't feel Aidiladha approaching 'cause we don't have to fast for a month before the festival. But helping out at Ghufran yesterday for Akikah as well as hearing the takbir early in the morning (my house isn't that far from Ghufran so you can hear the takbir) put me into the mood.

Yesterday, I went to Ghufran for briefing in the morning. Seriously, we need to do away with 'janji Melayu'. Instead of subjecting to it, why not change our attitude? Oh well... Anyway, I was there only for the briefing initially but decided to stay and help out for the akikah till 6/7pm. I was assigned to Finance for today but since there was no money to sort yesterday, I took the task at Information Counter with Ewanny. When Ewanny went of to walk around, I ended up playing Ayan's gameboy lol. When they said I could leave the post, I went to have my lunch with Nadirah before helping out (and then getting stuck) in the pantry making drinks and ice. I was stuck with Huda there cos we dirtied our feet and ended up being friends. Heheh, I make friends quite easily afterall eh? But I'm always the listening party :) At last, at about 5, we gave up chatting in the pantry, we washed our feet in the sink (so unladylike hahas) and made our way to the multi-purpose hall. It turned out practically everyone was already gathered there for debriefing! Let's skip this part shall we? Just wanna mention that a kambeng tried to run away but I think the kambeng thought over its decision after seeing Obek lol.


Today, I helped out at Ghufran again from 9-12. Wish I could help the whole day today but I had to go my grandma and grandaunt's house after Zohor so I had to leave at noon. Met up with Zee and Huda at 8.15am and made our way to Ghufran by feet. Btw, the t-shirt they gave, size M, was super big that I had to wear another shirt inside. The tail of the shirt reach my thighs, nearly my knees hor. Like nightgown, someone mentioned lol. I wasn't the only one with a t-shirt too big anyway... Anyway, when we reached Ghufran we met up with other Fatayaats and had to stay on the pathway leading to Ghufran 'cause the mosque was so full of jemaah lah. At about 9 then we managed to enter. As I mentioned earlier, I was assigned to Finance with Naza, my Titisan friend (hope she'd be a Fityan member too!) but since the money not ready or something like that, we ended up doing signage. Carefree... As compared to the other tasks heheheh. But I still had to go in and out of the mosque to place the signs/maps. After breakfast of epok-epok then we started our actual task. Sis Nurain also joined us since she wasn't specifically assigned to any task. Finace, what do we do? Sort out the donation money. We don't have to count 'cause they have a machine for that, but we had to sort out the money to coins, $2, $5, $10 and $50 (there were at least 3... May Allah bless them!). It wasn't only that, we had to sort out to old money, new paper money and new plastic money as well. Quite ok lah the task, except that it's really nerve-disturbing that just as you are about to finish sorting out, the Sis added more money to our basket! Nevermind lah, alhamdulillah many people actually donated right? It wasn't a totally boring job 'cause my companions were really entertaining. We joked and discussed and just talked lah. In short, had fun with Naza and Nurain lah! At about 1o plus, our task ended and after putting away the donation boxes, we went out to look at kambing hehe. Kambing so cute! So kesian... So I couldn't eat the rendang daging at my grandma's house...

Wah I write so long already... People say (you can read my testimonials and see that since last time one) I'm quiet but when I talk, they always groan 'cause I actually have a lot to say. Hopefully they're not crap! But Ili was like, "Fi jgn tido lah dgr Marliyana ckp. (Fi don't sleep, listen to Marliyana talk.)" Ish, do I bore people that bad??

Eh k lah, my dad wanna use the comp. He kept singing and singing aka bored with tv... Till next time then! Insyallah I'll be talking about the lessons I learn from KRC4 :D

Before leaving Nur Lembah Lenggong... *Sniff* Teman Betapa Pilunya Hati Menghadapi Perpisahan Ini.


Fatayaats in girls' dorm 'Mahsuri Lodge' before leaving the room for the last time.


Gambar dah cantik2, cept aku takde. Bukan takde, tapi terjatoh kat blakang Atikah/Nazihah. Sampai lebam my kaki!


'Mahsuri Lodge' aka the girls' dorm. Nice colour rite? Like my multiply site hehe.


Seri Demak aka the surau. Allahu Akhbar!


Seri Embun aka the dining area. You can see Cikgu Fauzan, Cikgu Roy & Cikgu Norsyam here as well.


Lingering behind after our last lunch here...

In memory of the great time we had at Nur Lembah Lenggong, I shall post some pics of KRC4. A picture speaks a thousand words... And in my opinion, so does a song. So pardon me for the lyrics & pics bombard ya :P Well, here goes!


Participants in front of Ghufran at like 4am in the morning when we reached Sg.


Sunset. Taken during the bus ride back to Sg.


Sunset between 2 gunungs.


Kelapa sawit "botak". Look at the clouds!


Holding up kain belonging to one of the guys to stop the leak.


Fatayaats with Ustaz2 in front of Sungai Perak


That's the design for KRC4 shirt.

Hmm... I dunno why I can't add more pics, so I shall continue another day. Look out for pictures of Nur Lembah Lenggong: the girls' dorm, the dining area, the surau...

A veil hangs over your face
A string ties your hands together
Your eyes reveal nothing
Your mouth remain sealed

You confuse people around you
Cos you are confused yourself
You let people wonder who you are
Cos you wonder about it as well

A locked gate surrounds all around you
The key to it locked in your heart
You wish to break down this barrier
Yet you can't reach the key cos your hands are tied

When will you spread your wings and fly
Free yourself from the enclosure you'd created
It is time, after waiting for so long
Take the opportunity and fly free...

- By me...

I dunno how to explain what I'd written. Wanna say it's crap... there's some truth in it though. For example, the title itself... I do keep asking myself who am I. I dunno if it's important to know the answer but like, when you're 17 you expect yourself to know who you are and what you want.

I only know one thing. I'm a servant of Allah the Almighty and I want to be in His heaven at the end of time. But in life? What do I wanna achieve? What do I wanna be when I grow up? Grow up is not far away. And I myself realise, as much as I'm the same with different people, I am different in some ways. That's why I dunno how to react when two different groups of my friends come together.

Anyway, while looking for the song 'Teman Sejati', I came across other songs by Brothers and I think 'Satu Perjuangan' is a very meaningful song...

Syukur Pada Yang Esa
Rahmat PemberianNya
Persaudaraan, Keharmonian

Jalinkan Kasih Sayang
Hulurkanlah Bantuan
Kepada Yang Memerlukannya

Mari Kita Bina Satu Ummah Majujaya
Mula Diri, Keluarga, Sahabat
Masyarakat Dan Negara

Dengan Satu Perjuangan
Satu Arah Tujuan
Di Bawah Rahmat Yang Esa

Kita Melangkah Seiringan
Satu Perjuangan

Rintangan Pasti Melanda
Jangan Undur Walau Selangkah
Teruskan Perjuangan
Hingga Ke Akhirnya
Andai Kau Gugur
Andai Kau Syahid
Kau DiredhaiNya

Lyric from liriklagu and you can hear the song from this guy's multiply site. You can find the song 'Teman Sejati' and 'Doa Perpisahan' there as well.

To all KRC4 participants, this song goes out to all of you. Wish I can attach the song to here but I don't know how hehe. Hope lyrics are fine...

Selama ini
Kumencai-cari
Teman yang sejati
Buat menemani
Perjuangan suci

Bersyukur kini
PadaMu Illahi
Teman yang dicari
Selama ini
Telah kutemui

Dengannya di sisi
Perjuangan ini
Senang diharungi
Bertambah murni
Kasih Illahi
KepadaMu Allah
Kupanjatkan doa
Agar berkekalan
Kasih sayang kita

Kepadamu teman
Ku pohon sokongan
Pengorbanan dan pengertian
Telah kuungkapkan
Segala-galanya...

Selama ini
Kumencai-cari
Teman yang sejati
Buat menemani
Perjuangan suci

Bersyukur kini
PadaMu Illahi
Teman yang dicari
Selama ini
Telah kutemui

Dengannya di sisi
Perjuangan ini
Senang diharungi
Bertambah murni
Kasih Illahi

KepadaMu Allah
Kupohon restu
Agar kita kekal bersatu
Kepadamu teman
Teruskan perjuangan
Pengorbanan dan kesetiaan
Telah kuungkapkan
Segala-galanya
Itulah tandanya
Kejujuran kita

Kumencai-cari
Teman yang sejati
Buat menemani
Perjuangan suci

Remember, we sang this song while holding onto each other in front of Sungai Perak on the last night, before our night trek, during Persantren Lenggong's performance? Miss you guys loads. I'm glad there's memories to hold on to. Wish you guys all the best and may Allah bless our friendship and guide us to Him. :D

Bagai Sakti
Lagu: M. Nasir
Penyanyi: Siti Nurhaliza (S) & M. Nasir (M)

S: Cinta datang, tanpa diundang, seumur masa tercipta

M: Dia datang bagai sakti, bagai menyaksi mekar, kembang pagi
S: Cinta datang, dengan senyuman, panasnya membakar mentari

S&M: Wajah yang tergambar, tak akan terpudar
S: Dari hati insan yang fana ini
S&M: Fana ini...

M: Tak mungkin mentari, akan terus sembunyi
S: Tiada sempadan, tak bisa ku lewati

S&M: Jika ini hakikatnya, aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku
S: Menantimu walau sengsara
S&M: Jika ini ketentuan-Nya

S&M: Jika ini hakikatnya, aku serahkan jiwa dan raga,
Jika ini ketentuan-Nya,
kau 'kan jadi milikku... jua

Taken from http://mobiler.blogdrive.com/archive/8.html

Tadi petang terdengar lagu ni kat radio, teringatkan cerita Puteri Gunung Ledang yang sungguh klasik. Menyesal tak tengok musikal PGL...:( Lagu ni sendiri bagai sakti yang menusuk dan mengusik jiwa dan raga. Ia membandingkan cinta dengan mentari. Metaphorical (Wow, the last time I used this word was in Sec 4)... Memang kenalah dengan cerita PGL.

Aku nak blog pasal KRC!!! I don't care if it's 1am in the morning and I've still not started on my OTCM and CSAS project to be discussed tmr. I just wanna blog! It's like so... emotional seh... I went to Titisan just now and like so many things mentioned there reminded me of KRC. Cakap Faci, aku ingat Cikgu Fauzan. Nyanyi lagu teman sejati ingat persembahan Persantren Lenggong. Camne ni?? I miss the KRC peeps so so badly seh...

KRC4: The first KRC I attend. Initially I was contemplating whether to go GL camp or KRC, but since I wasn't accepted as GL, I decided to join KRC. And am I glad to have been a part of KRC4! It's such a memorable, wonderful, enjoyable learning experience. Playing 'Secret Admirer', playing war game "Move up!", "Fire!", "Take cover!", doing superman stunt for flying fox, building our own raft from bamboo and buoy, paddling the raft with a bottle, swimming 'under' the raft, peeling potatoes with fingernails, cutting potatoes with rocks, getting sharp thorns into my sole, performing 'boria' in front of everyone, singing 'teman sejati' with friends, going night trekking, being left alone in the forest, sleeping late night after night, bathing under freezing cold water, crying my eyes out, not having any appetite to eat, hugging friends, giving away and receiving presents and... many more.

KRC is like my TMS Sec 3 Resilience Camp except that it's more disciplined and fruitful. I really enjoyed myself and wish I can repeat the whole thing again!!! Sometimes I just sit down and flood myself in the memories, I feel myself flying through space and time and being plunged back at Nur Lembah Lenggong, with my friends whom I've considered family.

Persantren Lenggong... I especially cannot forget you guys. From not knowing each other to becoming one strong and united winning team. *waves flag* As Irsyad said, there's the mother, the brother, the sister... lol. We WERE one family away from our family.

I feel like crying... But somehow my tears seem to have dried up from the last day at Nur Lembah Lenggong when I cried till my eyes go soooo red and puffy.

I have loads more to say, to go into detail of each of the activities, especially water rafting and night trekking which for both, as scared as I was I enjoyed them the most.

I wanna put up the 'Teman Sejati' song here.

I can't wait for Sunday to meet PL and the other KRC members.

I'm so sorry to write in bits and pieces.

I lost four kilos during the camp btw.

P.S. I cooked rice today and it turned out well! And Ili picked me as Public Relations... Not under study... As of 9pm yesterday, I AM the PR! *shrugs*

Alhamdulillah... Praise to Allah for safely sending us to and bringing us back from Nur Lembah Lenggong, Grik, Perak, Malaysia where the KRC4 and activities were held. I enjoyed the camp very much. Not only that, I also learnt many things that helps me become a better Muslim.

Hmm... Term tests coming and I have a lot of responsibilities right now, so I apologize for the lack of updates. I'll just do what I can kk? And for now, I only have time to upload two pics:

The BBBIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGG Fityan Family!

Fatayaats... Fatayaats... Macam tak paham2 lagi... Kekkekeh