Don't laugh at me. I know I'm having the semestral break and should be feeling NON-STRESSED. Nevertheless, I had a mental breakdown yesterday and just started crying. I was like unable to do anything yesterday. I just wanted to lie on my bed and think quietly (speaking of which, I'd been talking to myself lately) but people around me just seemed to be demanding one thing or another! It sucks know... My motivation for ibadah also slowly vanishing. I was so impatient and angry and restless yesterday I couldn't pray properly. Oh God, forgive me. Hopefully, today would be better and tomorrow would be even better and by the last 10 days of Ramadhan, I hope I'd be at my best form.

Anyway, currently in a jumble on my mind right now:
Sirah
Tafsir (Sheesh, I came online for that! Forgot about it completely lol)
Jude Deveraux
Library Books
Help out at Ghufran
Iftar with Ghufran family
Iftar with Nur-Ikhwan (Dunno if I should go...)
Sleep
Sleep
Sleep
Terawih
Read Quran (I thought of finishing 1 juz per day, so I can finish 30 by the 30th of Ramadhan. Oh well, I'm still at Juz 1, like 5-6th page? Hahakz)

Hmm... Been online for quite some time already, think I should get started on the Sirah project. Haiz, I just wanna sleep!! Cya peeps... Talk to me, stop me from talking to myself!!!

The theme for this year's Ramadhan Youth Challenge (RYC)... RYC has more or less motivated me to become a better Muslim. With the help of KPR, religious class and one of my religious class books, I am trying. Insyallah, I'll grab the opportunities provided by the upcoming month of forgiveness, Ramadhan. I hope my family and friends will help motivate me further. And I hope Allah will guide me. And you.

Anyway, check out this blog. It's very informative on Islam. And this site. It contains a lot of information on Ramadhan.

We humans sin practically everyday, but Allah doesn't give up on us, yet provides us with a lot of opportunities to redeem ourselves. Our sins can actually be turned into good deeds. Believe: Allah is most forgiving, he forgives our sins even if our sins are as many as the bubbles at sea (heard that somewhere, forgive me for not stating hadiths) on condition that he ask forgiveness from Him in the state of true guilt. Ramadhan is just around the corner. Grab this chance to ask Allah for forgiveness and amplify the QUANTITY of your ibadah. Insyallah, Allah will forgive us.

So envious of all those who did extremely well. I did well... well. But not well enough to be considered extremely well, cause I know I could have done better for MST sem paper. Like I kept telling myself, "I should have practiced more... I shouldn't have overlooked it..." bla bla bla. And OC, it's really good but I'm rather disappointed! I thought OC was my strongest subject, the results prove not. As for MST, I know I deserved it lar, should have practiced more!!!!

Oh well... Anyway, congratulations to those whom I considered had extremely well. Congratulations, but "you know you could have done better" to those who got results like me. Not bad, "work harder (and smarter) next semester and you'll reap what you sow" to those who didn't do so well. Last, but certainly not least, "don't despair, you still have time to get the results you want" to those who failed and need to sit for supp paper.

Haiz... Wish I'd gone over to Jamie's house for piano 'lessons'. Would have felt better I suppose.

(Oh God, cheer up Marliyana! Be satisfied with your results now while you can. Start despairing next sem, not now!! :()

PS. Sorry for being away for too long. Computer spoilt. During that time, I had some things happen to me that I could have blogged about then. But now... nevermind...