For some reason, I find it really hard to sleep today. Alot of things on my mind and how I wish to continue working non-stop till all are done, yet I know I MUST sleep and rest my mind and body.

Alhamdulillah, results are out and I guess they're satisfactory. I hope I can raise my GPA next sem to at least a Second Lower Class honours, all the better if I can get Second Upper Class but let's take it one sem at a time ok?

And I'm loving my madrasah results! Can't wait to grad and have the final transcript in my hands at the end of this year! Then, I'd have my weekends to fill with other things I've been wanting to do.

I have to pull my hat off to people who have goals and work hard towards accomplishing them. My goals waver and sometimes disappear. Yet, there are some goals that have been on my list and are still yet to be accomplished. Alhamdullillah, there're also a few that I've successfully accomplished.

Finally, after years I passed my driving test on my first try on 12 April with only 4 points. Right now, I want to be able to drive, and park, and fill in with petrol on my own. Let's not rush things and give me some time aye? Earliest probably before I start Year 3 in August and latest maybe by the end of this year? I think my dad meant well, but by asking me to get on the expressway as soon as I pass was daunting and kinda scared the wits out of me. Lemme stay within the neighbourhood first aye? Haha

I will be having 7 modules next sem. As much as I want to take Mandarin at NTU, I would have to travel all the way to HSS school which is like all the way across NTU compund from NIE... And the process to take a NTU elective is already so troublesome that it turns me off. On the other hand, I have no interest in any NIE elective modules... :( Hmm, I don't even know if I should take an elective this coming sem or the next...

I'm still exploring my options on what should I do when I graduate from DPIA. I've already requested to teach @live at Ghufran (and even if I can't get one at Ghufran, I can always request to teach at Istiqamah, just that it is abit far and travelling takes up time and costs $$$). But I still wanna learn as well. I'm considering either a part-time Arabic or Al-Qur'an course at Zuhri or take Arabic at Al-Markaz like Harizah and a couple of other friends who've been recommending the institute. Syafiqah also suggested taking A Levels in Islamic Knowledge. Hmmmmmmmmm....

I'm feeling motivated and spoilt for choice right now, all the more making me more awake.

I need to sleep! Alright, I shall go close my eyes and wait till sleep invites...

I have not given in because I have not tried... But I'm afraid to try, because trying means I may lose something precious forever...

It's more than two weeks of holidays after exams and I've filled my time with exciting activities :) Really refreshing indeed...

I miss blogging, but each time I want to blog, there's always something better I ought to be doing, even now haha. I've got some programme materials to prepare by tmr morning. And some reading to do as well.

Hmm what should I start with...

On the way home from kembangan this evening, I encountered an Indian boy of about 5 years old who boarded the double-decker bus I was in. He was with his father. Initially the father sat somewhere towards the back of the bus at the long seats facing each other and pulled the son to sit with him. The boy refused and started to cry. It's the ngada-ngada merengek kinda cry. I can't understand a single word he was saying until his dad repeats whatever the son said to him. It turns out that the boy wanted to sit right at the back of the bus, and when he didn't get his way, he cried. Not long after, the father gave in and brought him to sit at the back of the bus followed by a gentle, "Happy?" Unfortunately, this boy is really hard to please. he was still crying, complaining why is the bus so fast and why must they alight only 3 stops later. For goodness sake, I was silently eating my heart out hoping the bus would please go faster so I can get to my destination faster and wondering if I should have taken an alternative route, and here this boy is saying the bus is going too fast??!! The father was consoling him that they'll meet the mother faster and the mother has bought something special for him. There's this one time the boy complains to the father, "Why is the bus going so fast??" and to my surprise, the father answered, "Because we're sitting at the back of the bus, that's why it seems like the bus is going fast." I was torn on whether I should laugh or smack my head. What kind of logic is that?? Is this what parents are teaching their kids when they're young?? I pity my fellow teachers who'll have some hard time debunking myths like this.

I really can't stand kids who're very pampered, wants everything their way, cry or scream the moment they don't get what they want, too dependent, who scream and shout and run around everywhere. In short terms: misbehaved. I can accept kids for being kids, that's only natural but misbehaviour really sits on my nerves, that's why I can't teach primary school. At least I believe so. I enjoyed it when I had to relief Tweens 4 and Tweens 3, maybe I just had the privilege of getting the better-behaved students. Of course there are a few very mischievous ones and they really test my patience, especially this one class who was generally made up of rebellious kids, truly cekik darah....

Anyway, enough of that. Since I started NIE and found out that my lecturers are researchers, I have always wanted to be involved in a project and after approaching a few teachers. My dream finally came true! I was from a meeting just now with my lecturer and 4 other students. I just feel so happy and can't wait to feel at home in a lab again. Eventhough I'm still abit clueless about the project. I hope I'll get the hang of it along the way. My lecturer is kind enough to let me be part of the project, and he even obliged to what I like to do and will let me do carry out the experiments that are to my liking hehe. He passed me one of the dissertations of a past masters student to read the protocol. Holding it my hands, I wish one day i would carry a similar document, but bearing my name on it instead. InsyaAllah. If I get to masters, I would like to apply to teach at poly level :) and hopefully i would get to handle some of my own projects then! :)))

Dreams will be dreams if you don't work to make it happen. I'm in a rather hardworking mode now. Seeking spiritual boosters :) I just bought a couple od religious books at JB yesterday and can't wait to pore into them :)