I have so many things to do!!! I really really need to focus and that's like the last thing that I feel I can achieve... Like I'm so dead sleepy but,well I have deadlines to meet... Serves me right for taking up 1001 things to handle at 1 time. Haha multitask konon, I feel like I'm on the noose waiting for somebody to kick the bucket for me cause I'm too scared to kick it myself. :P I just wanna challenge myself, but sometimes I just feel I'm being stupid.. As in: STOOOOPID... Either that or I'm being TOO CLEVER haha whatever lah Marl... You're babbling!

Anyway, 3 of my friends just challenged me to achieve something by the end of this month. It's definitely a motivation, but I don't seem to have the confidence to do it larh... Pray I'd win the challenge yeah?

I had auditions for Pesta Peti Putih (PPP) at meeting room this afternoon. People would be glad to get a role but I'm like scared of the committment I would have to give if I get through. But of course la, I do want to get through. It'd be loads of fun! And.. loads of hardwork too... Hmmz...

For the last 3 days, I had Bunayya Camp under Perdaus at Pasir Ris Park. I was one of the organisers as a programmer!! I had a lot of fun even though it's like super tiring. On the first night, it was like a training for trainers kinda thing. We had a war game between the different teams and even though programmers lost, we had a really good strategy and I'm so proud of the teamwork! But I was the first one out seh... I should have just thrown my water bomb at Syafiqah!!!! I didn't get to shoot boo hoo... Oh oh, then after that we did solo night walk at the mangrove swamp. Oh my... My imagination seriously went wild seh...

The kids, our participants, started coming only on the following morning. They're so cute I tell you!!!! Most of them were very active and I'm so proud of the girls!!!! All the girls except 3 went into the mangrove swamp ALONE. None turned back to the entrance and we even have some o excited to go!!! Oh, and overall, the highest scorer for the camp was a girls' team, De Sunshinez!!! Which reminds me.. I was the scorekeeper and I tell you, the job sounds easy but the keeping track and the tabulations can give you such a BIG headache seh...

Hmm... And before the camp, I had my term tests.. I'm not sure how I'd do. I sure hope I do well but... I dunno lah!!!

I have another camp coming up this Friday which is Camp Xplore under Fityan Ghufran and again I'm a programmer. Just that this time I have a lot more to do since there's only a total of 2 programmers.. Aaaah!!! But I'm looking forward to the camp! I'm sure the participants would enjoy it, insyaAllah...

OMG! I am like super duper tired.. My eyes are so red, my head is so mulled, my face is so full of pimples and my heart and my mind seems to be torn apart. I've got to pull myself together!!! I'd better go now. It's abit of a relief to be able to post an entry today. Till the next entry then!!

Paradise by Native Deen

Chorus: Paradise is only for the people who are righteous
So accept Islam you might just get the mercy when you pray to Allah (God)
You know that we want to go to Heaven
When you pray to Allah, When you pray to Allah, When you pray to Allah
Anything you want you gonna have when you think of it
There ‘ain't nothing you would like you gonna love it when you pray to Allah
You know that we want to go to Heaven
When you pray to Allah, When you pray to Allah, When you pray to Allah

Brothers acting like they're Rock
Sisters acting like they're hot
Muslims smoking pot
It happens a lot
And I hope my people stop and think about the clock
It goes tick + tock, life is over then you drop
Six feet deep under the earth waiting for your second birth
Allah will raise you up to see what your life was worth
What did your ears hear, what did your eyes see
What did your mouth say to those in your family
‘Cos children cussing out their dads, moms is getting mad
Parents getting frustrated ‘cos kids are getting bad
They're physically involved
and some are getting drunk
And others acting like Paradise is not what they want
And the mothers and father crying, “What happened to our baby?
Tried to raise ‘em right and now this child has grown up crazy.”
Maybe it's because their self esteem is really low
Or maybe it's because the children didn't know THAT

Chorus

Let me speak with my Ikhwan, my brothers in Islam
I said you're looking like the Rock now what was on my mind
Sport the newest clothing line so the sisters think we're fine
Imitate JZ, LL Cool J, Eminem and Genuine
But can't nobody see Islamic identity
‘Cos we dress just like the people on TV
This life of glitter and commotion and amusement ain't for me
Life after death is the true reality
So brothers where yall at, let's represent this deen
If you wearing Shukr gear you know exactly what I mean
Tell the club you gotta go, leave them drugs and thugs in jail
Living ghetto fabulous will lead you straight to hell
Time to step up to the plate, it's never too late
You're a member of this Ummah so you don't assimilate
Disseminate this knowledge, go tell it to your bro
‘Cos I'm sure there's other people in this world who do not know THAT

Chorus

Sisters don't you go to sleep, its gonna get deep
You're the mothers of this Ummah paradise is at your feet
But your phone is going beep from some boy that thinks you're sweet
But he ‘ain't the type of guy that you want your parents to meet
You're dressing to expose like those music videos
It's so tight, it'd be better if you loosen up your clothes
Be careful with these bros ‘cos Native Deen has seen a lot of sisters having babies with no Nikah (marriage) or walimah
So lower your gaze, fast a couple of days
Ask the scholars how does it feel when you give Allah praise
You think this life is a game but Shaitan is playing us
Go back to MYNA Raps and get Jihad of the Nafs
But you're wearing your hijab, I know that makes you strong
I know it's kind of tough when you feel that you don't belong
Being young it ‘ain't easy but don't ever feel alone
We were there, it was rough so we want it to be known THAT

Chorus

(I remember Ust Aishah sharing this song with me and I'd like to share this with all of you out there. Do visit the website and listen to the song HOME>>enter>>discography>>samples>>audio. Enjoy!)

3 papers down. 3 more to go! Wish me well friends!!

Anyway, Qiyam at Masjid Firdaus was a blast! Looking back, I dunno why I actually thought twice about joining. I don't regret it at all. Time well spent I'd say even though on Sunday, I slept practically the whole day and didn't get to study much for FPath. Nah-mind! Learnt alot. Alot of takeaways from that 'super-extended-kpr'. I really feel 'tertingkat' (ala improvement la deh) hehe. Alhamdulillah..

Hmm... I'm only halfway through my term tests yet I feel that my term break is full already lol. This Friday, after Biochem test in the morning, I hope to go out with Ad then meeting Aishah at airport for lunch at 2 or 3pm then at 6pm, I'll be at Pasir Ris Park for Camp Bunayya till Sunday night. Next Friday, insyaAllah I'll be part of Camp Xplore till Saturday. I wanna go for the camp but my mum macam reluctant gitu, "Asyik2 camp.." I understand.. I've not gone out with her for so long and I have so many activities outside but well... I dunno what to hope haha. So yeah, then the following Monday I'll be going for my BTT test, belum belajar pon!!!! Then that Saturday, I hope my dad ajak gi Johor. Long time never go... In between all these activities, ade banyak lagi activities dah planned out. If I were to write my whole schedule for this term break, berjela2 lah post ni. So yeah, to cut stories short, sesape yg nak kluar ngan me, bilang siang2 ye! Ceh... Hahaz.

Haiz, PCT tomorrow.. I dunno how to study for PCT larh!

Ad, get well soon yeah? Kak Aishah, safe journey to u! Jun, Siti, Sylvia, Val and so many others, I'm missing you guys!

K, gtg eat and study... To those having term tests like me, all the best to ya!