I'm sorry. I'm just very tired and because of that, I tend to shut some things out that are not to my liking. I'd rather keep quiet than burst out in unnecessary anger... It's a bit irresponsible, but let's just say that's the best I can do now...
There seems to be much fear, gloom and worry shrouding my heart at this moment, astaghfirullah astaghfirulla astaghfirullah al-azim...
For some reason when I can understand, people can't... And when people understand, I can't! What in the world is wrong with my level of understanding?? Lol, different frequency? Mine's probably that of Mars or Venus or whattt...
Anyway, I'm sad today... I'd been frequently late these past few weeks, and I don't want to be... :((( Yet I can't seem to be on time at all.
Gonna bash through the jungles again tmr and wed.
Still so many things to do, yet so little time!
Seeing so many of my friends at Aku & Dia 3 make me wish I was there too. It seemed like a powerful spiritual booster! When I was there for A&D2, I seemed not to know anyone and now that so many whom I know are there, I couldn't be there...
InsyaAllah ada hikmahnya...
Astaghfirullah al-azim, semoga Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa kami dan menyucikan jiwa kami. MasyaAllah indah peringatan dalam artikel ini:
Yang mereka rasakan adalah penyesalan yang amat sangat, atas sebuah hijab yang tersingkap...
Ketika lelaki yang tak halal baginya, bergelayut dalam alam fikirannya, yang mereka rasakan adalah ketakutan yang begitu besar akan cinta yang tak suci lagi...
Ketika rasa rindu mulai merekah di hatinya, yang mereka rasakan adalah kesedihan yang tak terperih akan sbuah asa yang tak semestinya…
Tak ada senyum bahagia, tak ada rona malu…
Yang ada adalah malam-malam yang dipenuhi air mata penyesalan atas cinta-Nya yang ternodai…
Yang ada adalah kegelisahan, karena rasa yang salah arah…
Yang ada adalah penderitaan akan hati yang mulai sakit…
Ketika Akhwat Jatuh Cinta…
Bukan harapan untuk bertemu yang mereka nantikan, tapi yang ada adalah rasa ingin menghindar dan menjauh dari orang tersebut…
Tak ada kata-kata cinta dan rayuan…
Yang ada adalah kekhawatiran yang amat sangat, akan hati yang mulai merindukan lelaki yang belum halal atau bahkan tak akan pernah halal baginya…
Ketika mereka jatuh cinta, maka perhatikanlah, kegelisahan di hatinya yang tak mampu lagi memberikan ketenangan di wajahnya yang dulu teduh…
Mereka akan terus berusaha mematikan rasa itu bagaimanapun caranya…
Bahkan kendati dia harus menghilang, maka itu pun akan mereka lakukan...
Alangka kasihannya jika akhwat jatuh cinta…
Karena yang ada adalah penderitaan…
Tapi ukhti…
Bersabarlah…
Jadikan ini ujian dari Rabbmu…
Matikan rasa itu secepatnya…
Pasang tembok pembatas antara kau dan dia…
Pasang duri dalam hatimu, agar rasa itu tak tumbuh bersemai…
Cuci dengan air mata penyesalan akan hijab yang sempat tersingkap...
Putar balik kemudi hatimu, agar rasa itu tetap terarah hanya padaNya…
Pupuskan rasa rindu padanya dan kembalikan dalam hatimu rasa rindu akan cinta Rabbmu…
Ukhti… Jangan khawatir kau akan kehilangan cintanya…
Karena bila memang kalian ditakdirkan bersama, maka tak akan ada yang dapat mencegah kalian bersatu…
Tapi ketahuilah, bagaimana pun usaha kalian untuk bersatu, jika Allah tak menghendakinya, maka tak akan pernah kalian bersatu…
Ukhti… Bersabarlah… Biarkan Allah yang mengaturnya...
Maka yakinlah... Semuanya akan baik-baik saja…
Semua Akan Indah Pada Waktunya…
Dipetik dari http://srikandiislamiyyah.blogspot.com/2010/12/ketika-akhwat-jatuh-cinta.html
Allah Allah.
Hmm, there seems to be alot of things going on and alot of things to do! Such that I'm scared just to make a to-do list, scared that it'd be too overwhelming for me to take, opps!
Amanah. Responsibility.
A challenge to carry out. Sometimes you simply have too many on your plate already that it is time to say NO. I have been saying NOs and I still have many on my plate. How did I survive before?? Haha, good question.
Time management.
Well, maybe I managed my time better before. Maybe also I simply ignored my health before and keep pushing on. And... well, let's not deny it, I'm getting older *gasp* and energy is just not the same anymore. I try to keep my days filled with only 1 thing at a time. Quite hard to prioritise some over others but I simply don't have the energy to run around to 3 or more places in a day.
License.
Well, now that I have a license, it should be easier to move around and cover more distance right? Wrong. I just passed and it'd take months before that license can truly come to good use. (InsyaAllah it WILL) Passing was just the beginning :)
Things I NEED and things I WANT.
I don't mean 'things' in the literal sense. But rather goals and dreams. Things in the literal sense, alhamdulilah I'd been able to control hehe, like I still want an iTouch and yet I still have yet to find enough reason to own one hehe. In this such hi-tech era, before long i WOULD find a strong enough reason.
Goals & dreams.
Anyway, I was referring to goals and dreams. I've been wanting to be involved in a research project before I decide whether to do FYP at NIE or not, and finally I'm in one now! And gosh, I totally didn't foresee having to bash through jungles and hugging trees and digging soil along with the prospect of having to come face to face with a snake, yikes. So far no sightings yet, but sheesh we were amongst the mess at Bukit Batok Park when this auntie shouted out to us saying, "Be careful! After a rain there's normally many cobras!" and with that I lunged to grab my friend's bag infront of me hahah! It was pretty funny actually, I saw her pen dropped, and I motioned to bend down ti pick it up but thinking of seeing any snakes I immediately straightened up back lol.
I want my As next sem. I really do. And I mean no Cs and Ds alongside it to offset the gpa -_- Frustrating okeh to see your gpa getting offset when it should be UP UP UP! Need to work harder...
At this age, I still have many goals and dreams unfulfilled. Really salute those who're on their way of achieving each and every one of them!
WORK WORK WORK.
Alrighty then, gotta get back to (unpaid) 'work'. Gotta get some things done before lunch and zohor and off I go to Vigilante Drive next! So much for wanting to drop by ghufran today, ooooopppps!
